"I ache down there." I already knew I was going to lose this one. Moreover, I wasn't so sure I wanted to win.
"Barry, tomorrow you're going to be all by yourself for the day while I'm at work. I want you to go through tomorrow aching for me just like you're aching now, fantasizing about me, until I come back home. And then, maybe, just maybe, you'll get what you want.
"Doesn't that excite you?" she said. "I know it drives me crazy to think about it."
I looked up at the naked Amazon towering over me. Her foot rested lightly on my chest, and her pussy was barely visible in its nest of black curls. From within the hair spilling over her shoulders, she smiled triumphantly. For so many years, I'd imagined her like this, passionate, demanding, selfish. Now my fantasy had come true, and it was clear that she really did intend to toy with me until I became a quivering mass of need. And it had only been one day. How far did she intend to go with this? How much could I handle?
But even as I thought this, still looking up at her, I could feel myself sinking further into her grasp. If I were going to be free of her, I'd have to do it now, before it was too late. Every hour in her presence would make it more difficult to set boundaries.
"I'll wait 'til tomorrow," I whispered.
My self-betrayal was complete.
"Of course you will." She gazed at me with those lovely eyes. "You know how good it will be. And think how it will strengthen your ultimate pleasure if you go all day, hard as an iron rod. The ache in your crotch will remind you constantly of me. If I let you come now, that wouldn't happen, would it?"
"Probably not," I admitted. It was too late to save myself. I was already at RoseAnn's mercy.
She removed her foot so I could stand up and escape the coarse itch of the carpet. My testicles felt like cannonballs, and the congested ache spread though my pelvis.
"Poor Barry," she said, taking my hands. "You're aching for what you think you deserve, but I won't give it to you. Not yet. That fantastic orgasm wasn't only because of that lovely tongue of yours. I decided just before I came that I'd leave you unsatisfied tonight, and the thought just about drove me crazy."
"How can that be?"
She gazed down at me through lidded eyes. "I have a thing about power. I was probably born with it. It's a drug that makes me feel irresistible and confident. It cranks up my libido, and my climaxes are like nothing on earth. You should feel proud that you can do that for me."
"I do."
"And I've learned something important about men--as long as I make you go without, you won't be able to think about anyone or anything but me. I'll be the most important thing in your life. Isn't that how men's minds work? Doesn't your imagination run wild when I'm not around?"
"It seems to be how mine works," I confessed.
She held my shoulders and made certain I was watching her eyes. "You could lose your soul to me. You know that, don't you?"
I wrapped my arms around her waist and pressed my face to her neck. "It's too late already," I whispered in her ear.
She laughed and tugged at my hand, leading me toward the bedroom. "We'll get some sleep now."
I wanted to hold her under the covers, but she allowed only one kiss, and pushed me away. She turned out the light and went to sleep immediately. But I lay awake, my brain buzzing with wild thoughts. She denied me my orgasm in order to kick her own into overdrive? Was that normal? And how did she reach into my brain and capture my thoughts? How could she have known about the fantasies that had fuelled my nighttime stroking for as long as I could remember? Long, complex dramas in which I was her rescuer, her knight, her bodyguard, her servant, her slave--the most powerful of which ended with her pleasure and my frustration.
But now that my fantasies had turned real, second thoughts crowded my brain. It seemed that she was acting on a plan concocted long before I arrived. That she wanted me for sex was not so surprising. Those fires had smoldered and burst into flame during that weekend at the Wisconsin Dells. But it seemed she also intended to make me a household servant and perhaps some sort of personal slave, too. I'd read my share of pornography, and I knew that strong, selfish women were staple characters in erotic tales. I also knew that, in the real world, naturally dominant women were rare, certainly too rare to satisfy the global inventory of male fantasy. But now I had one beside me, and I'd been exhausting myself trying my best to please her. Did I have what it takes to be the lover of a genuinely dominant woman?
Fantasies were fantasies, and I tried to force myself to think beyond them. I was about to go to college to prepare for my future. Could I really spare the time and energy to be a servant, or slave, even to my beautiful RoseAnn? Could I sacrifice everything to be what she wanted me to be?
The thought sent my cock skyward again, tenting the blanket over my hips. My body was casting its own vote, the deciding one. Until now, I'd been thinking only of myself and the things RoseAnn could do for me. Perhaps that was a mistake. What if I put her desires first, and devoted myself to pleasing her? Wouldn't she like breakfast in bed before going off to work, dinner hot and ready on the table after a long workday? Long, sensual massages and foot rubs, household chores taken care of, a life of ease and pleasure? I could give her all those things. All I would hope for in return was the privilege of kneeling at her feet and pleasuring her in the most intimate possible way.
I'd do it. I'd let her have her way with me, and mold me into the object of pleasure she was seeking. From now on, my life would be all about RoseAnn, my goddess.
I watched the shadowed form beside me on the bed, and listened to her soft breathing. Could anything else in my life, anything I am now, or might become, rival the contentment of this moment, watching her sleep? The aching in my balls was a trivial price to pay for the privilege of sharing a bed with this precious woman.
She wriggled under the covers and tucked herself against my shoulder, as if she heard my thoughts. Her breath warmed my chest. From time to time, I glanced at the clock, not caring whether I slept or not. The last time I looked, it was 2:12.
* * *
An instant later, the alarm rang and the clock said 6:00.
RoseAnn disappeared into the
en suite
bathroom, and I lazed under the covers for a few minutes. Had all of yesterday really happened, or had I imagined it? I'd learned more sex in more varieties in 36 hours than some people did in their lives. Things had moved more quickly than I imagined possible. What more could happen in the next 36 hours?