When we'd dragged our suitcases into the front hall of our house, I stopped and took Angie by the hand.
"Honey, I'd like us to sleep in the guest room for right now. I'm not ready to go back into our bedroom yet, but I do want you with me."
She nodded, looking troubled but not surprised. "That's fine, Alex. I was afraid you'd want to sleep apart from me."
We got unpacked and settled in, had a lazy dinner, went through the mail that had piled up. When I heard the phone ring, I instantly thought, "Connie!" I called to Angie, "don't answer it, OK? Just let the machine get it."
She came into the room, looking quizzical, and I said, "I just had the feeling it was Connie calling, and I didn't want either of us to answer until we'd talked about her."
She instantly blushed. "OK, Alex."
"What I have to say is pretty simple. Connie is your close friend, and you're entitled to have the friends you want to have. On the other hand, I blame her in part for your affair. Not that it wasn't your choice and your responsibility, but Connie's filling your ears with the delights of her own adultery didn't exactly help.
"So I won't ask you to stop seeing her. But from now on, the details of our marriage are off-limits, OK? I'm sure she'll want to know all about our trip, and how we're doing.
"You can tell her that we had a nice time, and that we're working on getting through this. But beyond that, it's none of her damn business. Fair enough?"
I wasn't angry but I'm sure I sounded firm, and Angie didn't even attempt to disagree with me.
"Yes, honey. I've been thinking about that too. I guess I'm a little mad at Connie myself, even though I have no right to be."
"Oh, Angie, one more thing. Connie doesn't know that I know about her affair, and I want to keep it that way. All right?"
She nodded, and I let the subject drop. We talked for a few minutes about work and some other things.
Then, not wanting to wait, I took Angie by the hand and led her upstairs into the guest room.
I was feeling more apprehensive than sexy, but I wanted to make love—I wanted to see if I could still feel affectionate and loving, so close to the scene of Angie's adultery. To put it more bluntly, I wanted to get the first fuck out of the way.
We undressed, got in bed, kissed and snuggled and touched one another. But the spark wasn't there. Angie looked more and more uneasy, and I was afraid she was going to cry.
"It's all right, baby," I said, stroking her shoulders. "We knew it wouldn't be so easy at first, back in this house again."
She nodded, and kissed me gently, then planted sweet little kisses all over my face and neck. I lay back as she slid gently down my body, leaving a trail of kisses, until she reached my cock, still only slightly erect. It was clear what she had in mind, and I was happy to let her proceed.
Her lips and tongue didn't drive me as crazy as they had—repeatedly—down in Florida, but they were more than enough to produce a satisfactory hard-on. With an enormous smile, Angie slid on top of me, straddling my waist, and guided my cock inside her.
We went slowly at first, as she wasn't all that wet. But gradually we both relaxed, and the slow gliding of her pussy up and down my cock turned into a more energetic plunging. Both of us seemed to relax and stop worrying—instead we were just fucking, enjoying one another.
I loved having Angie in this position because I could cup and hold her breasts, and this time she pushed them hard into my hands, arching her back and groaning. I caressed and pinched her nipples, enjoying as she moved faster and faster on me. Then when I knew she was close I put my hands on her hips, guiding her down on me as I humped up into her. With a gasp, she came, and I felt her spasms as my own orgasm overtook me.
We lay together, both of us feeling happy and very relieved. It seemed like we'd just cleared an important hurdle, as silly as that might seem.
After a few minutes I said, "Angie, why don't you bring me your list?"
Looking stricken, she went to her suitcase and returned after a minute with a legal pad. Climbing back into bed and handing me the pad, she snuggled tightly against me. Her face pressed into my neck, she said, "OK, Alex. I knew this was coming. But I am just scared to death! Please, please don't throw me out now!"
I kissed her hair. "Angie, I know this won't be much fun for either of us. But I'm still convinced that 'writing over' what you did with Tommy is going to help us get past it. So I've got to look at what you've written."
She just nodded, and clung to me more tightly. I picked up the pad and began to read.
"The First Time. At Tommy's apartment. He gave me a soda and rubbed my back. Then he took me into his bedroom.
"We didn't talk. He undressed me, then himself. His cock was sticking up at me. He lay me down on the bed and started kissing and touching me. I was very excited.
He got a condom, and we did it in missionary position. He was excited too. He went very fast, no subtlety. He came in just a couple of minutes. I was excited but I didn't come.
"We lay there for a while, kissing and talking. He went to the bathroom and washed, then came back and wanted to have sex again. He asked me to suck him to make him hard, and I did. Then he put on another condom and we had sex in the doggy-position, with him standing on the floor.
"This time he lasted a long time. He held and stroked my breasts, and he made me come once while we were doing it. Then after a while he came. We rested for a little while, then I took a shower, got dressed, and left."
I stopped reading and just lay there, feeling the adrenalin course through me. I realized my jaw was clenched so tight that my teeth hurt. Angie lay beside me, no doubt feeling the tension in my body, afraid to move or make a sound.
"You asked for this, Alex," I said silently to myself. "Now be a man and take it!"
It wasn't that she'd written anything surprising. In my own imagination I'd created scenes that were far wilder, far more upsetting than what I'd just read. It was rather the simple reality of it—the difference between my own unhappy imaginings and the cold facts of how Angie had had sex with another man. It hurt a hell of a lot.
I took some deep breaths, found myself growing a bit calmer, and read on.
"The Second Time, three days later, at Tommy's apartment. We met in the afternoon.
"In the car on the way there I changed out of my work clothes. When I got to Tommy's I only had on a halter top and my skirt, no underwear.
"When I came into the apartment Tommy kissed me, and I took his hand and slid it up my leg. When he realized I had nothing on underneath he got very excited. He sat me on a kitchen chair and went down on me, kneeling on the floor in front of me.