I have to admit now that I always viewed Olivia as a sex object. Sure, it didn't hurt that she was smart and giggled at my jokes. She was class president and valedictorian in high school, and was a math major at her fancy women's college. But I wouldn't have pursued her for all those years if that's all she had. It was her head-turning beauty that propelled my obsessive pursuit of her. I could tell that her preppy buttoned-up exterior was hiding a deeply sensual woman. At least that's what I imagined.
The first clue was that time I saw her at an evening event with her dark-skinned, essentially black, boyfriend. I had only seen her wearing her conservative school uniform or her field hockey kilt during the day. Now, in the evening, she was presenting a different image to the world standing in a dress and high heels and daring to be with a boy most white girls would be afraid to date. She didn't talk to him and didn't even appear interested in him. She gave me the impression that she knew all the guys were looking at her and was telling us, "Look at me. I don't care what you think. I'm the best student in this school and now you know I'm the sexiest too."
Then there were the juicy rumors. I heard stories of her getting wild at parties. The word was she got naked in a bathtub with a boy who wasn't her boyfriend, gave another a blowjob in a car, and had one-night stands with a couple of others. I knew the source of the stories wasn't reliable, and he even claimed he had fucked her, which was a complete lie, but the stories excited me. I pictured her naked in the bathtub while a boy fondled her wet tits (her tits were a perfect size C in those days). I imagined her sucking me off. I fantasized about her deeply kissing and fucking me. Masturbating as I fantasized about her became a frequent pastime. Despite the obvious lack of veracity of these tales, they served to enormously fuel my fledgling desire to have her for myself.