I started mowing her yard a couple years ago as a kind of favor. Willow was a little old lady, bent over, her white, almost purplish hair was worn short; she wore wire-frame glasses and always seemed grateful. My yard took about half a tank of gas and so I would push the mower to her yard, go to her door to let her know, then it would take twenty or thirty minutes to do her yard. You know, I am a good boy scout, for an old man.
It was good for me to get off my ass, and actually it felt good to know I still had the energy for two lawns, even though, yes, there would be a nap afterwards. The truth is, Willow was only two years older than me. I liked to think of myself as a husky, ageless man. It worked if I stayed away from mirrors. Willow was too small and frail to push a lawn mower and the neighborhood kids are crooks with the price they charge. I usually got a cold glass of lemonade and a few minutes of conversation out of the deal, that was enough for me.
It'd been quiet at my house since the kids moved out. Karlie and I enjoyed being together but it had turned into a kind of collegial relationship, certainly there was nothing sexual. I will take responsibility for that, I can't explain, the same old same old and after a while sleep sounded better than fucking. It had been years now.
It must have been the hottest day of the year, late July. It was unbearably humid, the sun was beating down, and don't you know I have to go out and prove something. At this age I shouldn't be doing yardwork at all, I'm about due for a heart attack or something. In jeans and tennis shoes and a t-shirt I strode out to the shed, filled the tank and pushed the mower through the gate to the back yard. At least there was some shade back there from the fruit trees. I began to sweat but it was not bad.
I got 'er done and came out to the front, leaving the motor running, clutch disengaged. The front yard had no shelter, nothing but white-hot sky overhead. I started off doing the outside in a rectangle, you know, I have my own pattern here. I spiral in from the outside. Then, by the end I am taking little rows and it goes faster. It's one of those things I do to trick my mind. But man, was it hot. I had on my ACE cap but the back of my neck was taking the sun directly. I pulled off the t-shirt, tearing the sopping fabric off my sopping skin, and wrapped it around the mower handle. Sweat literally dripped from it.
Those rectangles were still pretty big, and sweat was running down between my legs and even further, into my socks. My eyes burned with it. When I wiped my face with my forearm, the sweat only smeared, none was wiped off, in fact the arm might have been sweatier than the face.
I finally hit that infinitesimal row that leads to nothing more, and let the throttle pop back, turning the motor off. I leaned on the handle of the mower, panting. My heart was pounding. I turned my head to look at Willow's little yard. It was somewhat smaller than mine, but sort of a weird shape, maybe trapezoidal, and hilly, so it was actually more work to mow hers than mine. I pictured the neighbors peeking through their shades, thinking that old man can't keep going, and I made a show of rolling my lawn mower to the little old lady's house. I parked it at the corner near the driveway and went to the door to let her know.
I knocked and it took a little while before the door opened. Through the screen I saw a face that was not Willow. "Hello?" a voice said. A woman's face came nearer the screen. "Oh, you must be Henry, Willow told me about you."
"Good to meet you, ma'am," I said.
Her eyes ran from my face to my chest - I had not thought to put the t-shirt back on - to my, I don't know what, somewhere down there. "Oh - look at you!" she said.
I stood there, the object of her attention. It was weird, I did not know what "look at you" meant. I obviously cannot look at myself. And there was no one else she might have been addressing. So she must have been talking to herself, telling herself to look at me.
"Willow said she usually gives you some lemonade or something, is that right?"
"Yes, she does sometimes. It's all right, you-"
"You like ice in it?"
"Sure, thank you."
The woman disappeared briskly into the shadows within the house. She was slender and seemed to be wearing a tight pair of faded jeans, and a kind of t-shirt or halter top, I don't know what you call them. It had no sleeves and sort of a deep neckline. And she was barefoot. She reappeared with two glasses of lemonade. She trotted to the door and then stood there and looked at me through the screen again. "Does she give it to you out there, or do you come in?"
"Either way is fine with me," I said. Usually, in fact, Willow invited me in to cool down and chat, but usually that was after I had finished. Willow was lonely and appreciated the company.
The woman peered at me through the mesh. "Are you safe?"
"What do you mean, am I safe?"
"You're not a bad guy, you're not going to hurt me, are you?"
"Uh, well, listen, even if I was a bad guy I would say I'm not, wouldn't I?"
"Hmm," she looked at me again. That lemonade sure looked good. "Okay," she finally said, poking the door open with her foot. "Come on in. Here, take this. My name is Aspen."
"I'm Hen-"
"I know," she said. She looked me over, I don't know any other way to put it. She took a full minute to stand there and let her eyes wander over every inch of my body. "Come on in, shut the door," she said, as if there had been no pause. "Don't let the heat in." She spoke with a little bit of an accent that I couldn't identify. Maybe Eastern European of some sort. She spoke English almost like her native language, but with a little bit of a crunch to it.
"And why are-" I began.
"Oh, I'm Willow's sister. She had a surgery thing today, she'll be out for a few days, and ta-da, I'm watching the place."
Aspen was a piece of work. There is a type, you learn to recognize them, they are like stars that attract passing planets to orbit them; she was one of those. She was a petite woman, probably five-one, with gray, almost white hair. It was tied back in a French something, some hairdo, I don't know what they're called. It had a barrette and her hair reached past her shoulders. She looked very comfortable and fit, and by the twinkle in her eyes I would say, playful.
"You look like you could use a towel," she said. "You want me to get you one?" She took half a step as if to indicate it was effortless.
"No, thanks, ma'am. I'm just going to sweat some more."
"Poor thing," she murmured, and it was clear that she was mocking me. It was at this moment that I realized she had turned the table on me.
I don't know how to explain that, exactly. I'm a pretty big guy, normally people give me some room, and if I am talking to somebody I usually sort of run the conversation. I don't do it on purpose, but for some reason people look to me when it's time to speak. So it ends up with me deciding what we will talk about and even how we will talk about it. Like I say, I don't do it on purpose, it is just the way it works, I am tall and a little extraverted, and I guess I tend to get my way, you know what I mean?
So it was alarming and strange to realize that this tiny lady had somehow got me figuratively on my knees with her foot on the top of my head, holding me there. I felt like I would give her whatever she wanted, and she shouldn't have to ask for it. I should pay attention so I would know. It was a subtle thing, of course I could have spoken up or done something to take over but I thought it was kind of funny, kind of an interesting and different feeling. Like an elephant being afraid of a mouse. Aspen had a kind of confidence that was subtle and hypnotic.
"Actually, it's the humidity that makes it uncomfortable." That was the best I could think to say.
"Yes," she said, "And now look at you."
"Well, there ain't much to see."
"You are covered with sweat," she said. "Every inch of you. Here, let me get you some more lemonade. And definitely, some more ice." And she bounded to the kitchen again. For an old lady she had a lot of energy, and also her ass looked fine in jeans.
She bounded back in a second and we stood in the living room, on Willow's lace-edged rug, talking and sipping our cold drinks. In this top she did not have "cleavage," exactly, she was petite and her breasts were smallish, but there was something about her that made your eyes gravitate, if you get my drift.
"Okay," I said, handing her my empty glass. "I better get it done."
"More lemonade when you're finished," she said, with a smile. I did not take it as an invitation so much as an order. I would not disappoint. It was weird, I tell you.
I was twice as sweaty after I had finished that stupid trapezoid, or whatever shape that is. Parallelogram? I don't know but you could have put a bucket under me and filled it up with sweat. And I could feel my back beginning to sunburn a little, which makes it even worse. I left the mower at the same front corner and knocked on the door.
"Oh, come in," Aspen said, waving her hand as she held the screen door open. "You look like you're about to wash away."
"It's hot out there," I admitted, as she handed me a cold glass. "Mmm, this is good."
"Look at you," she said. I was beginning to feel a little flattered, like maybe she actually enjoyed looking at me. I sort of shrugged while she examined me visually, head to toe. "Okay," she said suddenly. "I don't care what you want, I'm not going to let you stand there dripping on Willow's nice rug like that. I am getting a towel."
And off she went.