Just a little tale of misunderstanding and trust...I'm afraid you'll find very little sex in this one.
muirmadra
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Lindsey and Rob and...
God, he was such an asshole at times! I stood in the door frame of our den watching as he slaved over another project from his work. He's been burning the candle at both ends for months now resulting in a severely unhappy side-effect, a very lonely and very angry young wife.
Rob, short for Robert, is a gifted architect for a high end design and development company, Myerson and Gafferty Development. He started working for them two years ago and has been taking on project after project after project. At first, I understood the necessity to impress the boss's. Rob and I discussed his future with the company and we both agreed he would have to put in some long hours and hard work to better his position with the firm. Rob figured it would probably take him a couple of years to achieve his goals and maybe be able to back off and spend quality time with his wife, me...Lindsey. And, so far, it seemed to be paying off.
Rob has already made a name for himself, not only in the company, but in the architectural and design field as well. Unknown to both of us, other like-businesses have submitted bids for architectural design work to Myerson and Gafferty asking specifically for Robert Dolan. Myerson and Gafferty were only too happy in accepting the bids and assigning the work to Rob but they failed to tell him it was for another firm. Some of these firms had made offers directly to Rob but, out of loyalty to Myerson and Gafferty, he turned them down. I wasn't so sure about his refusals.
Now, I was sure. For the past three months, Rob has virtually put me on the back-burner and I was pissed. I knew it would be hard but I didn't expect to be ignored completely.
Looking at him bent over the designs, I said, "Rob, why don't you put that to rest for now and come to bed?"
Without turning, he replied, "Can't Lin...I need to get these designs corrected by morning. Myerson's expecting them by tomorrow."
"How much longer before you go to bed?"
"Um...don't know. Guess until it's done."
"God damn it, Rob...how long?" I didn't mean to shout but his ambiguity struck a nerve.
This time he did turn. "What?"
"You heard me! How long before you finish with that and come to bed, the bed you're supposed to share with your wife. You know, the woman you married."
His face was priceless. You'd think I'd killed his favorite dog or something.
"Lindsey, what's going on?"
"No! No, Rob...it's not what's going on. It's what is not going on! We're not going on, that's what! When was the last time you held me, kissed me? For that matter, when was the last time we made love? Come on Rob, when was the last time you fucked me?"
Shocked, he whispered, "Fucked you? Lindsey, what the hell is wrong with you? You knew from the beginning this was going to be hard for us. Now, that we're almost there, now you want me to just drop everything, forget all that I've done for us? I admit, the last couple of months have been the worst but I promise you, it's almost over. Please honey, don't do this."
I should have listened to him, sweet Jesus I wish I had listened to him...but I was on a roll now, all the bitterness, the anger and the loneliness swelled beyond my control creating the St. Helens of resentment.
"Bull shit, Rob. You've been dangling that carrot way too long. I'm giving you a choice, me or those fucking sheets of paper on your desk!"
I could see the emotions playing across his face. Confusion and hurt mixed with surprise and anger finally settling into frustration. "Lindsey, you're right...I...I haven't given you the time you deserve but please understand, this needs to be completed by morning. It's extremely important to me, to us," he implored but his pleading fell on deaf ears.
"Fine," I angrily replied and spun around stomping toward the bedroom. Even I winced when the door slammed shut but, by then, my eyes had watered up and I burst into tears. I locked the door and fell upon the bed, sobbing.
Moments later, a light knocking came at the door. "Lin, can I come in...please?"
His voice sounded so pitiful, so upset but I didn't answer.
He knocked again and said, "Please Lin, let me in."
Again, I refused to answer, the bitterness controlling my judgment. After a few seconds, I heard him walk away. I wiped my eyes and wondered why I wouldn't let him in. Was I that angry? He probably went back to his work anyway.
The tears eventually dried up but that didn't keep me from being despondent. I was angry, bitter and lonely...and horny. And, my loving husband acted as if he didn't have a fucking clue...or...didn't care. Well, he's going to care and he won't be happy! I reached for the phone.
"Hello?"
I heard Suzie's voice wondering who would be calling at this time of the evening.
"Hey, Suzie girl, what are you doing?"
"Lindsey? What's up? You know what time it is?"
"Yeah, hey...what are doing tomorrow night?"
"Uh...nothing planned, why?"
"Oh, just thought maybe we could hit the Boogie and have some fun, just cut loose."
"Lin, what's wrong?"
"Nothing, Rob's been working on a project for awhile and I just need to get out."
"Did you guys have a fight or something?"
"Kinda...what do you say?"
"Okay, girlfriend. You want me to come get you?"