June gloom, we call it. Here in Southern California, in late May and June a morning cloud layer starts our days with a gray-tinged overcast. The air is cool, the sun invisible, but everybody knows this marine layer will burn off around noon or so. The hazy midday glare soon fades to a warm, bright welcome home for those of us who work in offices until late afternoon.
I am in the habit of enjoying my Friday afternoons, leaving my office around 3 or so to get in a round of golf at my country club. Usually I’ll just get in 9 holes, have a couple drinks with my buddies, and then head home for dinner.
June 11, 2004, was different. Early that Friday morning, the Santa Ana winds began to breeze through the canyons of the Santa Monica Mountains near my home. I woke up to a brightly glowing sun and crystal blue sky. The ocean view was stunning from my bedroom window. What a day to have to work. But to work I did have to go.
At 37, I had a secure place in my firm. I felt that everyone respected me for my diligence, and nobody begrudged me the occasional day off. This particular morning, however, I definitely had commitments I couldn’t avoid. So I put on my uniform (suit and tie) and was heading off to obligationville.
Before I left, as I knotted my tie, I stared at my wife, who was still sleeping peacefully in our large bed, the sun shining across her body covered only in a sheet. 27 years old, she could have been a dancer or an athlete. Her 5’10” frame was slender, even muscular. She had no interest in weights, but somehow just the running and her Pilates work kept her looking like a jock. Her hips were still girlishly slim and her breasts were firm, sitting high with puffy areolas and nipples that hardened with the slightest provocation. Her beautiful face, with penetrating green eyes, and her vibrant, blonde hair completed a package that made me hard whenever I thought of her.
Before I headed off to the day’s battles, I bent down to gently kiss her full, soft lips, imagining briefly that this was our cave and that I was headed off to hunt for food to survive. As our lips touched, she stirred slightly, and her long arms snaked around my back. She moaned in that enticing tone that I hadn’t heard in far too long.
“Stay home today, baby,” she whispered, as if someone might hear her plaintive request.
“I’m sorry, I really can’t,” I said, with genuine sadness. It wasn’t often that Sara had morning glory sex on her mind, and here I had to miss it. In fact, I had been so busy lately that we hadn’t had any sex for quite awhile. I wasn’t sure of the exact reasons, but we just hadn’t been clicking. I had been occupied and stressed when she was interested, and then on the few occasions when I wanted to, she seemed irritable or disinterested. This was just another of those mis-timed moments, where only one of us was ready for a two-person sport.
Sara’s sleepy eyes stared back at me, almost breaking my will. Her eyes, without makeup, had that slightly reddened, raw, natural sexiness that I love. Women’s eyes can look great with makeup, but that morning au naturel look is sexier than any mascara. God, she looked hot. I could even see her nipples forming little bumps in the smooth, white sheet that covered her body. I almost tore it off to attack her, but the adult in me ultimately won control. I had five people who were already on their way to my office to meet me, and I had to leave right then to get to the meeting on time.
“Let’s go out tonight, okay?” I asked, smiling. “I have to go to a meeting on the Oakmark case, and you know how important that is.”
“Yes, and I know how important I used to be,” she said with mock sadness. We both knew she was only kidding in the way that we joked with each other. “I guess I’ll just have to take matters into my own hands,” she said softly with a sly smile. The image of her masturbating jumped into my mind, and I felt blood rush to my penis. I stood up to avoid collapsing on her in a lustful frenzy, and reluctantly made my way to work, feeling very conflicted as I said goodbye.
By noon, staring out of my window over the Santa Monica coastline, I had done as much as I could that day. My motivation was sapped, so I decided to leave. I figured that if I left immediately, I could get in 18 holes, and still have enough time to make it home early. I could then proceed with my carnal attack on Sara, and afterward, we could go out for a relaxed dinner. I decided to stop by home first to tell her my plan. It was about 12:30 when I walked in the door.
Our two-story living room has a spiral staircase leading to the second floor where the master bedroom takes up a good share of the space. As I padded up the carpeted stairs, I heard a sound that I couldn’t clearly identify. When I got closer to the bedroom, I heard strange rustling. Maybe Sara was changing the sheets. Hearing the sounds again, I was suddenly excited by the thought that just maybe I might catch her masturbating. The thought made my cock swell to a hard rod instantly. Maybe I would skip the golf game and go directly to uninhibited sex. As I imagined her eagerly climbing toward orgasm on our bed, I stepped more slowly and quietly down the hall, so I could watch her for a while, nasty voyeur that I must be.
When I was only a few steps from the bedroom, I heard more noise. Moans, to be precise, breathy, sexy moans, quiet yet fervent. God, she really was masturbating! I know how she sounds when she falls completely into a sexual frenzy, like an animal, human restraint and social limits forgotten in the heated moment.
Then, suddenly, my ears burned with another sound, another moan. It definitely did not come from Sara. It was a low, masculine voice, a feral, guttural grunt that stabbed me in my belly. It was a primeval groan of sexual abandonment. I was so startled that I froze just before I got to the bedroom door. I stood and listened. More moans and grunts--definitely two voices, hers and his, whoever he was. I know -- I should have been furious. I should have charged in and confronted the both of them, screaming madly, and maybe attacking this guy who was in pari delicto with my wife of seven years. I can’t explain why I didn’t attack them with justifiable rage. It could have been because my mind had already shifted to the sex mode before I got there; or because I was just too stunned, like a deer in the headlights, unable to act; or because I secretly wanted this, but as my hand felt my steel-hard erection, I realized I had already decided what I would do–or more exactly, what I would not do.
As I peered around the door jam into our large bedroom, my eyes were flooded with an overwhelming image. There, at the foot of the bed, two lovers embraced, kissing with bodies and hands struggling in a primal mating dance. My wife’s sheer, beach cover-up was open, her sexiest bikini still concealing the objects of any man’s desires. The man had his shirt completely unbuttoned so his bare chest was against Sara’s soft, tan skin as they kissed. And kiss they did, heads twisting as their mouths locked together. Though I could not see for certain, I knew that their tongues were dueling, dancing in that first truly sexual act of lovers.
As they kissed, their hands moved freely, lovingly on each other. Her right hand reached around and pulled at the lower part of his jeans-clad ass, right between his cheeks. Her left palm was spread widely, massaging below his belt. I knew she was pressing and trying to bend his covered penis, enjoying the feel and knowing that it drew him further into her sensual nest. The way her hand flexed and clenched made me sure that her eager fingertips were extending to and massaging his balls. For his part, his left hand rested gently on her lower back, appearing to gently tickle her skin. His right hand, the one nearest me, was on her left breast; his thumb rubbing across the erect nipple poking through the thin material of her bathing suit. God, she has great nipples. They sprout rigidly with the slightest stimulation, and she loves to have them touched or kissed. I have brought her to many orgasms just by tonguing those fleshy, firm nubs.