I canât believe how my life has changed over this past year. I am doing things that I never thought myself capable of doing. I am a married woman with three children that up till recently led a relatively normal life. I have been married for over 20 years and like most married couples we have had some rocky times to get through in our lives.
We reached a point of near divorce a few years back over some serious differences in sexual preference. My husband, Bill, had very strong interests in the bdsm lifestyle. I reluctantly went along with many of his fetishes for many years. We had ânormalâ sex on occasion, but more often than not, our sex drifted to the kinky rather than straight sex.
Bill especially loved the Master/slave scenes where I would be his slave and do anything he desired sexually. There would usually be some form of bondage involved, but at my insistence, never too heavy. When I protested being the slave, he would suggest a switch where I would be the Mistress and make him do my bidding. I know I made a terrible Mistress, but he was a far better slave than I could ever be.
Spanking was another sore spot, pardon the choice of words, in our relationship. He would try to give me a spanking for disobeying him, but I would have nothing of it. I was not interested in pain of any kind. Being tied spread eagle and fucked on the bed or walked around on a leash in the house were as extreme as I would allow. He couldnât even mention anal sex!
Our relationship was strictly monogamous even though Bill often suggested trying to include other couples or friends for our sexual escapades. For some reason, the thought of my fucking another man or sucking another mans cock just turned Bill on. Just talking about it made him so hot he almost could cum in his jeans. I just was not interested in doing anything of the sort.
Finally I reached a point in my life where I said, âEnough is enoughâ. I met a man that was interested in me and made no mention of any sort of kinky sex. When we made love, it was sweet, tender and totally satisfying. Although Bill was a great lover in our early years, as the kinkiness took over, the satisfaction waned. Now I found a man that could really please me without asking me to do anything that I didnât want to do. I made the decision to divorce Bill and began the process. It was short lived however.
We both realized that there were children involved and we had to find a way to make the marriage work if the children were going to be happy. So, I gave up the new man and Bill and I resolved to stay together, however, I denied Bill any sort of sexual activity at least with me. After much consideration and conversation, it was decided that we would continue in an âopenâ marriage. That is, we could each find sexual partners outside the marriage without jealousy or bad feelings. The one thing I was certain of, is that I had no interest in sex with Bill again and as a middle aged woman, I needed it a lot.
We both did what we could to discreetly find sexual partners. It had to be discreet, because as far as the children or anyone else knew, we were a happily married couple. After all, we were at the school functions together, went to the movies together, even slept in the same bed almost every night, so all looked good in the household.
Each of us placed personal ads in various websites and we each found sexual partners. Bill had several ladies that he managed to hook up with and one or two that became his favorites. He still looked at me with lust in his eyes, but he knew that he was not going to get anything at home any more.
I consider myself to be fairly attractive for a woman in her 40âs and apparently so did a lot of men because my mailbox was always full of respondents to my ads. It didnât take me long at all to dive in and find out what meeting, dating and fucking men was all about. I had never had a life like this as a young woman. I was married too young and raising children and of course playing sexual games with Bill. In this new life, I could meet men and take them for a âtest driveâ and find out what they were all about. I had affairs with at least a dozen men, many of them married, and all of them very horny and ready to please me. Some did better than others and I kept them around for as long as I could, but eventually some sort of complication arose that made it necessary to put them aside. That is, until I met Jim.
Jim was somehow different than the other men I had met. He was very intelligent and fairly good looking. He was over 6â0 tall and extremely well hung. The thing that first attracted my attention to him was his passion for what he called Zen sex. His ad mentioned it, and I had never heard of it, but if it made sex even better, how could I resist?