As I said previously, years ago I never would have imagined I would think this way or desire to see you in such a situation. But we only live once, and I think it would be something really fun and super sexy to try out.
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Jamie then said to me, "
One thing I do not want is to feel pressured into doing something with which I am not comfortable. When you talk about it, I feel pressured.
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I then said to Jamie, "
I do not want you in any way to feel pressured. I am only sharing a fantasy of mine. If it is something that happens, great. If it never happens, then so be it. Do I want it to happen, and would it be really hot for me? Of course it would! But ONLY if it was something you were into and wanted for yourself. Therefore, I cannot 'pressure' you into doing this and having it become a fulfilling fantasy for me. There is no thrill for me unless this is completely voluntary with full desire and curiosity from both of us, especially you. There is no thrill in this if you feel compelled to comply with something I desire in this area. It has to originate with your desire, which I know in the past you have had because you told me. Is it there today and repressed? Maybe. Maybe not. Only you can answer that question and I have to take your word for it. If it is something that never happens, oh well. You might not believe me but that is the truth. I have nothing to hide at this point. All I can say is that if someday you came to me and told me you really had a huge desire to have a particular sexual experience with other men, I would not likely say no so long as I could be there with you to see you really get into it.
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Jamie took in what I said, and then told me, "
That almost sounds wrong. Are you sure you are not wanting to sleep with someone else or cheating on me?
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I replied, "
That is not it at all. Instead, it is like you and I going to an amusement park. Sometimes we ride the rides together and we have a wonderful time when it is over laughing and excited at the thrills we just experienced. We hold hands and then go enjoy the next ride or get back in line for another turn on the same one. Sometimes I do not want to go on a ride, but I am okay if you go on it by yourself and I watch the looks on your face from the ground. I love watching you experience those thrills! And then I love it even more when you get off the ride and tell me how great it was, while we hold hands and go on to our next experience together."
I continued, "
The only difference is that instead of a roller coaster, the thrill ride is a sexual playground of hot men. I can think of nobody I would rather see experience that thrill than you, my wife, the woman I love the most in this world.
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I then added, "
And think about it. There is no conceivable way I can give you these thrills by myself. There is no way by myself I can give you the experience of being seduced by five gorgeous men at once, all desiring you and wanting to please you sexually and putting you at the center of attention. There is no way I can give you the experience of an unusually thicker or larger cock than what I have to offer. Sometimes connections with other men are different than that with me. You might find a feature of other men more thrilling than one you find in me, and you want to explore it. I fully understand that you married me for the entire package of who I am. But I am not so arrogant to believe that I have 100% of everything that you could ever want in a man, physically or emotionally, yet I love you so much that I want you to have everything, even if it cannot come from me. Does that make sense?
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Jamie then asked me, "
What would you do if I found someone I liked even better than you, and entertained thoughts that I might want to be with them more? What if they were overall better looking, they made more money, had nicer things, bought me nicer stuff, were even nicer in the way they treated me, and performed better in bed? What if I fell in love with them?
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I replied to Jamie, "
I suppose that is a risk. But I have one thing they do not. I have a 25-year history with you, and our relationship is nothing short of excellent. If our relationship were in peril, I would not even suggest this. I would not feel safe. The one thing I absolutely have to feel in this type of thing is that our relationship is completely safe, that at the end of the ride you always come back and hold my hand and we are completely open and trusting with each other, reaffirming our commitment to each other. If I cannot feel that way, that our relationship with each other is #1 and safe, then this cannot happen. If you have doubts about that then we should talk about those. I do recognize that women are not like men, in that there does have to be some kind of connection for you to enjoy being with them sexually. But I really do not see it being the same as a 25-year history that you can just throw away cause someone new and flashy comes along, especially if that someone has a personal issue you might not know about.
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Jamie threw in another concerning objection, "
Aren't you worried about diseases? Do you not care about me enough if I contracted something with no cure and pass it on to you?
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I replied,
"Again, a valid concern and risk. But I am not talking about having a fling with every high-risk individual out there. I am talking about a select responsible few, and who knows for how long. Could be just one time and we are over it. If I know you well enough, you will have to feel attracted and comfortable with someone to genuinely enjoy them this way, and it would be someone you and I like being around. Not a one-time thing. Also, they would have to know they would never have a permanent relationship with you to replace us. They are the third wheel, and we are all in it for the thrill ride doing our best to make the experience better and more pleasurable for all. That is not a committed relationship like we have with each other. And just like when we were single and dating, there are ways to protect ourselves from the risks. It does not mean we avoid the risks. Instead, we manage them, just like we did when we were dating. And if disease were as rampant as the worriers would have you believe, every swinger on this planet would already be dead or shriveled looking like a person with leprosy. That is not the case. I am suggesting that if this is something we pursue, that we be cautious and prudent about who we get involved with and stay with the same persons while continuing the use of protection."
Jamie then said to me,
"Well do not get your hopes up and do not pressure me. I just do not see it ever happening."
Since those talks, our sex life was incredible. I had not brought any of this up with Jamie, but I believed that old fantasies in her head had been revived a bit, even though she denied it. When we had sex, she had been horny and super wet, like something in her was awakened! Was her denial of desire "society" talking, with her telling me what she was "supposed" to be telling me about good wives not doing this sort of thing and not entertaining those thoughts? Her body was speaking louder than her words, and that was super exciting making me rock hard whenever I was around her. The desire her body revealed was the biggest turn on!
But the part of Jamie I wanted to come out the most was this hidden slut within. I wanted her to strip away the faΓ§ade of properness and reveal that carnal part of her that our society tells her she should never reveal. I had enough of her being lady-like, especially with me, her husband. I wanted to see the desirous carnal slutty whore in her, with her knowing full well I wanted it and she fully accepting of that part of herself.
Even today, there are times I do not want the lady. I want the carnal woman who could let go of all the rules while hungering for male attention and a ravishing and desirable sexually erotic experience, like those women watching the male revue. I want her to say what is on her mind assertively and wantonly, so she can fully have what she deserves in fulfilling her insatiable sexual appetite. I want her to scream in ecstasy and unbearable pleasure. And I want her to crave it repeatedly.
I did not care how she got it, but I wanted her to have it all. This was the woman I love most in this world, and I wanted her to have the best of everything, including the best orgasms that blew her mind, rolled her eyes, and curled her toes. And mostly, I wanted her to share all of this with me, letting me know and reassuring me that I was her one soul mate. It was her thrill ride, and I want to see her enjoy the thrills to the fullest.
Months had passed and we were on a vacation at a tropical resort. Jamie wanted to take her bikini top off in the public adults-only pool while hugging me, fully revealing her beautiful tits for all to see. I immediately got hard under my swim trunks imagining her exposed like this and loving the pool-side male attention she would have garnered! If this had been a clothing-optional resort, I would have welcomed the gesture without hesitation. Unfortunately, this was against the resort rules. But I was genuinely excited to see her want to throw away society's rules and do something out of the ordinary, to feel comfortable in her own skin flirting not only with me, but with all the other young men around the pool. Our next vacation is set to involve a clothing-optional section where Jamie can strip naked absorbing the desirous attention of all the men around her. Having all that attention can be a real confidence booster, and will no doubt excite me in ways she cannot imagine!