Copyright (c) 2003 by Jay Palin.
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I'm a sexual obsessive. In some circles it's called "pussy junkie." Whatever. Memories of the repressive tyranny of my domineering, puritanical mother have driven me to bed countless different women all my life. Unlike my more stable male counterparts, my advancing age has done little to temper my libido. Each day I anxiously awake to the fresh possibility of fucking a new woman. Hence my dilemma: whether to succumb to lust or err on the side of dignity and self-preservation.
My tastes in women run the gamut of all races and ethnic strains. And, without boasting, I've been very successful in my pursuits. Part of it's because of my tall, imposing, physique and deep voice: useful genetic gifts. Though most of it's been due to my very careful responses to the complex signals women send when they appraise all men, me in particular.
I didn't have to be careful with Ginny.
I met Ginny over ten years ago when she was the bouncy, blonde, 20 year old girl friend of my step-son Mike, now her husband. She'd just returned from a national tour with the Icecapades, having been a "chorus" skater. I'd just married for the fourth time, vowing as always to be faithful, when my new wife Lee brought Ginny to the house for dinner on a hot Summer afternoon to get acquainted. I walked in and Lee introduced us, with Ginny striking me as giggly and a bit shallow. When Lee left to prepare dinner her demeanor took on a more serious tone.
Ginny sat across from me in the living room, telling me about her tour. Her very fair, 5'4," 125 pound frame was coiled in a compact package with one leg tucked under her. Though not busty, her 34" B-cup breasts sat high on her chest and were suspended by well-developed muscles that coursed inward from her shoulders, temptingly accented by the sleeveless, dark-green top she was wearing. Her waspish waist, no more than 20" around, was cinched by a wide, cream-colored belt that highlighted the protrusion of her breasts. Below the belt her hips and legs were clothed in a pair of skin-tight black pants that looked as if they'd been painted on. Her shoes were cream, high-heeled sandals with ankle straps. She confessed that she'd hated being on the road and wanted to marry and have a family. Having had much experience in this regard, I cautioned her to be discriminating in her choices and not make the same mistakes I had.
It was then that Ginny fixed me with her very dark-brown eyes, highlighted by green eye makeup, tilted her head, and said, dreamily: "From what Lee says, you've led a rich, varied, life." She lifted her lovely arm, the color of fine, sculpted ivory, and slowly twisted a finger in her long, slightly curly blonde hair, as if adding a question mark to her statement. Not knowing what my wife had told her, and trying to avoid acting the rapacious cynic that I am, I attempted to steer the conversation to something other than myself.
"Seriously," Ginny said, "I hear that when the Army drafted you out of college you two were going to be married, and when you returned from Vietnam -- wild with a lust for life -- you didn't want to. That's why she married someone else."
"O.K.," I acknowledged.
"And that's why," she pressed, "just last week her ex told me that he'd lived with her in your shadow for 24 years. What did you do all that time? other than get married three times, I mean?" she probed, leveling her look at me.
"Well, it wasn't all a search for pleasure," I countered. "I had to work, went to grad school, traveled, fashioned a career. You know, the things a guy does to make a future." I felt now that she was probing me, and I began to feel uneasy, since I was frequently the aggressor.
"Uh-huh," Ginny murmured, pulling her leg from under her and placing her foot on the couch while grasping her curvy calf in front of her with both arms. Again the deep, probing, heavy-lidded brown eyes: "Were there a lot of women?"
"Hundreds," I bluntly confessed, getting up, glad to relieve the tension I was feeling and anxious to change the subject lest I be caught staring at her crotch, now beckoning from under her black pants.
"Want a glass of wine, Ginny?" I offered.
"Sure. White'll be fine," she said.
In the kitchen, I rolled my eyes at Lee, whispering, "Nice girl. Very direct."
"Careful," Lee cautioned, "she lost her father in her early teens."
Of course! I thought to myself. Another kid flirtatiously casting about for a father figure. What an easy one to pigeon-hole.
Back in the living room, Ginny was gone. Looking in the hallway, I saw her gazing at family pictures, particularly one of me: a portrait taken by my photographer father when I was about three. This was the first time I'd seen her standing. Her back was to me (what elegant posture!); her legs were crossed at the ankles -- reminiscent of a dancer's relaxed pose -- and stretched upward, past lissome calves, well-muscled thighs, a butt that gave new meaning to the word touchable, to end under that tightly-cinched belt.
I moaned. I find that I do that involuntarily when zonked by an attractive woman.
"What?" Ginny purred, turning to accept the glass of wine.
"Oh, nothing," I mumbled, "missed you in the living room."
"Who is that darling little boy?" she asked.
"Oh, me as a kid," I responded. "My Dad took that picture. He was a pro. In fact he taught me photography." I led her further down the hall to my photos, while standing behind her. "Here're some of my portraits," pointing to a few very arty shots of women of all hues, some clothed very scantily.