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Ann and her sister Joan were driving back from their parents' house. John, Ann's husband, usually drove but he had been called into work. Ann smiled at Joan and said, "We should have driven the Miata."
Joan shook her head and said, "And where would we have put all our stuff?"
Ann loved her Miata convertible. She had named the car Mary and it had been her constant companion for 12 years. The car had been a combination 18
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birthday and High School graduation present from her parents. Ann looked at Joan and said, "John and I always got everything to fit."
At the family gathering everyone had asked about John. Ann's Dad was especially disappointed that John had not been able to come. Ann and Joan were two of five daughters, there were no sons for her Dad. And while no one knew who was the favorite daughter. There was no doubt who was his favorite son-in-law. John had called and apologized, promising to visit soon.
John was tall, 6'2", dark, well he did tan nicely, and handsome. He was also smart, loving and funny. He worked at the Fredericksburg, VA distribution center for a multinational company. They have been together since the 9
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grade. John and Ann went to colleges that were 200 miles apart but still stayed together. John always joked they went to separate colleges together.
Ann looked out the passenger window. She remembered all the kids asking for Uncle John. John loved kids and they loved him. He became their favorite playmate at every family gathering.
Joan looked at her sister. She knew something was bothering her. Finally she said, "OK, out with it. What is going on with you?
Ann continued to look out the window. Joan left her alone for a few moments. She told Ann, "You'll feel better sharing whatever is bothering you with someone. You know you can tell me."
Ann dropped her head down and said, "I'm having an affair."
Joan was shocked into silence. When she recovered she asked, "You're cheating on John? Oh God Ann why?
Ann looked up with tears in her eyes and said, "I don't know why?"
Joan reached out to hold her sister's hand. "Tell me everything," she told Ann.
Anne said, "It started six months ago right after the family reunion. He is David Stevens from my office. He had been flirting with me for a couple of years and one day I just said yes."
Joan said, "Is this the same David Stevens I met at one of your cookouts last year? The same David Stevens you warned me to stay away from? The man you called a skirt chasing asshole?"
"Yes," Ann said. "I thought he would be safe. No way could I fall in love with someone like him."
Joan asked, "Have you fallen in love with him?"
Ann shook her head and said, "No, I used to think he was an asshole, now I know he is. I ended it with him Friday at lunch."
Joan looked at her sister, "was this lunch in a hotel room?"
Ann looked at Joan in anger and said, "NO, no it was in a restaurant."
Joan said, "You had sex with him but didn't like him? That makes no sense Ann. I have to ask again why?"
Ann replied, "I think I freaked out when I saw John playing with the kids six months ago. We have been working towards being able to have children of our own. The house is almost paid off. Our cars are paid off. We have no credit card debt. Joan, we have almost 20,000 dollars in a college fund for children that haven't even been born. We had planned to start when we turned thirty. John is thirty now, I'll be thirty in 2 months.
Joan asked, "You don't want children?"
Ann answered, "I always thought I did. But now I'm scared. I scared of becoming a mother. I'm scared of losing us, me and John. I'm scared of losing me, I love my job. I was supposed to go off the pill six months ago."
"Ann does John know all this?" Joan asked. Ann sadly shook her head. Joan asked another question, "You didn't go off the pill?"
Ann quietly said, "At first I didn't want to stop taking them. After I started with David I had to stay on them. I couldn't take the chance of getting pregnant by David."
Joan was angry, "You fucked him without protection! You know his history. How could you do this unprotected?
A crying Ann said, "He doesn't like rubbers. I don't either."
Joan told her sister, "John thinks you have been off the pill for six months. You need to stop this insanity. You need to tell John everything and beg for his forgiveness. He loves you Ann. He can forgive you but only if you are honest with him. You know John, this secret will kill your relationship."
Ann replied, "No Joan, I could never tell him. Do you remember Bob and Carol Wilson?" Joan nodded.
Ann continued," Bob had an affair with someone from work. Carol found out and it has been hell for them ever since. John and I have talked about Bob's infidelity several times. He cannot see how anyone in love could cheat. I've been trying to defend Bob. I have told John that if they truly loved each other they could save their marriage. I told him they could put the pieces back together. This affair might even make their marriage stronger. But Joan I can tell he doesn't see it that way."
Joan had listened to her sister. She realized Ann had just kept digging a deeper hole for herself.
She said to Ann, "Tell me about David Asshole Stevens. I cannot believe sex with him can be but so good."
Ann said, "Sex with David is OK. He is aggressive in bed. With David it's all about quickies but then again we never have much time. John is much better, it's always been wonderful. We would take all day on the weekend to make love. He always takes care of my needs, be it by cock, hands, or tongue. He has a wonderful tongue."
Thinking out loud Ann said, "I've been trying to make David more like John. Why would I do that when I already have John? Unfortunately, John had been becoming more like David in bed. We haven't had an all-day session in a couple of months."
Joan was concerned at this news. She asked, "Ann when did your sex life with John start changing? Was it about the same time you and John started discussing the Wilsons?"
Ann said, "I think so."
Joan replied, "The John I know doesn't like gossip. It sounds to me like John has been trying to get you to stop your affair for three months. And for the past three months you have been defending your affair."
The realization hit Ann, "Oh God, oh God no. He knows. John knows about David."
Ann picked up her cell. She needed to talk to John. She needed to hear his voice. The call went straight to voice mail.
Joan asked, "How did he sound when you talked to him last night?"
Ann realized John hadn't called last night. They always talked before going to bed. Even when they were thousands of miles apart they talked. Ann told Joan, "He didn't call me last night."
Joan said, "Tell me about your last conversion. Did he seem OK?"
Ann answered, "He seemed Ok. We talked about Bob and Carol again. Joan, he said it was too late for them. He said if Bob had confessed maybe there would have been a chance."
Ann continued, "We talked about Mary, my car. He asked me if I would repair her if the windshield cracked. I told him of course I would. Then he asked me if I would repair her if I had a fender bender? I told him yes. Then he asked me if I would repair her if she had been totaled in an accident? I told him no. I remember telling him the car would never be right again. It might look new but would never ride the same again. He told me Bob had totaled their marriage."
Ann cried out, "How could I not have understood what he was telling me?"
Joan was crying now too. She told Ann, "Pull yourself together. We don't know for sure he knows. But we do know you have to talk to him." Joan pushed down a little harder on the gas pedal.
They pulled into the driveway of Ann's house. The front porch light was on but John's SUV wasn't there. Ann cried, "He's not here."
Joan replied, "He could have parked in the garage. Open the garage door."
Ann knew his car wouldn't be in the garage. Their two car garage was reserved for her Miata and his 1988 BMW 325C convertible. She used her phone to open the garage door.
The two women looked at the almost empty garage. John's convertible was not in the garage. Ann's Miata was gone but there was something in its place. A four foot by four foot block of twisted red metal sat where the Miata had been parked. On top of the block was a large manila envelope. Ann knew the contents, she had prepared many of these notices at her job. On top of the envelope was a metal emblem that read" Mary". This emblem had been on the back of her car when they had replaced the Mazda emblem with the Mary emblem several years ago. Hung over the emblem's screws was John's wedding ring. Next to the emblem were her birth control pills.
Ann picked up the final item. It was a handwritten note to her. She read the brief note: