Was it Shame?
I was sat on the ground with my head leaning back on the front wheel, my knees tucked up under my chin, it had been a bright sunny day earlier, the sun had only just gone down leaving a bright pink skyline, a sure sign that tomorrow would be the same as today, hot and dry.
We, I'm Dave and my girlfriend Jenny, had been invited to her friend Anna's father's holiday home in the country, it sounded grand, but it was just a four bedroom house on a road of the same, but it was near the beach.
It was planned that we all go and get sandy tomorrow, you know how sand gets everywhere when you get on the beach.
We'd got here early to bag one of the bedrooms, there was one short as there were ten of us going to be there for the weekend, and as I said, only four bedrooms, so we didn't want to sleep in the lounge as I was looking forward to having some fun.
We'd picked the room and put our bags in there, unpacked the essentials.
The others arrived and we let them sort themselves out making some sandwiches for lunch, the beer had been opened and as the weather was so good we were mainly in the garden, it was ten friends enjoying a weekend together, I was the newest member of the group as I'd only been with Jenny for eight months, but it looked as if we might make it a lot longer.
Jenny was in the process of moving into my place, she only had next week to stay in the shared house with Dana and Tina, they had already found a new person to move in, and I had yet to meet her.
I got on with all of them but there was one, isn't there always one?
It would be Tony, Anna's boyfriend who I was most weary about, he was the joker in the group, but I had the feeling that to me it wasn't a joke, I thought he was a bit too handsy, he would come up behind one of the girls and grope her breasts, it was all done with a laugh and the girls streaked when he did it, but they never stopped it and the other guys smiled, I'd told Jenny that I didn't like it, but she had brushed it off as just Tony's way of making fun, livening up the day, he didn't mean anything by it.
I wasn't sure about that, I was sure he'd bedded all the girls at one time or another, but that was in the past, I'd not gone without before getting together with Jenny, so I let it drop.
But as I said the rest of the group were great fun.
The afternoon was more fun than I was expecting, the chat and jokes kept coming, and there was the music playing quietly in the background.
The girls had planned who did what when it came to the cooking, a couple went off to prep the vegetables and came back laughing.
"We must remember to get more ice tomorrow," then Tony came out with a notepad and pencil, Ice was put on top of the list, and then people added some other things.
Dinner wasn't late and was very nice, a cold meat salad with ice cream to follow.
Everything had been cleaned up and put away, and we realised that we needed more wine for tonight, let alone tomorrow.
As I was only drinking non alcoholic beers due to having to take antibiotics for an infection under a tooth, I drew the short straw to drive to the shops to buy what was on the list, I went upstairs to get my keys and wallet and put some shoes on.
When I came down as I walked into the lounge I found Tony sitting in the big armchair with Jenny on his lap, her legs were over the side like he had pulled her onto him, they were kissing, but the more concerning thing was that he had his hand up under the thin jumper that she had on, and it wasn't on her stomach, it was holding a boob.
Dana coughed and Jenny jumped off and told him off for taking liberties, Tony just laughed got up and strolled out into the garden.
Jenny looked a bit sheepish at me. "It was just a bit of fun,"
She knew I wasn't happy, I asked if she wanted to come with me, but she said it'd only be twenty minutes and I'd be back, she would stay here.
I went to go to my car.
"You won't get done for drink driving will you," called Tony as I went out the side gate.
I drove to the shops and got everything on the list, as I drove out of the car park and got on the dual carriageway a police car followed me, I kept to the speed limit but he pulled in front of me with the "Follow Me sign on, I had no choice, he went past the turn off I needed to take, then pulled into a lay-by, I followed.
It was all very slow and serious, as I admitted that I had had a beer, he wouldn't take my suggestion that it was non alcoholic so demanded that I took a breath test, I had nothing to fear, the problem was that he didn't have one and a colleague would have to bring one out to where we were, all this was taking time, I blew in the bag when it arrived, I passed and they let me on my way, but because we were passed the turn off I needed I had another fifteen minutes to get back to my turn off.
I arrived at the house fuming mad, the policeman's parting comment was that Tony owed him, and to remind him of that.
I'd been set up, the twenty minute run had taken an hour and a half.
I retrieved the bags and went into the house by the side door, it led into the utility room, the freezer was in there along with a fridge.
That side door was under a bedroom window, that was our bedroom window, Jenny's and I's.
As I was opening the door I heard this grunt, and then again, it came in a steady rhythm, I knew that grunt, it was what Jenny made when I was pounding into her, it was driving her breath out of her, it was a sound that I'd only heard her make.
I put the things away and went out to my car.
And that's where I started this story, out by my car.
"I saw you coming in, but I couldn't work out why you came back out here Dave," Tina said as she knelt in front of me.
"I tried to stop them, ... why are you sitting here, why don't you come and join the rest of us,"
I looked at her, I think she was serious about that, come and join the rest of them as my girlfriend was getting fucked by someone who wasn't me, as if that was going to happen.
"No, I came out here just to stop myself from doing something stupid, but now I'm going to get my bag and go home,"
I don't think she believed me, but I went back in and went upstairs and into the bedroom, they were still at it, Jenny on her back and him between her legs, it was obvious from the hump under the covers on his back that her legs were around him and locked in position, I'd felt that over the last months.
"We're busy," Tony called out as I opened the door.
"Don't worry, I'll only be a second," I said. The arrogant prick didn't stop his thrusting or look away from what he was doing.
I put my toilet bag in my case throwing his trousers off of it, zipped the bag up and went out, I didn't shut the door, everyone knew what was happening, they could get their jollies by looking as far as I was concerned.
I walked out to my car to find Tina waiting.
"I didn't think you were serious, what about Jenny?"
I looked at her.
"What about her? Oh, tell her I'll drop her things off at the house tomorrow, I don't want to see her in my place again," I casually said.
"But, but isn't she moving in with you next week," Tina asked.
"Not anymore she's not, what do you think I am? Some sort of idiot that thinks it's okay his girlfriend is screwing around with other men? Thank goodness I found out before I proposed to her, I'm sorry for the rest of you if you think it's okay to do that,"
I put my case on the passenger seat and drove home.
It took another half hour for my phone to ring, I had it on my hands free so pressed accept.
"Dave what's going on? Where are you,"
"I'm in the car, going home Jenny,"
"But why, we've got the next two days here,"
How thick can she be I was thinking.
"If you can't work it out, ask Tina, she knows," I was trying not to shout.
"But, ... it was only ... it wasn't ... it didn't ... Christ Dave, it was just sex, just a bit of fun," there was a long pause.
"When are you coming back to pick me up Dave?"
"I'm not Jenny,"
"What are you saying Dave, you can't just end it like this. You are still going to help me move in next week Dave?" I could tell in her voice that a lead balloon had just dropped in front of her.
"No Dave, no you can't do that, it was just a bit of fun while you were out, you were out a long time Dave,"
"I think you should ask Tony why I was out so long, he had his mate in the police stop me and hold me up while he made a fool out of me by bedding you before I did, I bet he told you not to tell me that I was the second guy to put a load in you tonight didn't he,"
There was a very long pause, I was thinking that she had hung up, but I heard a sob.
"Something like that, ... I'm sorry Dave, can I at least move into the spare room, see if we can find a way to sort this out?"
"I've sorted it out Jenny, you made it clear that you didn't have deep feelings for me in the most hurtful way, so I took that as a sign that we are over, look, you're a great fuck, Tony doesn't want to stop getting his fill of you it seems, so suck it up, or maybe you already have tonight,"
I put my little joke in, but I don't think she caught it.
"Anyway I'm not into sharing so you'll have to find another more forgiving idiot to share Tony with, I've got to go, have a nice life Jenny, I meant it when I said you're a great fuck, you won't have trouble finding another cock to fuck, goodbye." I disconnected the call.
She rang straight back, I rejected the call, I saw text messages, I ignored them.
I lay in bed that night thinking what a turnaround that was, going from great fun to ... I gave up and went to sleep.
