CHAPTER 1
"What doesn't hurt doesn't work" is what they say about old age. As we entered our sixties there was some truth in that. We could still do things, but with more of an effort and sometimes a groan. Bunions on the feet, intermittent aches, and of course spectacles to drive and to read. Still, we could get around all right and still hadn't lost our marbles!
Sex had gone (as in the old joke) from tri-weekly to try weekly and was now try weakly.
Lubricant had been a godsend earlier, but was no longer magic. For a while she had been able to wank me up enough to penetrate, but it didn't last for long. So what had once been a Sunday orgy was kissing and cuddling after a shower. I still fancied her like anything, and she knew I did.
I remember something I heard on the radio a while back, to do with a foreigner learning English. They had been asked if they were willing and able to donate to some good cause, and had answered "The willing I have. The able I have not."
This was our joke about sex. The willing I definitely had, but I was a bit short of the able.
In our sixties it was understandable. What else did we expect? I know there were things a doctor might prescribe, but it wasn't exactly life-threatening, and it's not the sort of thing a man feels like talking about.
We could still manage our jobs but were looking forward to retirement and were Silver Surfers on the Internet.
It was there I found out about cock cages, and had a laugh with my wife. The things they come up with today! We'd been a bit adventurous - by which I mean we'd tried different positions and anal -but it was certain neither of us were into bondage and sadomasochism, so we never considered it for a moment.
However...
Once you get onto something on the internet it remembers and suggests it again. So links were suggested to me. With nothing really more important, I clicked on one or two, which encouraged it.
There are lots of things we look at but don't actually do. New recipes or ideas for the garden; DIY tools (OK, I bought some but never used them); places to visit, and so on.
I don't know why, but I somehow wanted to try one. There was no actual reason. Like the unusual recipes that we had finally tried but never again. (We found out why they were unusual - generally too much trouble and weird rather than delicious.)
I was looking at a website when my wife came in, and asked me why.
"I don't know. It's a bit interesting," I said.
She laughed.
"If there's one gadget we don't need, it's something to stop you getting it up!"
Very true, but I still couldn't get it out of my head.
Sex is interesting. Weird sex is weirdly interesting. You can read online about people getting up to also sorts of shenanigans without having any intention to do the same. Just the idea of having the urge (willing, but not able) and being stopped was exciting. Remembering how my cock had been so strong, and how good it felt when it strained against her hand sometimes.
I was willing but not able. What would it be like to be able again, even if I was prevented?
Some weeks later she found me looking at it again.