Over the past few days Helen had been talking nonstop about George.
Then out of the blue she suggested I wear a chastity cage when we met him.
Since she raised that with me my anxiety levels have hit the roof!
This needed to be addressed.
So with that in mind and whilst Helen was sitting with me over breakfast I decided to speak to her.
"Why do you want me wearing that chastity contraption?" I pleaded.
She flashed that beautiful smile of hers and replied, "Michael, I thought it would add a little spice to the proceedings."
If I thought my anxiety had peaked when she mentioned a chastity cage, then the very thought she was still in touch with Michael sent it soaring.
Why was she taking advice from Michael? She hasn't seen him for ages.
Or has she?
"Why are you speaking to Michael about us meeting George," I challenged.
"Michael is my friend, why wouldn't I?"
"Well, for one thing Helen us meeting George is nothing to do with him! Also we agreed we wouldn't meet someone regularly to ensure you don't develop feelings for anyone!
So what's going on with you and Michael?"
"Nothing you fool!" she spat back.
Michael is very experienced in the lifestyle and is always happy to give me advice when I ask him.
You can really be a child sometimes. Apparently I can fuck him, but I can't talk to him?
You need to grow up!"
I had no answer to that, so I turned and walked out of the room angry and worried in equal proportion.
Later, when I lay in bed, my mind began to race.
She's never mentioned a chastity device before.
Was this something she has always intended? Or is she just responding to Michael's suggestion?
Either way, it's a worrying development.
All of the cuckold stuff I have read and watched on porn sites leads me to one conclusion.
Humiliation and control.
I have enjoyed the teasing element to our new sexual dynamic immensely, but humiliation?
The very thought of role play humiliation increases my anxiety ten fold and actually being locked in one of those awful things fills me with dread.
We do not call ourselves a cuckold couple.
We prefer "Stag and Vixen."
Although not a cuckold couple I do already experience what they call "Cuck angst."
You know, worrying that she may fall in love with a bull and leave me etc.
Helen is the absolute love of my life, it would break my heart if I lost her to one of her bulls.
My life would be totally destroyed if she left me.
Up to now I have little control in our sexual adventures now anyway.
Complete loss of control would be a nightmare.
I have never really wanted to control Helen and always wanted her to have amazing full sexual freedom.
However, I have up to now had a degree of control over my part in her adventures, which I feel is necessary for my enjoyment and sanity.
Could wearing this device mean that I lose all control?
I decided to phone Michael to ask him to politely keep out of our business.
If this lifestyle is going to work for us, we do not need a third wheel.
"Hi Mike, I'd like have a word with you about your suggestion to Helen regarding me wearing a chastity device."
"Ok, what do you want to know buddy?"
"Well, firstly if this lifestyle is going to work for us, you need to keep out of our business.
Secondly, I'm not a Cuck, so why would you suggest a cock cage to Helen?"
"Wow, slow down mate.
Helen phoned me and asked my advice, so that's between me and Helen.
Helen is a sexually free woman. That is what you wanted, insn't it?
So my question is this, why are you now not allowing her that freedom?