I was determined to seduce my husband. We had been married for nearly a year now. It was the second for both of us. I was divorced and support from my ex was sporadic and unreliable. But especially my teenage daughter needed emotional support and a stable home life. He had provided it.
His two preteen kids needed a woman in their home to begin to compensate for their mother who had died. He was lost being single and needed someone, too.
He was a really sweet man. We did genuinely love each other. I never doubted that and I believe that he never had second thoughts about our marriage.
The problem was that our sex life was perfunctory and unimaginative. We always made love with the lights out and after I had removed my leg braces and put them and my crutches out of sight. We would assume the missionary position and he was always sure that I had had an orgasm before he allowed himself to climax. Then he would roll off me and we -- or at least he -- would go to sleep.
I had raised the issue of my disability before we were engaged. He had said that it didn't bother him and then we changed the subject. We never had confronted it directly. This was the same trap that my first marriage had fallen into. I didn't want to relive it.
I had been deprived long enough. I wanted sex that was raucus and bawdy. I wanted him to see and to feel all of me -- legs that didn't work, steel braces and all. I was falling into the old pattern of trying to satisfy myself in odd moments alone. It was not enough.
That was how I found myself sitting on a bench outside the big mall in the city and dressed like a prostitute. I was waiting for him to come and pick me up.
I had come to the city with him that morning. He was here for a presentation to a prospective client. I had come along on the pretext that I wanted to shop at the mall. I had accompanied him dressed in baggy slacks and a full cotton sweater. I believe he had no clue about what was underneath.
I had spent a long time dressing that morning. I selected thong underwear and a pushup bra that he had never seen. I put on black fishnet panty hose and my new knee high boots that laced their whole length. The boots had as much heel as I could safely manage. My braces attached to the heels of the boots and rose to my thighs. My blouse was sheer and sleeveless and low cut. A very short skirt completed the outfit. The slacks and sweater covered all this except for the unusually high heels. He didn't seem to notice the boots in his concentration on his forthcoming presentation.
Now it was the agreed time to meet me outside the mall. I had toured the stores on a rented scooter but hadn't bought anything. When it was nearly time for him to come for me, I returned the scooter and went to the women's room. There I removed slacks and sweater and put them into my shoulder bag. I adjusted my makeup. People stared as I made my way outside to the place we had agreed to meet. I felt naked and a bit ashamed but I was thrilled by their stares all the same. I was happy that I was unlikely to be seen by anyone that knew me.
I sat on the bench in the late afternoon sun and within a minute of the appointed time I saw our car drive into the parking lot and head in my direction. I was assured by his unfailing dependability but at the same time I was rebelling at the boredom of it.
I lifted myself to my feet and carefully locked my braces. I walked to meet the car at the curb just as it arrived. I saw his startled expression through the window. He started to open the door but I put a crutch in the way and signalled for him to roll down the window.