Elaine: "Can I come in and sit down with you? We need to talk."
I was stunned at what this woman had told me. I wanted to rage and laugh in her face again, tell her it wasn't true. That he had lied to her. But the memories were flooding back. That trip to New York when I was so worried that he had found out and was leaving me. He had found out, he just loved me enough to forgive me. He even lied to make me feel better. What had I done?
I turned to Anne and said "First things first. Your daughter and her friend are making plans to hook up with some boys tonight. I overheard them talking about it when they were leaving." She made a quick call to Beth's mother to thwart those plans and had her daughter Kristy stay at Beth's house for the night.
When she walked back in to the living room she was carrying a bottle of rum and two glasses. She poured us both a drink and I asked her if she loved Phil. She nodded. I asked her if he loved her and she hung her head.
"I don't know. He has never said anything but when we kissed...I could feel it. But he loves you. He almost ran from me after that kiss. I could tell that he felt as though he had betrayed you. The pain in his eyes...it broke my heart to see him in pain like that."
So I told her the story of how we met and our life together. Why I cheated again and again. My therapy and what I had learned about myself. That I had been faithful for the last two years and that I would never cheat on him again. I said what confused me most was, if he only pretended to cheat when he knew I was having an affair, why he had started up with her. I had been faithful.
Her explanation was simple. Phil went by my moods. If I had been withdrawn or distant he assumed it was guilt and manufactured an affair for me to find out about so we could make up. It hit me. I had been depressed after meeting an old hook-up who wouldn't take no for an answer after I had thought it was all behind me. That's why he had done this. We polished off half the bottle together as we talked. I realized that Phil had loved me enough to share me for almost twenty years. So I knew what I had to do.
Phil: Several hours later I was still on the couch with my head down. My thoughts were spinning out of control. I heard Elaine pull up into the driveway and I knew I had to talk to her. I didn't know what to say but I was going to try. She walked in and I looked up. Oh my God. Both of them were standing there. I opened my mouth but Elaine cut me off.
"Don't say anything. We have some questions for you. Just answer them so we can decide what to do about this mess."
I couldn't tell by either of their expressions what they were thinking. They were both looking so serious. Anne asked me if I loved her. I hung my head and said "I think I do. Meeting you was the most wonderful thing that has happened to me since I met Elaine. I love your laugh, your smile, the way you look at me, and the way I feel when I look at you. I never meant for it to happen and I am sorry I've hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you."
Then Elaine asked me if I still loved her. When I looked up at her I could see the fear in her eyes, waiting for my answer. "I have loved you since I met you. We have built a life together and I couldn't imagine a day without you by my side. You are my other half. I am incomplete when you aren't here. I don't know what to do. Confused isn't enough of a word to describe me right now. I didn't know it was even possible to love two women at the same time." Her next words shocked me.
"It's a wife's duty to give her husband what he needs. I know what you need Phil. You shared me for most of my marriage because it was what I needed. Now it's my turn."
She said you have two women that love you. One has shared your bed. The other deserves a turn. She and Anne each took a hand and led me to our bedroom. Then she let go and turned me to Anne.
"Love her like you love me. Show her what she means to you."
And she sat down in the chair facing the bed. When I looked at her questioningly she giggled.
"I heard she likes to be watched. I want to see this."
My head was still reeling but everything came into focus when I looked at Anne. She was slowly undressing. I stopped her and said "Let me." I took off her blouse kissing every inch of flesh as it was uncovered. Each breast was my playground as I kissed and nibbled her in all the spots I had wanted to touch since that first night in the hotel. Her eyes were on fire and my passion was building, I even forgot that Elaine was watching. When I took off her pants I laid her on the bed and kissed my way from her feet up to the nirvana between her legs. She was panting now and I could smell her arousal. When I licked her outer lips she shuddered and when I playfully swiped my tongue across her engorged clit she hissed. I didn't just eat her pussy. I made love to it. Taking my time, building her up and letting her cool off again and again. She was thrashing on the bed and finally grabbed my hair and pulled my head up.