After a deep sleep with murky dreams of shadows and large things moving beneath the sea, Zach woke to an empty room. Someone had flipped the blinds open, and sunlight streamed in at too-steep an angle.
Zach checked his phone in a moment of panic: 9:10.
He threw on clothes, observing that he was due for some time in the laundry room.
The blond was standing by the bench as he crossed the quad. She was wearing jeans that flattered her, and a bright print blouse. He set his intention to send her away. The sweet image of her and her dog had lingered with him; he had no desire to get her mixed up in any of this.
"Let's go," he said. The words come from his mouth before he even had a chance to tell her to go back to her room. Startled at himself, he checked his stride.
"Wait," he said.
She had started to walk in his direction, and now she stopped.
He was walking again. "Come," he said.
And she came.
Dammit! What is this?
"Where are we going?" she asked. There was nothing unusual in her voice.
"Bio center," he answered. "Why did you come this morning?"
"Oh," she said, and laughed lightly: "You know. Saturday morning, something to do!"
So he could ask her questions. He could vary the script, just not the plot. Hmmm.
"What's your name?" he asked as they left the quad, taking the wide steps up to the Sciences complex.
"Sara."
"Mine's Zach," he said.
"Nice to meet you, Zach," she said politely.
The freshness in her face, and the sweetness in her voice made him very uneasy. He was afraid for where this was going.
At least it's not Maddy,
he thought.
* * *
The door to Adjunct #3 was open.
"Ah welcome, Zechariah! Thank you for bringing a friend. Introduce us!"
"Sara, this is Professor Enkins."
"Very pleased to meet you, Dr. Enkins."
"Exquisite," Enkins said. "Sarah, my princess, please sit here."
He pointed to one of the cheap, padded chairs.
She sat, folding her hands in her lap.
He came around his desk, very professorial in wool slacks and a tweed jacket over a slightly rumpled white shirt, open at the collar, no tie.
He bent to one knee before her, and caught her gaze. She looked at him placidly, with no surprise or concern.
"Here we are, Lady, see my eyes. Relax, just like that. Be soft. Close your eyes. Sleep."
Her eyes fluttered shut and she softened back into the chair.
Enkins stood.
"You see, Zechariah. You are starting to taste the possibilities. You are a young man, so of course, it's all about sex for you. You chose this tasty morsel, but now you regret it because she's too innocent for what you had in mind. Well, you
think
she is. Trust me, once you take the wrapping off, what's inside is generally much more interesting than the packaging."
"May I speak freely, Sir?"
Enkins settled on the corner of the desk and smiled. "Completely."
"What. The Fuck. Is Going On."
"You actually know completely what's going on, Zechariah. Instead of studying brains by breaking them, you are now getting the chance to study brains--your brain--by enhancing it. By taking off the guardrails, so to speak. We are bypassing certain restrictions that our brains are created with. I with mine, and you with yours. By virtue of these capabilities, sometimes I also make use of yours, in the tiniest of ways."
"This is not tiny," Zach nodded to Sara, dozing peacefully.
"You object?"
"I do! Maybe I asked for this. Maybe I came here of my own volition. But she was just lying in the sun. She didn't choose this."
"Choice!" Enkins snorted. "So little of what happens in most lives has anything to do with choice. Forget about choice. Let's talk about will. Let me hypothesize, Zechariah. You are disturbed because you think your will is being thwarted by mine."
"Maybe; that's part of it."
"Listen, you can have full access to your own will without any shred of mine present when you are strong enough to seize it. Until then, you will only get yourself in trouble. This is powerful stuff we are playing with, Zechariah. And you are a young and--if you don't mind my saying so--slightly confused young man. It's like with driver's insurance: you don't have the experience with heavy machinery to properly control a car. A moment of inattention and people die."
Enkins gestured for Zach's full attention.
"People die, Zechariah."
Zach looked away. "I don't want to hurt anyone."
"And
that
is exactly the mentality that gets people hurt. We'll work on that in time. But first, you have made
fantastic
progress. One thing we all need to be careful of, my young friend: Things are not always what they seem. We'll have to be very careful with you, I think. But for now, let's get down to business. You suddenly found yourself with the ability to experience beyond the edges of your skin, right? You can tune into people who are nearby, or with whom you have some connection. That caught you by surprise. Even more, you began to realize that once tuned in, there was a lot that you could do to influence their behavior, right? But it scares you. And then you realized that I put some checks and balances on you."
"Yeah, all of that. And... and I can't tell what is me and what is not me."
Enkins waved. "The obsession with 'me.' We will get to that in time too. It's not at all what you think it is. But don't worry. Here's the main thing: you are deeply uncomfortable with this experience. Part of you wants to go wild with it, and part of you wants to do good with it, and part of you doesn't trust it at all. You're at war with yourself."
"I don't trust
you
," Zach said.