I knew that at the time I found it that I was never meant to see that particular Diary she had been writing! Connie (my wife of 7 years, and the mother of my two sons) had always written in a diary, ever since she was able to write. She has a collection that spans several feet of shelves in our closet. She had gone home to be with a favorite aunt seven months ago, and while she was away, I had decided to do a few repairs around the house. She was going to be gone for ten days, and I had made arrangements for some time off to look after the boys.
Connie left on a Thursday, and that evening I headed to the hardware store to pick up what I would need. I bought nails, glue, washers and a set of kitchen taps to replace the ones we had. Everything went as planned until it came to do the taps on Saturday morning. I knew that I had purchased a set of special wrenches to do the job, but as I had done that some time before, I couldn’t find them. I called her at her mother’s home, and she said that she thought they were in our closet. We talked for a few minutes, and she said good-by as she was heading off to the hospital.
I headed for the closet to dig out the tools I needed. I started to look around in the usual place where she put things like that, but I failed to find them there, so I looked into a small dresser that she had placed in the closet. She had been putting a lot of things we seldom use in it. It had been a long time since I had ever looked into it. It was in the middle drawer that I found the first of her secret diaries! It was dated over three years earlier! I took a few minutes to read what I could without interfering with the task I had set for myself.
I was just getting started when I heard one of the boys screaming at the other one. I placed the book on the bed, and as I did, I saw the tools I needed under the dresser. I picked them up, and headed to the kitchen. The boys had been being typical boys and the fight was quickly over. I set them to work handing my things I needed to finish doing the taps. The boys (6 and 4 years old) were a bit of help, and keeping them busy helping me kept them in line to an extent! The taps were finished and I looked to see that it was time to start lunch.
I cleaned up the kitchen, and after settling the youngest in for a nap, and sending the older one out to play, I headed back to review the diaries I had found. There were four of them, as she had always purchased annual diaries. It started with what seemed like a personal argument with herself. Her daily entries talked about a thought a friend of hers had given her without saying what the thought was. She mentioned a name, which I vaguely remembered from back in those days. It was a woman named Julie. I had only met Julie a few times and then it seemed that she disappeared from our lives.
It was rather difficult to follow the thoughts she had written into her diary, but I knew that it was an important part of her life or she would never have bothered to record it at all! The story in the diary changed little for about 6 weeks. I still had absolutely no idea what she was mulling over in her mind! It was on the seventh Thursday that things began to clear up. I was leaving town that evening for a 4-day trip, and as it turned out Julie was coming over that Friday to discuss her thoughts in greater detail. I can’t figure out how to word this so it will make any sense, so I copied her words from her diary directly as she wrote them.
Friday, March 12, 1999. Julie was over this evening after the boys went to bed. She has been questioning me about working with her ever since she told me she is the entertainment manager at the Maison Rouge men’s club! She has brought over three of her costumes that she thinks will fit me, and three of her dance tracks. I still can’t figure out how she managed to get me so interested in working as a stripper, and a lap dancer when Kevin is away! I have told her that I might consider doing it, but that I reserved the right to not go through with it if it bothered me at all.
She played all three of her old tracks for me, and had me pick one. I liked some of each of them, and finally chose the best of all three plus a couple of my own selections. She went to the living room, and quickly recorded a track of 6 songs for me. Then we played it, to see how it turned out, I loved it! She then coached me through some of the more erotic steps and body placements that she used a lot, along with some that other girls use on stage. She had me practice a stage session a few times before she had me chose a costume. This was possibly going to be my stage outfit, and I chose a filmy ankle length black dress with both sides slits from hem to hips. Under that I wore a front close red push up bra, and matching thong panties. She then coached me through another stage show rehearsal with me actually removing the clothing as I did. She had brought her video camera with her, and she recorded me as I did my routine. We then sat back to watch the tape. I was blushing as she commented about how attractive I looked.
We both discovered several things that I could improve on, and I decided to try to incorporate the ideas into a second taped show. She told me to make sure that I spent some time working in all directions off the stage, after all there would be men sitting on three sides of the stage I might eventually work on. The second tape was much better than the first, and we decided to do another run. She had been telling me about how things worked at her club, and how to perform with the guys that wanted a lap dance while we looked through things. By that time it was already 1:00 AM, so we decided to call it a night, and Julie said she would come back the next night to review what we had discovered.
Saturday, March 13, 1999. My mother-in-law came over this morning, and asked if she could have the boys for the day, and return them Sunday morning, knowing that I wanted as much time with Julie as I could get that day, I eagerly accepted her offer. The boys were gone by 9:30, and I was on the phone with Julie in a matter of seconds after they left. Julie told me she would be right over as soon as she could make it, and told me she had an additional plan to discuss with me.