Weeks had passed since our weekend camping trip where we had witnessed the decadent initiation rite of the bikers. Strangely, it had exposed some aspects of my wife's sexuality that were new to me. There had been a few times where one of us had made a passing comment about the event, but we had not discussed it in any detail. I think at part of it, at least from my perspective, was the fact that I was still processing what I had seen from Chris, and I suspect she might have been questioning her conduct, as well. However, after a night out with friends, where the alcohol was flowing, the subject was suddenly opened wide.
After returning to our house, I had flopped down on the couch while Chris went to the bathroom. She joined me a few minutes later wearing only a cropped t-shirt with her thong and snuggled in close. It was easy to tell that she was in the mood to play.
"Someone's horny," I teased.
"Ssshhhh..." she replied, and pulled my hand to her breast.
I fondled her while we kissed, and then a silly thought hit me and I blurted out, "Why don't you dance for me?"
She pushed away so she could look at me, and then said, "You're still thinking about DeAnne."
"No, baby...I'm thinking about you and Tommy," I replied with a chuckle, thinking I was being clever.
"No...it's Deanne," she answered, with a certain look, and after pausing to let her words sink in, she continued with, "You wanted to be with her...you wanted to trade."
"No, honey..." I started, but was cutoff.
"You already admitted it. You're still thinking about her. You wanted her so badly you wanted to let him..." she challenged me before her thought tailed off.
"Chris, I was just teasing," I said, suddenly feeling defensive.
"No, you're still thinking about her," she replied, not letting it go.
I pulled her to me so we were tightly connected and began to lovingly kiss her neck as I wondered whether she was playing with me or feeling vulnerable. However, as I did so, I began to think my efforts only made me appear guilty.
"Honey..." I whispered softly.
"You thought about trading me. For a moment, you were quiet and thought about it," she declared.
"No, it was just so shocking...it caught me off guard," I replied, feeling I had come up with a good explanation.
"Liar," she said instantly.
Her statement momentarily stopped the conversation, and while we looked at each other, Chris peeled off her top and then started working on the buttons of my shirt. When she had several undone, her hand reached inside and began to tease my nipples in the way she knew drove me crazy.
"I love you," I said.
"I would have done it if you wanted...I would have made the sacrifice for you," she whispered.
Her words sent a sudden chill through my body. Did I actually hear her correctly? Did my loving wife really say she would have sex with another man in trade? It was so far away from her normal manner that for a moment I thought it must be a trap, but at the same time, it was so bizarre, so completely surreal, that I began to think that she might actually be serious.
"You're crazy," I finally said as the silence was just too disturbing.
"I would have...for you..." she answered softly as she toyed with my nipples.
"No...no, you wouldn't...you're pretending it was a game, but it wasn't a game. That big asshole would have shoved his cock into you and fucked you as hard as he could," I replied, purposefully being graphic.
"I would have for you. Just like she did for Tommy," she said in the same faint voice.
"Tommy was stupid. Very stupid! I wouldn't want you to do anything like that," I replied, now wondering if she was drunker than I thought.
"It would have been...you could have been with DeAnne," she said, still refusing to let the subject go.
Our movements completely stopped, and now I was just looking into her eyes which were fixed on mine. We stayed that way as the seconds turned into a minute or more. During that time, another thought came to my brain, but it was so strange, so impossible to believe that at first, I dismissed it. However, it kept coming back, over and over in a wild, bizarre vision, and suddenly my words were coming out.
"Chris, do you want to have sex with Falcon?" I finally asked.
"You wanted DeAnne," she replied evasively.
"You didn't answer me," I said, and a long pause ensued before she finally answered.
"I don't know...what she did. I mean it is in my head and I think about it. It seems so powerful and watching how it happened was so basic, so carnal... The big sacrifice she made for such a silly reason...such a crazy reason. I don't know..." she tried to explain.
"And him?" I pushed.
"He was such a complete jerk...a total ass...it makes her sacrifice even bigger..." she replied, continuing to paint the scene as a gallant act by the young girl.
I realized that she still hadn't answered my question about Falcon. I sensed there was something about him that intrigued her, although the idea seemed completely crazy. She was an educated, professional woman, and he was a knuckle dragging Neanderthal, everything a modern female was supposed to despise.
"Did you want to be with him?" I asked again, wanting desperately to know as it opened a whole new door into the understanding of my wife.
"I would have done it for you," she replied again
I took her head in my hands and forced her to look into my face from mere inches away, "Did you want him?"
"Don't make me say it," she whimpered, and in her response, I had the answer.
"You have to say it," I demanded.
Surprisingly, she responded immediately, "Okay, yes...yes. I don't know why..."