As requested, Samantha and Alex are back for more. I hope you enjoy it.
On a more personal note, my calculations indicate that somewhere in this story, I will pass the "one million word" mark, for stories on Lit.
Funny how time flies... and words, too... when you're having fun ;-)
Thanks for reading.
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It was Tuesday, the day after Sam's daughters went back to their respective homes, and I was on the train as it came to Sam's stop. I had gone home last night, well after midnight. Our celebration dinner on Sunday night had gone long, and I had received hugs from both Cassie and Chloe when I left for home. They flew out, to their respective locations, on Monday, so Alex had been missing from yesterday's commute.
Poor planning had forced me from her bed late last night, so that I could have a chance to change for work in the morning. I hadn't slept that well for the remainder of the evening.
All night, questions had been racing through my head. Questions about the future.
Questions about
our
future.
Was I being selfish, thinking we had a life together? She was free now, unchained from her cheating husband. Maybe she wanted to stay free? Maybe I was just a stop along the way, and she wanted someone more her own age? And then there was the question of children, so maddeningly raised by Chloe. Kids had never been a priority for me, but I suppose my mental images of married life included rug rats at some point.
Maybe I was overthinking things, and making myself crazy for no reason?
My thoughts were pushed aside when motion appeared in my unfocused field of view. It was Sam, who plunked herself down beside me, wearing a smile a yard wide.
"Hi!" she giggled, snuggling against me. There was no reason to hide anymore. Frank was history. The girls were in the loop, and had gone home, happy for their mother and me. As for the other passengers on the train... well, let them find their own perfect woman.
That electric smile wasn't the only thing she was wearing. Her dress fit like a glove, and was showing more cleavage than anything I'd ever seen her wear to work. She saw my eyes lingering on her breasts.
"What do you think?" she asked, shaking her shoulders slightly.
"I think it's a good thing it's summer, or you could catch a chest cold," I said softly. "With a chest like yours, that could be life-threatening."
"Well," she chuckled, "I've got this boyfriend, who just loves my boobs. I thought we might get together at lunchtime, for a noon quickie, and wanted to make sure he remembered what was waiting for him. Do you think he'll go for it?"
"Yeah, I think he just might," I laughed. "How are you this morning, baby?" I leaned closer, and kissed her gently, feeling eyes on us from all around. Those who were familiar with us riding together probably noted the change in behaviour. We'd never kissed in public before. It felt strange, but nice.
"I didn't sleep well," she pouted. "Too excited. I missed you. You're not going to leave me all alone in that big house again tonight, are you?"
"No, honey," I told her. "I'm sorry. I needed to change, and had to think a few things through. You're a bit of a distraction for me, you know? Can you forgive me?"
"Forgive what?" she smiled, cuddling in under my arm. "I hope those thoughts weren't anything bad. Can I help at all? Is it about me?"
Not that I had ever tried, but there was no fooling Sam. It may sound sexist, but I think women in general are more emotionally perceptive than men, and Sam, in particular, had always read me quite well. I had never lied to her, and wasn't going to start now. She asked. I would tell her.
That didn't mean it was going to be easy, however. I took a deep breath.
"Okay... I'll spill it. I'm sure it's just me being paranoid," I said, looking into her sexy eyes, "but I'll tell you."
I paused, and took another breath.
I wish I was as sure about my paranoia as I sounded. What if I was right? What if she really did want her freedom? What if I was wrong, and she misunderstood my concerns as not wanting her? What if... Oh fuck, just spit it out, before you drive yourself insane!
"Sam, honey, I hope you know what you mean to me," I began. "I love you, but I don't want to assume anything when it comes to the future. You're free of Frank, and deserve to stay free, if that's what you want. I won't make a fuss if you want to seek out someone else. It's your life."
It came out easier than I expected, but I'm not sure it sounded the way I meant it. I'm also not sure I could explain it any better, without breaking down into a babbling fool.
Please say you understand.
She gave me a little smirk, and dug into her purse, coming out with her phone. She scrolled down, and placed a call.
"Hi, Marcy, it's Samantha," she said quietly. "I'm afraid I need to take a personal day, today. I have a few things to deal with that absolutely require my attention, right now. Right. I'll see you tomorrow." She pushed the 'end' button, and looked at me. "Your turn. I'm not leaving your side until we get this sorted out."
That sounds promising,
I thought, reaching into my pocket. A minute later, I was set to play hookey from work, too. The ball was back in her court.