Happy Birthday to Me – Chapter Five
Ten minutes past midnight
Leaning out of the window to see the dim light outside
Lost quiet rainy night kisses passersby
Once you whispered in the rain:
Happy birthday my loved one
Ten Minutes Past Midnight, Sally Yip
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"Penny for your thoughts?" David's voice jerked me back to awareness.
"Huh?" I jumped. I'd been sitting at my workstation in a golden daze, looking at the words and the numbers on my monitor, not seeing them at all. What I was seeing was something completely different. Me. In bed. With Kam fucking me from behind and Jim's cock fucking my boobs. I felt totally confused. How could I have done that? How could I have let another man use my boobs like that and then cum on me while my husband fucked me. Not to mention what had happened after that, with Kam and Jim feeding me their cum. My mouth flooded with saliva at the memory.
Why, now, when I should feel ashamed and embarrassed and even guilty, did I feel none of those things? Why did the memory of those all too recent acts instead excite me? Leave me glowing? Why had it excited my husband so much to see another man doing that to me? Why had I taken Jim's cock in my hand and stroked him? I'd only ever touched my husband's cock before. Sitting there, I could still remember how Jim's cock felt clasped in my fingers. Hot and rigidly hard, the silky skin, the sheer size of him. The memory of holding him while my husband fucked me took my breath away. Why had my husband permitted that to happen? Why had I?
Permit? There was no permission. Not from me.
My husband had asked Jim to do that. He'd outright told Jim to fuck my boobs and cum on me. And when Jim had asked me, I'd meekly said yes. Yes? I hadn't just said yes and let him do it, I'd actively participated. I'd held my boobs for him to fuck. I'd actually squeezed his cock with my boobs while he rubbed himself against me. I couldn't believe I'd done that. Me? Isabelle. I'd done that and I still found that hard to believe. Not only that, I'd stroked his cock with my hand. Nobody had asked me to do that either, nobody had told me to. I'd done that myself. That it had excited my husband was immaterial. It had been my choice and mine alone to do that, to take his cock in my hand and hold him, stroke him. Why? Why had I done that? Why was it so exciting? Exciting enough that even now, my nipples were swollen hard and I was wet again just from thinking about it.
I was married. I knew I should feel guilty and ashamed that I'd allowed another man to see my body naked, to caress me and touch me, to do what Jim had done to me. That Fan and I had more or less intended something similar to what had happened last evening was irrelevant. I shouldn't ever have considered anything like that. That my husband, Kam, had been the instigator shouldn't make any difference to the way I felt either. None. A good girl didn't do things like that.
Fan did, I knew. But by no stretch of the imagination could Fan possibly be considered a good girl. Fan was a bad girl by anyone's standards. A very bad girl by my standards. Not only that, she wasn't married. She'd never promised to be faithful to anyone. Not like me. I had, so what about me? What did that make me? I didn't feel bad. I didn't feel ashamed or embarrassed or guilty. Not at all, even as I thought about last night and this morning.
No, I wasn't any of those things. But I was excited. Very very excited.
So what did that make me? Was I really a bad girl too?
I felt so confused.
I knew I wasn't like Fan. For a start, I loved my husband and I was totally faithful to him. I'd never even fantasized about doing anything with another man. I'd never been tempted even. Not at all. Not ever. I mean, David's interest in me amused me, entertained me, but I'd never thought of David like that. I'd never ever looked at another man and been curious, let alone tempted. But last night and this morning I'd shamelessly displayed myself before both Fan and another man, a man I'd only just met. I'd let Jim run his hands over my body, kiss me, touch me. Touch me where nobody but my husband had ever touched me. I'd had sex with my husband while Jim and Fan had watched me and I'd watched them.
Not just watched. I'd held Jim's cock in my hand. I'd stroked his cock. I'd held my boobs as his cock used them. Jim had cum all over me. Not just cum all over me either. I'd swallowed his cum. His and my husband's. My husband had fed Jim's cum to me and then fucked me and I'd loved every moment of it. I'd had the best orgasm I'd ever felt, the first orgasms I'd ever had while I was being fucked. I wanted to feel that pleasure again. Badly. I found myself squirming on my seat, wet, hot, wanting my husband badly. I still felt a little sore from last night and this morning. But that soreness was nothing, just a slight ache that said I'd been used well by my husband. I liked that feeling. A lot.
"Earth to Isabelle."
"Huh." David was looking at me, laughing. I hadn't even noticed him standing there. I had to smile back. I blushed as well.
"Why don't you take a long lunch Isabelle," David was smiling, "its quiet today, take it easy, go shopping or something."
"Okay, you know what, I will. Thanks David."
"Grab me for a coffee when you get back."