Five years passed before I saw her again, but not one day passed when I did not think of her, at least for a few moments. I went to university and studied and had girlfriends and gained more experience, of life and sex and maybe even love, but the memory of her and the desire for her was always there. I never went back to live in my hometown, but I went back to visit family and friends every now and then. It was about a year after I had finished university that I decided to visit her. I was twenty-three. That would make her forty-seven.
I don't know why, but suddenly I could not get her out of my mind and one night the desire to see her became overwhelming. I was half drunk and lying in bed trying to sleep. My prick became erect immediately, and before I really knew what I was doing I was masturbating and imaging her seducing me. After that I could not get her out of my mind.
I decided to go and visit my parents and while I was there I would drop by and see her. I went to call at the house, ostensibly to look Neil up, but really to see her. I had heard that he had moved out and I went in the middle of the afternoon, when I thought that she would be alone. I was terribly nervous as I walked the streets that led to her house.
Finally I reached her street and then her house. My fear had risen with every step, but I made myself just walk up the path to the door and knock. I was just a young guy back from college visiting and friend and she was just his mum.
No one came; no one was home.
I turned dejected. My wild fantasy reached its inevitable conclusion. She was not home. It seemed like fate. I had to let go. It was no more than a memory that I desired. I wouldn't try again.
I was supposed to be around for a few more days, and I almost made my excuses and returned to London early, but in the end I stayed. I didn't want to disappoint my parents. It was as well that they did not know the real reason that had brought me there.
A couple of days later I was shopping at the local hypermarket and suddenly there she was. We recognized each other immediately. It seemed like a miracle. Fate had changed its mind.
We exchanged greetings and each of us asked how the other was. It was warm and easy and there was even a frisson. She was clearly pleased to see me. Then she asked
'Did you come to the house the other day?'
I paused for a second before saying 'yes.'
My neighbour told me someone called, and described you. I knew who it was straight away. I'm glad you came by; you have not forgotten us!'
'Of course not; how could I?' I asked. It was just a politeness, but she smiled and made strong eye contact for a second; finding a deeper meaning in it.
'Neil doesn't live at home anymore. Did you know?'
'No, I didn't,' I lied.
'Yes, he moved in with his girlfriend a couple of years ago.'
'I see,' I said.
'You're all grown up now,' she added.
'Yes,' I said.
Then she said 'you can come and see me though.'
It could have been a casual friendliness, or it might have been an invitation.
'Ok, I will.'
'Come tomorrow afternoon at three. I finish work early on Wednesday's.'
'Great, I'll come.'
'You will,' she said, and for a moment a glint came into her eye.
It was an invitation, and she had given me enough to hope that it was not only an invitation for coffee. But then that is how she was; you never really knew for sure.
The next day at half past two I set out for her house. I had none of the nervousness and fear in me than I had carried there a few days before. I did not quite think that I was on a sure thing, but I was confident that something was going to happen. The closer I got to her house, the more fiercely my desire for her burned.
She answered the door and smiled warmly and asked me to come in, and she led me through to the living room. We sat down and did the small talk you do with your friend's mum when you have not seen her for a long time.
'Is Neil doing well? What's his girlfriend like?' I asked.
'He is, and his girlfriend is a nice girl. She is called Teresa. Maybe you know her?'
'I don't think so,' I said.
'She is an improvement on the ones you both used to have when you were at school.'
'That was a long time ago now,' I said.
'Yes, you are all grown up now,' she replied, and then added 'I think I said that yesterday, didn't I?'
On that note she went off to the kitchen and came back a minute later with a bottle of red wine and two glasses and sat down.
'Would you like some wine?' she asked. 'I always have a glass in the afternoon. It's my little indulgence. One of them anyway.' She smiled that come on smile again.
She asked me to open the bottle. I did, and handed it back to her and she took it over to the cabinet where she had stood the glasses and poured. She filled both glasses. Then she came and handed me a glass and sat in the chair opposite the sofa. Immediately we were beyond son's friend and friend's mum and she was in heavy flirtation mode. She threw her left leg over her right, revealing a lot of thigh and stocking top as she did it.
In that moment I thought to myself how good she looked. She was sexier than ever, and I remembered a day long ago now when I had sat in that living room with her and Neil and she had been wearing a black suit like the one she was wearing today and I had got a raging hard on; just being in the same room as her. Now my cock was hardening again. Just being near her was enough to make me erect. This time, though, I felt sure that the erection she had given me was not going to be wasted, but I was doing my best to hide it, just as I had before.
She still knew how to flirt. At that she was expert. She was one of those rare people; there are men who can do it too, but they are mostly women, who could seem to be about to invite you to bed, but when you made your pass they would ask in surprise 'how could you have taken me to mean that?' and it would not seem disingenuous...the view of her skirt riding high up her thigh and the momentary flash of her gusset as she had crossed her legs were merely an accident.
The black business suit looked more expensive than the one she was on that long ago day; well cut and a black silk blouse and black stockings, and I had noticed a pair of expensive looking black high heeled shoes at the door as I had come in. Evidently, she saw that my look lingered on her longer than it should have and as if in explanation and as if to deflect attention she said
'You like my suit?'
'Yes, I replied.
'I'm working again now, back at the paper; my old job, secretary to the editor.'
'Great,' I said.
Being a woman with a career again suited her.