When I published my story Interdiction, I had already started writing this one. I had two ideas for how to handle the scenario of "the wife comes home and tells her husband she wants to go on a date with a coworker." I went with Interdiction, but recently I started rereading this and realized it was a very different story and one that I liked too much to let go. So, here is another take on the plot. I hope you enjoy it.
There is no sex, and it is mostly dialog between the husband and wife.
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Chapter 1
I had read stories about this kind of thing happening. I always assumed it was just fiction and nothing like it would ever really occur, at least not to me. So, imagine my surprise the other evening when my wife of nearly twenty years told me over dinner, "Honey, we need to talk."
My heart leaped into my throat, and I immediately tensed up, preparing for the worst. Had she cheated on me? Did she want a divorce? What could it possibly be? Where had we gone wrong?
I stared across the dinner table at her, my hands shaking. "Talk?" I asked, trying my damnedest to sound calm. "Talk about what?"
"Well, first of all, I want to tell you that I love you," she said, then took a sip of wine as if she were using it to settle her nerves. I noticed she hadn't eaten much at all.
I stared at her, trying to analyze her movements, her facial expression, anything to give me some clue about what was coming. I couldn't take the stress very long and blurted out, "Have you cheated on me, Maggie?"
Her face twitched, and she looked at me with big, surprised eyes. "No, of course not," she replied. "I would never cheat on you." Although the way she stressed the word cheat made me nervous, I think I let out a sigh of relief. Well, if it wasn't cheating, what could it be?
"Are you leaving me?" I asked, fearing the worst.
"Oh, God, George," she said, "Where are you getting these ideas? Of course, I'm not leaving you. I love you."
"Good," I responded, "I love you, too. I plan on growing old with you and spending the rest of our lives together."
Maggie's eyes lit up, and she gave me a warm smile. "So do I, George."
"Then, what is it? Are you unwell?" I asked growing concerned for Maggie's health.
"I'm fine, honey," she assured me. "I didn't mean to alarm you, but it's just that I feel like something's been missing between us for a while now. With Meredith off to college, things just seem different. Maybe it's empty nest syndrome or mid-life crisis or something, but we seem to be stuck in a bit of a rut."
I felt myself relax a little, but I was still apprehensive, wondering what in the world was bothering Maggie. "A rut? How so?" I asked.
"Well, we spend so much time with work that we have little time for each other. Your job takes you out of town frequently, and my job often keeps me late at the office. When we're not working, we're both tired. When was the last time we had sex?"
"When was the last time we had sex?" I repeated her question. I honestly couldn't remember the last time. Maggie had not wanted to have sex for quite a while. I had to settle for jerking off, alone, for months. "It's been a while, but every time I initiate anything remotely sexual you shut me down. You've always got one excuse or another."
"Right," Maggie agreed," I know. I'm usually tired as hell when you feel frisky. But, when we were young, we didn't care if we were tired. We'd have sex three or four times a week. Now, it's like once every three or four months."
"If that," I replied, agreeing with her. "And?" I was growing irritated. It sounded like she was blaming me for the lack of sex when she was the one who always said no. If it had been up to me, we would have been doing it often.
"And, well, I want to get out of this rut we're in," she said. "I want to fix things between us to ensure we can stay together for the rest of our lives. We're bored, George. We need to get un-bored."
"I'm not bored," I told her. "I've got plenty of excitement in my life."
"Excitement? Really? What are you going to do tonight?" she asked me with a crooked grin.
"Watch the Curse of Oak Island. They're saying tonight they make a big discovery," I answered as I thought about her comments.
"Don't they say that every week and all they ever find is mud and bits of wood?"
"Well, yeah," I admitted. "More or less."
"As I said," she grinned, "boring."
"Okay, that's not boring. It's comfortable. We're comfortable. That's what happens when you've been married as long as we have. You get comfortable."
"I don't want comfortable," Maggie explained. "When we were first married, you would ravish me nightly. You haven't ravished me in years."
"Is that it?" I asked, setting my fork down. "Do you want me to ravish you? Pull down your pants and bend over the table. I'll ravish you now."
"That's not exactly what I was thinking of, George. To be honest, I have just as little interest in having sex with you as you have to do it with me. It's just where we are in our lives. We've lost the spark, and that's what worries me. We're still in our forties. We have a lot of years left. I'm afraid that if we've lost this much romantic interest in each other already, what will we have left in a few more years? How will we be able to stay together?"
"We'll stay together because we're husband and wife. That's what husbands and wives do; we're used to each other; we're comfortable. And who says I don't have interest in having sex with you? Of course, I do!"
"We've become roommates, George, comfortable roommates."
"I think we're more than roommates. I mean we do have sex now and then, and we do love each other."
"So, we're roommates with infrequent benefits. Yes, I do love you, George and I know you love me. But, can you honestly tell me you're still in love with me the same way you were when we got married way back in the stone age?"
"It's different," I tried to explain, "like a fine wine. Our love has matured and mellowed over the years. We're older, and our libidos are not as active as they once were."
"But they could be," she said taking my hand. "Don't you want to be excited and feel the thrill of chemistry again, like we used to?"
"I don't know, Maggie, I kind of like how things are now. I mean, sure, I'd love to have sex more often, but I like coming home and hanging out with you, calmly and peacefully. We've worked a long time to get to where we are. It's like that damned hammock in the back yard. It's been back there for almost twenty years. Every year I kept telling myself that one day soon I'll be able to just lay out there, relax and read a book. Well, now when I'm to the point where I'm finally about to lay down in the thing, you're telling me you want to get rid of the hammock."
Maggie stared at me as she processed my remarks, then shook her head. "I don't understand that, but I'm not asking you to give anything up, honey. I'm saying I think we need to rekindle our romance, to spice up our love lives, before it's too late. My libido isn't dead; it's just been dormant. I want to feel the way we used to feel when we had sex when it was new and fresh and exciting like we couldn't get enough of it or each other."
"So are you saying that our sex is no longer satisfying?"
"No, I'm not saying that at all. You're a wonderful, caring and talented lover when we have sex. You always know how to please me and not once have I ever faked an orgasm with you. The problem isn't that our sex is bad; it's that we never want to do it."
"What are you saying?" I asked. "I'm confused."
"I'm saying that I want more. I feel like we're no longer lovers. We're just partners. I want to feel you love me again. I want to feel I love you again. I want passion. I want desire. I want romance. I want sex."
"I thought you said you don't want sex. Do you want it or not?"
"I want to want to have sex!"
"It sounds like you want to be young again. Are you sure this isn't your hormones acting up? Are you having hot flashes?"
"Don't do that, George!" she snapped. "Don't trivialize my feelings and make it about me being a woman with hormonal issues. Every time I get upset, I do not have PMS and because I want to rekindle our love affair doesn't mean I'm going through menopause!"
"I'm sorry; you're right. That was insensitive. I'm just trying to understand where all of this is coming from suddenly."
"Honey, it isn't sudden. This has been on my mind for a long time. I'm afraid that if we don't do something drastic to jumpstart our relationship, our marriage isn't going to survive."
She looked like she was on the verge of tears. I heard what she was saying. To be honest, we had been running on a kind of autopilot.
"Well, if it isn't sudden," I asked angrily, "why are you just now bringing it up? Why haven't you tried to talk to me about this before?"
"It has taken me a long time to get to this point," she explained, "but, I'm talking about it now. I didn't want to let it keep festering."
Maybe there was something to what she was saying. I loved Maggie, and I would do almost anything to make her happy and to improve our relationship.
"Alright, I'm listening. I can tell you've given this a lot of thought and it's important to you. What do you want to do? Should we see a marriage counselor? I read about something called intimacy coaches. Should I try to find one?"
"Those are great ideas," she said with a smile as she wiped a tear off her cheek. "Thank you for suggesting them. I think we might want to try that. I was thinking of some other things we could do."
"Like what?"
"Well, first let me ask you something. Your company is a creative agency, right? You tell me all the time that you're one of the best at what you all do."
"Yes, we're one of the top two in the state, probably top five in the country. Why? What does that have to do with our love life?"
"Do you hire the best people?"
"Of course, we do."
"And how many of those people have been at your company for, say, twenty years?"
"Nobody, the company's only been around for six years. We're constantly bringing in new talent. Our industry has a lot of turnover."
"Right, so you're always acquiring new talent, with new ideas, new ways of doing things?"
"Yes, we're very innovative. We have a continuously evolving way of working."
"And people are always bringing in new skills and new energy, making things better for everyone?"
"Yes, that's right. Where are you going with all of this?"
"George, we've been married for twenty years next month. We dated exclusively for three years before that. In all of that time, I've never cheated on you, and as far as I know, you've never cheated on me. That means in close to twenty-three years, we've only ever had sex with each other. You were my first, and from what you told me, you only had two girlfriends before me."
"That's right," I said, starting to worry about where this was heading again. I was getting a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. "And?"
"Well, would you hire a person to work at your company if they learned their skills 23 years ago and have not taken any lessons or had any new ideas or new education? Would you want employees who only practiced what you do once every few months? Would your company be the best if everyone didn't try to be the best and take things to newer and higher levels all the time?"
"What? Of course not, but that's totally different. That's work. We're talking about us. What exactly are you trying to say?"