She was bent over, tied, stretched, her bottom in the air, smooth and soft. She was naked except for her socks. Her hand tied, pulled by the ropes towards the opposite corner of the bed. Feet on the ground slightly spread, held in place by ropes tied around her ankles then tied to each bed post. My leather belt was in one hand as I rubbed her back with the other. She said nothing as I rubbed and contemplated what I would do next.
This is what she wanted; this is what I wanted, absolute power over her, absolute submission. We had played games when we were first married, but I had never truly tied her up before and never with the intent to bring pain, real pain. This was new territory for me, this was new power, could I truly hurt her, punish her, strike her and unleash myself on her.
Looking back it is clear now when we started down this path. My wife had always been driven. In both high school and college she graduated with honors. She carried that need to succeed, that drive into her career. I worked but it was always a means to an end, a way to earn money. For her it was more.
The crossroad came about two years ago, she was working in a large transportation company and I was working contract. Our second child was about two years old and I had a great opportunity in another city. The pay was good and job was challenging but fun. The client asked me to join the team full time.
I brought my wife and kids to visit the new city. We looked at houses, investigated local schools. If we moved my wife could be a stay at home mom. As we drove around she started crying, telling me how she did not want to move. She wanted to keep her job. Later that day we made a decision to concentrate on her career. I would work contract and she would keep her job with its benefits and retirement.
Over time I started taking on more and more home responsibilities, as she had to work later and later at the office. She would come home after I had gone to bed. She would sometimes work weekends. At first she would sleep in the separate bed "because she did not want to wake me". Soon it became normal.
On the weekends I would bring her breakfast in bed. I felt bad about her working so hard and I had always loved pampering her. I would do my best to make her time as home relaxing and special.
I was also doing more and more of the house work. First it was just cooking then soon it was cleaning. Soon I was doing most of the daily house work.
I was also doing most of the kids activities, picking up from school, taking them to soccer, swimming and gymnastics.
But in the bedroom is where the impact of her working so hard hit the hardest. She saved no energy for me. Our sex lives dried up. She would sleep in one bed, I would sleep in another. I was less and less of a husband and more and more a nanny and maid. I was depressed and angry and she was too busy to notice. She had to be the best at work. She was driven to succeed not seeing what she was doing to me.