After a very long night of, honest, open, and some what painful discussion, we came to the conclusion that we still belonged together and would marry. I had concerns about being able to please her (imagine that), she had concerns about being pleased with me (humph). Still, love conquers all. As we made love that night she made special effort to waylay my fears. Reassuring me how much she was enjoying it. For my part, I was trying to prove a point. I am just as good in bed as he was. I went down on her through two orgasms, then tried to fuck her senseless, by pounding her into the mattress. Although she did cum again, I doubt it was what she was expecting or wanted.
Afterward, as we lay there, not really speaking, her head on my chest, she toyed with my now defunct dick. I couldn't help thinking she was comparing it to his "monster cock". All those fears came rushing back tenfold. "I'm sorry I'm not very big." She gave my dick a little kiss, then lay beside me. "You're perfect to me, he was just an enjoyable mutant."
The next day I explained to my parents that she just had some issues she needed to work out before committing to marriage. Her parents probably knew the problem, and never asked. Both sets of parents were delighted to find out we were getting married.
The next nine months were quite busy. The wedding plans were a bitch to get through. Registering for gifts, sending out invitations, meeting with all the different people for food music etc. Someone, (Tracy) thought it would be a good idea to get married on Valentines day. I did what I could to keep expenses down, her parents aren't wealthy and had two more children to pay for. They never complained about the costs, and I snuck in a payment when I could.
We also picked out a house. A beautiful home in a very nice neighborhood. Dads money helped us afford a nicer house and still keep the payments low. The furnishings and decorations would come about slowly, but surely.
The wedding went off without a hitch. It was lovely, if I do say so myself. Tracy was the most beautiful bride anyone has ever seen.
The honeymoon... Dad, what a guy, surprised us with a cruise to the Bahamas. When I say cruise, not just any ole cruise. Dad chartered a private yacht. A 125 ft. yacht with a crew of six. We spent two weeks cruising on the bluest, clearest, water you can imagine. Even at 50 feet deep you could see every detail on the bottom. I have no idea how much it cost, probably as much as our new house. It was a dream honeymoon for us both. When we returned, I thought Tracy was going to give Dad a blow job, she was so grateful.
So life was grand. Everything was perfect. New home, new friends in the neighborhood. I was making great money, Tracy got a position at the local community college, and was doing well. Everything was perfect, until the bottom fell out.
We had been married just under two years. To me life was perfect. We had even started talking about having kids. I made plenty of money, so if Tracy was to stop working, we would still be fine.
Tracy was laying across my chest, as usual, after making love. I thought it would be a good time to continue the conversation about kids.
"So when will you get off the pill?" I asked, hoping the answer would be 'soon'. I felt her tense up as if expecting a punch to the stomach.
"Well.. I kind of wanted to talk to you about that. I don't think I'm quite ready just yet."
"What dear? You know we have plenty of savings, and I'm making good money, you could quit work and we will be fine."
"It's not about the money."
"Then what?"
She sat up and looked at me hesitantly. "I think I need more."
"More what?"
"Cock."
"Well, just give me a few more minutes and I will take care of that for you." I said as cheekily as I could.
"That's not what I meant, and you know it." she punched the words almost as hard as she punched me.
I'm sure my expression was as dumbfounded as I felt.
"I want to have another big cock before we decide to have children"
How long had she been thinking about this? What did she think my response would be? Worse.. did she plan to leave me?
"Look, darling, I love you with all my heart. I want to have your children, lots of them. I told you in the beginning that I really like big cock. I haven't had a really big one in 7 years. I think I want one before I start having your babies. Because then I will only be having your cock in me. Who knows when I will have another chance for a big one."
As confused as I was, somehow I couldn't argue with the logic. I still wasn't happy with this new outcome.
"You have apparently been thinking about this for a while. How long?"
"Seven years."
" No. I meant how long have you wanted a bigger cock?"
"Seven years. I knew exactly what you meant, the answer is seven years."
My heart fell. She just, in so many words, told me I haven't pleased her sexually.. EVER!! I am sure I was visibly shaking. I know I nearly passed out.
"Darling, I know how this sounds. I love what you do to me and for me. I appreciate how hard you have tried to please me. If I had never had a big one, you would be only man I ever want.
When I start having babies I probably will get old and fat and never get another chance at a big cock. I have been very strong for seven years and not done anything with anybody else. I have sacrificed my needs so I wouldn't break my wedding vows to you. Now though, I can't see light at the end of that long 'baby' tunnel, so,.. I would like a big cock again, before we have children. Then I will be yours forever and never mention it again."
"Is this a one time thing or what? Are you going to find a big cock and leave me for him?"
"NO! I love you. I just want to try it for a while. I will let you know when I'm ready to give it up and get pregnant. If at anytime you feel it is interfering with us, just say so. I will drop it like a hot rock."
This discussion went well into the night. Suffice to say I relented. I want nothing more in life than to please her and have children with her. We decided to place an ad on a well known "adult website", along with a nude picture of her (no face showing). Although I must admit, taking those pictures was a lot of fun, and when I thought of why I was taking them, I must admit, I chubbed up a bit.
The ad was simple: "Wife wants MONSTER cock. No strings, just sex. Do not reply unless you are truly gifted. Photo proof required." Of course with her pic, we received hundreds of responses. Some were stupid enough to not include a picture. Some were remarkably disgusting. Some were so crude in their messages they were immediately discounted. One was an oil sheik offering to buy Tracy from me. She punched me again when I considered that one too long.
We had several responses from black men. This was something I had not even thought about. When I asked Tracy about it, she said she had no objection to it because she was only interested in their cocks. Large would feel large no matter what color it was. So I asked her about her first "monster" cock. She said he was white. I hadn't even considered he could have been black and she just hadn't mentioned it.
When she looked at their pics most were excluded because they were too "thuggy" as she put it. One used the handle "baby daddy" and included a pic of himself with two white women and five interracial children. Tracy immediately said "No way."
One White guy was near us and seem to be in fair shape. His faceless pic showed a man a few years older than us, with what had to be the biggest cock I have ever seen. From his response, he seemed intelligent and level headed and most importantly, not creepy. I sent him a reply even before Tracy viewed his response. She was quite interested, so I told her that I had already e-mailed him, and we were having coffee with him in and hour. She said she wasn't ready to meet him yet, that I should go alone and check him out.
So I went. We had agreed to meet in the covered outside seating area of a local Starbucks. When I arrived, there was a lone man sitting at the table farthest from the door. I approached him and said "John?", that is the handle he used on the website. He stood and nervously held out his hand.