At 19, in my last year of high school, first I got pregnant and then I got married. Marrying me may have been the only honorable thing my husband ever tried to do.
Just the other day, my husband was laid-off, again. With one kid to support and another on the way, our prospects didn’t look good. Telling me that it was time I got a job, he announced that he was leaving town for a few weeks to go fishing with a few of his laid-off buddies. This left me, at 21, with too many responsibilities, too few qualifications, and none of the experience needed to land a decent job.
I suppose I should have been suspicious when I saw an ad saying I could make between $400 and $4,000 a day as a model, but I have always been a little too naïve. Like I said, I should have been suspicious, but instead, I was desperate.
I called the number in the ad. The fellow who answered, Peter, asked if I had ever modeled. I hadn’t. He then asked me some questions about my looks. Although I lack self-confidence, men seem to consider me attractive enough: blond, long legs on a 5’8” frame, a nice firm bum, heavy breasts with protruding nipples (made soft because I was still breast-feeding my son), and a slim tummy that had yet to really show the effects of my second pregnancy. Peter asked me to drop by the next day. First, though, he wanted me to get a facial and a manicure, and to buy a few things.
The next day, after I dropped my son off, I went as instructed to a beauty salon at a local mall. A lady named Dolores, who often did this sort of work for Peter, fixed me up. She also offered to help me with my shopping. She assured me that my navy skirt and a white blouse would be fine for a preliminary photo shoot, but she advised me to buy a nice push-up bra and matching high-cut panties. On a whim, I also bought elasticized stockings and a pair of black pumps. I then bussed to Peter’s studio.
After a bit of chitchat, Peter showed me some samples of his work. He explained that since I was married, he thought I would be most comfortable modeling cosmetics or clothes – skirts, blouses, lingerie, etc. - for local retailers. The money - $400 a day – seemed good, but it left me wondering what I had to do to earn more. That, he explained, would involve modeling in the nude and, as he delicately put it, “performing in ways not really compatible with being married, and especially not with being pregnant.”
When I tried to find out a little more, Peter said, “Let me put it this way. What would your husband think about you having sex with other men?” I explained the situation my husband had placed me in, then looked at the wedding band on my finger, twisting it nervously. It was a modest ring, but symbolically important. “I’m not sure I could even bring myself to ask him.” It was an odd answer.
“If this makes you uncomfortable, we can stop. I really don’t think this is your cup of tea”, said Peter. “No, it’s OK, go ahead”, I replied. “OK, then, do you know what it is like to be with more than one man at a time, or to have others watch?” Peter continued. “If you mean all at one time, then not exactly”, I replied, and proceeded to sketch out for him how I lost my virginity.
I was young and had a crush on a local high school football player who was a few years older than me. After months of trying to get his attention, he finally asked me to a party. Once there, he plied me with drinks and then asked if I wanted to make out. Being young and naïve, I thought my prayers had been answered. Being older and horny, he knew his prayers had been answered.
I let him guide me to one of the bedrooms. At first we just laid on the bed and kissed, but then things started to spin out of control. He moved his hand to my breast. “Stop”, I said and moved it away. A short while later, he moved it back. Again, I said “No”, but rather than fight him, I covered his hand with mine to try and limit his movement. Nobody had ever touched me like that before, and I guess I was flattered. When he reached inside my sweater, I said, “Please don’t”, but I put up no resistance, letting him fondle my breasts and tug at my nipples.
He then guided my hand to his pants and, for the first time in my life, I felt a male member grow in response to my touch. This gave me a false sense of control, which turned to fear when he wrestled it out of his pants. After a moment’s hesitation, however, I resumed stroking him. Surprisingly, I liked the way his cock felt in my hand, but being new to the game, I had no idea what effect this was having on him.
I began to get worried when I felt him put his hand on my thigh and then run it up the back of my leg and under my dress to caress my bum. He then commanded me to open my legs. Out of my mouth came the word “No”, but I said it without conviction, and when he forced his hand down my panties, I parted my legs without being asked again, giving him access to my clit. To my surprise, I began to enjoy the feelings he was bringing forth. My hips betrayed me, responding with urgency to his fingers. I found I had neither the power nor the will to resist. I opened my legs wide and let him have his way. He took that as encouragement to go further.
He then positioned himself between my legs, pulled my panties roughly aside and started to rub the tip of his cock up and down my virgin cunt. Ignoring my whispered pleas to stop, and without waiting for me to become fully lubricated, he thrust himself in, tearing my hymen. In pain, I screamed “No. Oh God. Please don’t.” He ignored my cries and kept pumping. After just a few more thrusts, I felt him come inside.
We lay there together for a while, him panting, me whimpering. He refused to get off. At first I felt his member grow soft inside me … but then I felt it grow hard again. He then began pumping me with long, slow strokes. He kissed me with soft, wet kisses. He told me how beautiful I looked. Where once there was pain, now there was pleasure. This time I felt a tingling sensation that seemed to grow with every stroke.
Of their own accord, my hips moved to meet his thrusts, urging him on. I wrapped my legs around him, trying to pull him more deeply inside me. I found that I couldn’t help myself from moaning in rhythm with his strokes. I showered him in hot, wet kisses. Minutes earlier, I had wanted him to stop. Now I found myself begging for more.
“Do you want me to stop?” he whispered, resting the tip of his cock on my clit, bringing me to the edge of orgasm, desperate for his next thrust.
“Don’t stop”, I breathed as he slid deeply into me.
“Want to be my girl?” he teased, again hesitating.
“Yes” I sighed, eager to have him slide into me again.
“Will you do what I say?” he demanded.
“Yes”, I breathed, kissing him.
“Anything?” he asked, looking into my eyes.
“Anything”, I confessed, as he again reached bottom.
“Everything?” he asked, again hesitating, his cock teasing, my clit, again bringing me to the edge.