Pretend Cuckold
I am hyper-sexual, my wife is no longer sexually active with me. When we married it was different, nothing too crazy, but an occasional skinny dip and outdoor sex, weekend get away never leaving the room.
She would make any man hyper sexual. She is sexy stately, tall long legs, large breast, blonde sophisticated. When we were younger she was a tiger in the sack. I still love and lust for her.
At some time her attitude about me and sex with me changed, I think it was more of a power dynamic shift than a sex drive thing.
I was always the breadwinner in the family and my wife was a stay at home mom. Once the children were out of the house I helped my wife start a business as it grew, my business was floundering. This was a blow to my ego. I was still supporting all the bills and even her plastic surgery, keeping her younger looking than her age, and her gym routine helped too. She was now able to have her own money for luxuries, so good gift ideas were hard to come by gifts that I formally used to buy her affections. The last gift she seemed to appreciate was a gold anklet with a diamond pendent. She actually still wears her anklet especially when going on a business trip.As I felt less in control she became more demanding. I started cooking supper and doing the dishes, doing laundry, maintaining the house. At first she was appreciative because she could focus on her business. She started spending more and more time away from home, including overnight trips, even long weekend at seminars. Now she expected me to do the chores and would fuss if something wasn't to her liking. This helped make me less certain of myself. I asked for her thoughts more and she would tease me about not making even the smallest decision without her opinion.
My insecurities moved to the bedroom. When we had sex, I was less in charge , and I came to quickly. When this happened in the past she was ok, but now she was frustrated and would tell me how inconsiderate I was. My solution was more oral sex, I loved sucking my wife's pussy. It was a picture perfect pussy, smelled delicious and tasted better.At some point She started looking at her phone while I performed cunniligus, then she started avoiding my advances at all. Occasionally my wife would jack me off, then it moved to holding my balls as I jacked myself off, to watching me jack off, to totally ignoring me. Today we have zero sexual contact.
As I said I am hyper-sexual, so my libido never lessened, I masturbated in secret, thinking about my sexy wife. I Started reading porn stories and ended up with sissy cuckold stories. I thought that maybe that is how I could get my wife interested again. Unfortunately I suggested female domination in sex and adding a third person, even her using a strap-on dildo on me. She screamed that she must have married a faggot, and that female domination, and mΓ©nage a trios was still all about me and my dick.
"Why should I focus on directing you, when you should know my needs by now". I think I did know her needs a dominate man with a big dick, but was too timid to suggest it, thinking I would lose her.
"Sorry I am just a beta male, and sorry I thought you would like to be in charge of our sex life like everything else". She smirked and walked away.
Eventually everything in our relationship went back to the way it was before the strap on suggestion fiasco. I could still feel the disdain she had for me though she tried not to show it, it would come out often. Sometimes she would demean me in front of mutual friends. There were also innuendoes about my lacking in the dick size and stamina to her girl friends. It was at this point I decided I might as well be a cuckold sissy. Everything is in place. Beautiful Domineering wife, sexless marriage, most importantly a little dicked beta male, with a head full of sissy cuck porn stories.
It was a gradual process becoming a pretend cuckold. Just as the end of sex in my marriage was gradual. First I bought some panties to wear when jacking off, then I started wearing them at home, then everyday including to work. I did the laundry anyway, so my wife wouldn't know about my panties. When my wife would go out with friends or on a trip I would pretend that she was with her boyfriend, for all I know she was with her boyfriend. Then I started sniffing her worn panties while jacking off. Was that her discharge, or her boyfriends cum? To increase the fantasy I bought a chastity cage to wear when she was out, acting as though she demanded it. The next step was cumming in her panties retrieved from the clothes hamper, pretending it was her boyfriends cum. I would cum in her dirty panties when she went out, so when she came home I would have cum filled panties after she came home while I was in chastity the entire time she was gone, making the fantasy seem more real. As I licked the come out of her panties I imagined her laughing at me and calling me a pussy, and that I was eating the real man's come that just fucked her hard and made her cum multiple times.
"Something you could never do. You and your little clit were made for sissy cleanup duties". Pretend hot wife would say.
I thought if I was made for this, I should go farther. First I bought a dildo, not too big, but one long enough that I could practice deep throating. It took a while and lots of practice to overcome the gag reflex, but I did it. Soon I wanted to increase the length and width, knowing a sissy is supposed to please all "cummers". A new larger dildo was introduced then Practice practice practice. Funny how this larger dildo made my little penis drool, by only sucking it. Again I was pretending my wife was orchestrating all of these duties, knowing soon I might be used by her lover, or some other person they chose for me to service.
Having my mouth and throat trained, I began to think about anal training. The first purchased was a butt plug. Again small to acclimate my sphincters. With this addition not only did I wear my panties and cock cage, I added the butt plug when doing my chores. This was a huge turn on, so I added larger plugs, building up to a "Doc Johnson Red Boy Large"I think I might be a sissy size queen. You never know when your wife will have you service that huge cock.
My wife had no knowledge that her being a bitch, and humiliating me in front of others was feeding my fantasy. The more my real wife degraded me about things the more horny it made me. This pushed my porn reading to include more and more cuckold sissy humiliation. Then I added sissy hypno videos. Always putting my wife in place of the hot wife in the stories. What is it about her that makes me and other men so attracted to her. There are many pretty women, I think it is her confidence and stately look that melts men's minds and hardens their dicks. How was I so lucky to marry her before she realized her power. I think she would need a real alpha to attract her today.
I started working out to improve my sissy body, I started shaving my body, with a landing strip for pubic hair. I learned to do my makeup, including concealer to make my skin look younger especially in my bikini area. I even got a bikini line from tanning in a bikini. My hot wife would insist on all of these things if she truly was a hot wife. My real wife never seemed to notice any changes.
This fantasy was like an addiction, I created more and more scenarios in my mind. I videoed my oral skills and anal talents. I loved seeing my throat enlarge as I would deep throat a dildo. IT took many attempts to show it the way I liked. I had seen this in porn shots and always got off watching. I also love to see pictures of my anus gaping after a session with the large plugs and dildos.
One of the biggest turn on was when I found porn actresses that looked physically like my wife, I would do a screen shot and make sure the face was hidden, or blurred. I then got a burner phone. When my wife was out, I would text myself from the burner phone the pictures I Had Captured and added comments like they were coming from my wife and her lover. Later I added clips with orgasms and sound. I would come so hard.
My wife was planning a long weekend business trip, and I was excited to bring all of the pieces together in my pretend cuckold fantasy. I made sure I had all of the props acquired at the direction of my fantasy hot wife. Bikini and sundress porn clips were found so pretend wife could text from this tropical location. I would also get to improve my makeup skills, bikini tan, and wear sexy clothes and lingerie. My household chores would not be neglected, just done en femme. I would stay in chastity and not touch my clit. It would only be okay to cum from anal. If I achieved this goal I was to capture it and send the video, to my pretend hot wife's burner phone, not forgetting to include me eating my cum.