{This story isn't sexual, it is a culmination of events. It is in the loving wives section, because the women involved are truly loving wives. If you are looking for sexual, then time to move on. This story is about truth, and beauty}
To me, it seems odd that just one incident of letting the heat of the moment take over can ruin a marriage, change an entire life.
Trust me when I say it can.
My wife Sharon and I had ended up swapping with our friends Sonny and Lori. I found it to be fun, Sharon did too at the time but it all changed after that.
It wasn't long, we were divorced. After that I wandered from one relationship to another, nothing filled the need in me. Where my wife Sharon was an eager and willing lover, the ones I managed to court into my bed seemed to lay back and expect me to perform.
It took me a long long time to realize that I was completely in love with Sharon. She just made it impossible for me to be with her.
So, completely miserable, I moved on. There was a long period when I didn't even see Sonny and Lori, I missed that too. Those were great days, we all liked the same things.
Stumbling across Lori in the grocery store was a surprise, it was months later when I found out they had waited and set that up, hoping against hope that I would give them the one thing they could not do on their own.
A child.
All they would have had to do was ask, but what they did do was use me in that respect. I remember thinking about that long and hard, it was upsetting in some ways. I felt proud to have produced a fine strapping son, I felt robbed to not be my son's father.
Lori took with the first try, 9 months later a strapping baby boy arrived. A wrinkled up little gob of noise and smells, to be frank. Wonderful stuff! Everyone was telling Sonny how great it was and how the baby looked just like him. He strutted around accepting all of the attention, proud as a Peacock.
I got to visit from time to time, but I kept to the sidelines, the way it had to be. By age two it was obvious to anyone who wasn't blind, little Conrad Ray was my child, not Sonny's.
It seemed everyone on the planet was blind to that.
It would be nice if I could say that I didn't mind the situation, the fact is, I did. When it is your own flesh, your own blood, something changes there.
After that first week, I never touched Lori again while Sonny and she were together. The comment had been made of them wanting two children, but when that fine little boy came along, it seemed to fill up every single minute of every day around there.
I remember one day I was sitting on the couch at their house, thinking nothing of being there. Little Sonny jr was tearing around like always, Lori and I were sipping coffee. Sonny came home from work, saw me on the couch, Lori in the chair.
I saw the dark shadow cross his face, I knew what that meant. I heard from Lori later that they had argued after I left, Sonny was sure we had been messing around.
I suppose, considering the situation, that it was tough to understand that the idea had never crossed either of our minds. I had just wanted to see the child.
My child.
So I began to stay away, a man just can't let his presence mess up a happy family. I was sad about it, but I did what I had to do.