mandywilluk 2000
aka
Amanda Williams
As I wallow in my celibate divorced life awaiting the onslaught of middle age, my mind often wanders back to earlier, simpler times. To when I was happily married, to when I had my one big affair when I was unhappily married. It goes back to how I went outside conventional sexuality and dallied with other ladies and if I think hard enough I begin to acknowledge that I am bisexual; certainly that's become the case since Kevin and I parted with me being disillusioned with men.
As I lie naked in my big bed in my unnecessarily luxurious London, Docklands apartment masturbating, more often recently it goes back further and further. To my threesome adventures when I worked in an ad agency that confirmed my attraction to Mandye gender sex and before to my years at university where I found girls. But I wasn't always bisexual, well I may have been but I wasn't aware of it, and my meanderings will sometimes go back to pre bi times, back to when I was eighteen and just finding out about men and sex.
Before I tell you about those times let me tell you about me now. No, better still read my bio and look at the photo that's hopefully there, Lit takes ages to put those up; you could also read my Lit piece The Mirror, that's me warts and all.
I have changed since I was eighteen, but twenty six years does that. My hair is not that dissimilar, it's still a rich chestnut colour, ok I help it a little bit, but I am larger all round. Back then I was slim with nicely shaped B cup boobs, and pretty good, slender legs and a pert bum. Now? Oh shit do I have to go there? No. I will just tell you what most men consider to be the good points and when I say there are two of those you will know what I mean. And they are now on a good day D, but in bad times, they balloon to DD, the bastards. I am not by any stretch of the imagination a BBW for I only weigh just over, ok well over one forty pounds; one forty seven to be exact, I just weighed myself for you.
I know how trying it can be to read a Lit submission that is 4 or 5 Lit pages long, so I have submitted this in two parts, but at the same time. So if you want to read it all, maybe Lit will post both parts at the same time. Who knows?
Ok back to 1984 when I was eighteen and in my last few months at school in Essex, just outside London.
Part 1
During my teens I was a bit of a whiz at tennis. I'd played for both my school and my county and with a little more dedication I could probably have been even better. My coach told me that with a little more dedication I might even be able to get to get into the Wimbledon tournament, but dedication and a teenager finding their way in the grown up world aren't natural bedfellows. So by the time I'd had my cherry plucked, my love affair with tennis was on the wane. I still belonged to a club and played quite a lot, but not with the ambition of improving. After all I'd found men, well I'd found my cherry plucker, and sex. They were much more interesting.
"We've been drawn away to a couple from Colchester" Robert said to me, "I'll drive you down, OK?" Colchester was about fifty miles from where we lived.
"Sure," I replied over my shoulder pretending not to be too keen, but quite fancying the idea of three hours or so in his car with just him and me.
Robert was a thirty something, single guy at the tennis club. Quite a good player and an even better looker, we'd been paired up by the club's match organiser to represent the club in a county mixed doubles knock out tournament.
He was tall, well built and always seemed to have a tan. He was funny and witty and spent quite a lot of time with the junior section, not just the girls but also giving tips and help to the boys as well. Nearly all of the girls, me included, fancied him like hell, but at the dances and parties he always had a cracking looking, sophisticated woman on his arm, who, he is reputed to have told others, "was just a friend, nothing serious.". Although he flirted quite outrageously with us younger girls no one admitted or claimed to have bedded him.
"Fancy a drink Mandy, or wouldn't your mum like that?" he asked looking at me and smiling as we bowled along the A12 in his JAGUAR.
"Sure, I'd love to," I replied ignoring the mum remark.
"You are old enough aren't you; it's so difficult with you young fillies?"
Sort of sitting up straighter in my seat and probably pushing my small chest out a bit I said, rather grandly.
"I am over eighteen you know."
He laughed and glancing across patted me on my knee.
"I know, just joking Mandy, I can tell you are."
I didn't quite know how to take him. He was always joking and taking the piss so you had to be both on your guard and on your toes when with him. I really couldn't tell whether he was sending me up or chatting me up most of the time.
"Are you at school tomorrow?" He asked as we sat in the pretty little bar of the country pub he'd pulled into.
"Yes I am," I said rather snottily wishing he wouldn't keep saying things that accentuated my youth. I was a grown up fucking woman for Christ'a sak.
"And what time do you have to be home on a school day?"
"Oh mum and dad are pretty cool about such things, so around eleven's fine."
He looked at his watch. "Good, we've got ages then, so there's no rush."
We'd won the tennis match love and love and the whole thing was finished in just over half an hour. We'd had a quick cup of tea and a sandwich with our opponents before setting off for home at around seven so it was now just eight o'clock. As he said, plenty of time, I wondered for what and my heart beat a little faster.
I'd had a shower after the match, even though I'd hardly perspired, but hadn't washed my hair for it takes ages to dry. I had worn it in a pony tail when playing, but had piled it on top of my head in what I and thought was a more grown up style after the shower. I'd also put on a clean pair of panties and proper bra rather than the sports one I'd worn whilst playing. I didn't change from the white track suit I'd played in. He was also wearing a white track suit, but other than the tennis shirt I could see, Ihad no idea what he was wearing under it.
"Would you like another?" he asked pointing at the emptied glass that had contained white vermouth and soda, a drink I thought sounded all sophisticated and grown up when I'd asked for it? "Or shall we go and take a slow, lazy drive home," he went pausing before adding. "As you don't have to home until eleven."
As he was saying that his eyes were boring into mine and he had a slight smile on his face. That made me feel slightly nervous, for he was clearly flirting and I knew I was out of my depth.
"Whatever, I don't mind."