I swear to you I didn't mean it to happen. It was just a game, a silly tease by a woman who was old enough to know better.
It was just that I'd got to a point in life, forty two to be exact, and I just wanted a bit of excitement, something to brighten up my day.
Nick was okay. We'd been married twenty one years and he still wanted me, but it had got routine. You know how it is, all so predictable. I could count on Friday, Monday and Wednesday nights when he would say, "Is it okay," and I say "Yes," and we'd play around a bit then couple up for the final run in.
Three times a week was fine, but I always knew what he was going to do next. Kiss, play with my breasts, have a suck on my nipples, fingers in my vagina and hey presto, he was in.
Of course, I'd have a play with him, running my hand up and down his shaft, and give the head a bit of a suck. Nothing wrong with what we did, but we always did it the same.
It was partly my fault I suppose. I believe some women these days insist on their partner giving them oral sex, but Nick had baulked at this. On the other hand, when he wanted to try anal sex, I said "no." I hadn't even given it a try.
As well as that, Nick had developed a bit of a paunch and was balding, while I had taken more care of myself and could still slip easily into my wedding dress.
That wedding dress has a bit of a funny story attached to it. I've got very nice breasts, you know, big but firm. The wedding dress was cut rather low. At the wedding ceremony the poor old parson's eyes nearly popped out of his head and he got a hard on and really struggled to get the words out as he kept trying to look down the top of the dress. Nick and I have often had a laugh remembering that.
Now I'm not saying Nick and I didn't love each other. We were good mates and got along very well. It was just the dullness of our sex life that started to get to me.
Another factor was my age. I suppose I was at the point where a woman wonders if she is still attractive to young blokes. As I said, I've kept my figure that was always pretty good and the early signs of grey hair had been quickly dealt with at the hairdressers. Perhaps the slightly plump cheeks I'd had when I got married had thinned a bit, but I'd looked after my teeth, so there was no caved in look.
So there I was, still fairly presentable with a sex life that had become boring, and looking for a bit of sparkle. I don't mean I was looking out for an affair. I suppose what I wanted was a bit of sexual feedback. Some admiring glances from younger blokes and perhaps get their manhood stiff, but just for a tease and to know I was still desirable.
I admit I should have known better, but I didn't realise what a dangerous game it could be. Naive I suppose you could call it. Or more likely memory failure, because when I was a teenager I use to play the same game and got myself into some pretty tight corners with blokes and had to fight my way out.
So years on I was playing the same old female game of stirring up the male hormones.
You see, the trouble was, temptation came my way. Temptation in the shape of a young fellow with a nice body, good looks and all the virility of youth, the only problem being he was my daughter Anne's boyfriend, Clark by name.
Anne and Clark had been going out together for some time. Clark was a bit older than Anne. She was twenty and he was twenty six. All the signs were they were going to get married.
Right from the first time she brought him home I'd had thoughts, if you know what I mean. What was worse, I saw him eyeing me in a speculative manner; sort of undressing me with his eyes. So I reciprocated and mentally undressed him.
He and Anne were soon into sexual intercourse. I knew that because Anne talked to me about going on the pill and would it be okay if Clark stayed the night with her occasionally.
I talked to Nick and he said, "Well, they're going to do it anyway, so they might as well do it in comfort." So I went to the expense of replacing Anne's single bed with a double bed, and then had to listen to them moaning a groaning as they made love.
Nick spent more and more time at our place, and I remembered that someone had once said to me, "It's no use being tempted if you don't give into it."