This is part 3 in a series, the first two of which are "My Wife, Our Stories, Her Boss" and "My Wife, Her Boss, His Desk."
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stories, please stop reading now. I and loads of other readers look to the
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precisely
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---- Reaching Conclusions ----
If you've been following my story so far you know that I was now getting a little confused about what was really going on between my wife, Amanda, and her boss, Eric . . . I knew she desired him, I think I knew he desired her, and I knew she enjoyed telling me stories that were inspired by the fantasies she had had during the day. But I was having a more difficult time guessing where the line between fiction and fact was, and Amanda was extremely coy on this point. To be fair, she knew that this got me off, so I don't think she was
purposefully
lying to me or anything like that. I think she just knew it did more for both of us to keep the line between fiction and fact a little hazy.
So, the previous night (as I recounted in "My Wife, Her Boss, His Desk"), Amanda had told me a story of Eric finding her in his office and, to make a long story short, fucking her (yes there were a few intermediate steps, but those interested in these can return to that story-I need to nudge the narrative forward a bit here!).
I was pretty sure that he hadn't actually made love to her, but the details of Amanda's story left me guessing. If it had all stopped short of sex, as I was sure it had, just
how
much shorter did it stop?
As she left the room that night she had taken her teasing to a new level, telling me to jerk myself off as I thought through everything that she had said. Telling me to decide for
myself
where I wanted to draw the line.
And the results of my exploration were confusing.
On the one hand, I was furious with jealousy, and wanted to know precisely what was true and what wasn't.
Surely
he hadn't fucked her, but had she sucked his cock? No. Impossible. Or was it?
Had she kissed him at least? Of that much I was becoming increasingly sure . . .
On the other hand, as I thought through each part of her story, there wasn't a single part that didn't turn me on. And I mean
really
turn me on. As I searched my feelings for something that crosses a real line for me . . . something along the line between kissing and fucking that was too much, some action of hers or his that no longer seemed erotic but rather painful to the point of being a turn off . . . well . . . I just couldn't find that line.
It drove me crazy with jealousy; it drove me crazy with desire.
And, in the end, I realized that I wanted it
all
to be true. Every bit. Her flirting with him. Her kissing him. Eric holding her, tearing open her blouse. Penetrating her, making her come. I wanted all of it to be true. And if it wasn't true yet, I wanted it to become so.
---- To Tell the Truth ----
All night I tried to figure out how I would tell Amanda this. Of course she had
asked
me to think about what I wanted, and to tell her. But I still wasn't quite sure that she would be expecting me to come to the conclusion I'd come to.
When she awoke in our bed I had been awake for a while.
"Good morning, sweetie," she said. "Did you have a good night?"
"An interesting one." I responded.
"Oh? Go on . . . "
"I spent the night thinking about your story, and your question."
"What question was that?" She asked coyly, I think just to get me to repeat it myself.
"Well, you asked me to think a bit about where I wanted the line between fact and fiction to be. To think about which elements I wished were true, and which I wished were false."
She smiled and kissed me. "Go on . . . "
"Well, Amanda . . . this isn't easy to say. But I think I want all of it."
She looked a little shocked.
"You're not upset, are you?"
"No-just surprised-I think you need to explain yourself a little bit more." she asked, clearly a little disoriented, at least initially, by what I'd said.
"Amanda, I sat up half the night recounting the details of what you said . . . and while, I'm not going to lie, a bunch of it makes me insanely jealous-even sick to my stomach at points, I have to admit that I also find every last bit of it intensely exciting. Sweet." I paused for a second-this was really going to change everything. Our marriage. My life. Hers. But I couldn't stop. "Amanda, I think I want it. I think I want all of it."
"This is serious, John-you need to really spell this out for me so that there is no confusion. I don't want to hurt you, and want to make sure both of us understand what you're asking."
"I agree, Amanda. Again, none of this is easy to talk about, all the words seem a little crude or vulgar the second they come out of my mouth. But I think I want you to have a relationship with Eric."
"We already have a relationship, John, every employee has some sort of relationship with his or her boss. You need to be more explicit. What
kind
of relationship are you suggesting I pursue? A romantic relationship? A sexual relationship?"
"Yes."
"Yes what? John-I'm serious-you need to spell this out. I need you to be explicit. Tell me."
"What I want is for our love-the love between you and me to grow, and remain central. But as you've explored these fantasies about Eric with me it's clear that you have sexual desires that extend beyond our marriage . . . at least beyond our initial marriage vows. And I suppose I'd like us to revisit those vows and come up with something that works for both of us now. Something that lets the two of us grow closer, but also allows us to explore new desires."
She slowly looked me up and down, perhaps wondering if this was a trick intended to get her to admit to something beyond what she had admitted last night.
"I couldn't be more serious about this, Amanda. I want us to explore everything we desire-everything you desire. I'm scared, of course. I worry at times I won't be able to handle it. But I think I've realized now that if we don't explore this thing . . . that both of us are going to regret it."
Amanda looked at me, still trying to process what I was saying, but I could tell that she didn't want me to stop. That I was saying things she found interesting, exciting, desirable. "Go on . . . " she said.
"I'm hopeful that we can start slow, and that you can check in with me as things develop." I said.
"You mean by discussing everything before I do it?"
"Well-yes-as much as possible. I just want to make sure we don't accidentally cross any lines without meaning to do so." I said.
Amanda stood up and walked towards me, and without saying a word gave me the warmest hug I could remember getting. "I love you so much, John."
"I love you too, Amanda."
It was if some secret knowledge or agreement, something way beyond any words we'd said had passed between us. In that moment our relationship-
our marriage
-had changed. When our embrace ended and we stepped back from each other and I looked into her eyes, something was different. I was still just as much in love we her, and she seemed in love with me. But there was an independence and a mystery in her now. Something I couldn't quite process, and certainly something I couldn't control.
I think that both of us were caught in a tangle excitement, fear, regret, desire, confusion-you name it. But what I definitely can say is that there was a new honesty between us. And a vulnerability or nakedness. She was seeing all my desires, as perverse as they may be, and I was seeing hers. And we were saying yes.
It was almost like a second wedding. At the first I took her to be my wife and she took me to be her husband, but we hadn't the faintest idea of what this might involve, and, now, in retrospect, we each had a relatively limited sense of what a husband and wife were, what they'd do with each other . . . certainly what they could do with others. Now we were saying yes to something richer and stranger than anything we could have imagined as twenty-somethings.
It was definitely going to be a new chapter in our lives.
---- Negotiations ----
The rest of the day we let the subject be. We both knew that more needed to be said, but for most of the day neither one of us wanted to start the conversation. It was once we were in bed that night, Amanda's head resting on my chest, that we both knew the time had come to say a little more.