I woke up with a pain in the neck. Sleeping on the couch was uncomfortable for me. The pain was quite intense in the beginning, but of late, I was getting used to it. 'Am I becoming a cuck?' I wondered. I went to the kitchen and made myself some coffee. I breathed in the aroma of the coffee as I sat and drank my drink. I grabbed my phone, and sent a text to Bella, asking her a convenient time to meet her. I was aware that I was supposed to prepare coffee for Kate, my wife, and Derry, but my ego kicked in. I dressed up and left for work.
It was Sunday but I had asked Samuel, my manager, for letting me work on weekends too. He reluctantly agreed. So I had the entire office for myself. I was aware that I spent more time away from home and I think even Kate noticed it.
Later during the day, I received a call from my wife. I inferred that she wanted to talk to me about last night. So I picked up the call.
"Honey, where are you?" Kate asked with suspicion in her voice.
"I am in the office, Kate," I replied.
"But, it's Sunday. I never knew that you worked on Sundays too."
"Well, it's a part of the promotion, Kate."
"Okay ... But come home soon. I will be waiting."
I paused for a moment. I realized that, if I went back home, I would have to face some humiliation and the scene of watching my wife getting fucked by her lover. My anger got the better of me.
"Ah... about that. I might not come home tonight. I've got a bit of work pending. So I will come home tomorrow."
"Noel. You didn't tell me this," she answered. I could sense that she was shocked by this news.
"I wanted to but I didn't get an opportunity to talk to you last night. Sorry about that."
"Oh... Okay. I will see if I can drop in later," she replied.
"It's okay, Kate. You and Derry can spend some more time together. I'll manage by myself."
There was a long pause. Did I let my anger get the better of me?
Without wasting a moment, I added, "But if it is no trouble, you and Sarah can drop by. We can have lunch together."
"Oh... I will ask Derry and see what he says."
The moment she spoke about Derry made my blood boil. Does she not even care about us anymore?
"Okay, Kate. Whatever makes you happy."
I think Kate sensed my dejection. She immediately replied, "Don't worry, Noel. I will drop in with Sarah later."
"Thanks, Kate. I would love to spend some time together. Just we three as a family."
"Sure, honey. I look forward to meeting you later."
We ended the call. I sat in front of the computer thinking about my wife and my daughter. The other day I was contemplating a divorce, but now, for a moment, when I thought about us as a family, I began giving it a second thought.
In the afternoon, Kate and Sarah, my daughter, had arrived. We decided to go to the nearest restaurant. We walked in and placed our order. I felt happy for a moment to see Sarah and Kate together. Sarah sat next to me. The entire time, she told me how she and my mom had fun together. I smiled at her and placed a kiss on her forehead. In return, she gave me a tight hug. All this time, I had forgotten about the problem that was plaguing our lives. My focus was on my wife and my daughter: my world!
We had our meals and made our way to the office. I got out of the car and Kate accompanied me to the office door.
"Thank you, Kate. I had a good time. Sorry about you and Derry not getting to spend time together."
"Noel! I am your wife. You may not be good in bed, but you are a good husband. I appreciate that," she said as if she was trying to console me.
Again, it was a stab in my chest. Fuck. What does Derry have that I don't? a question she had refused to answer me.
"I understand," I replied trying to maintain my calm.
With that, she gave me a kiss and got in the car. I saw my daughter waving at me and I waved back. Kate smiled at me while I gave a short nod. I felt sad and lonely. I knew that she would drop Sarah at my mom's place and get back home with her lover. With the sentiments of loss, I made my way into the building.
I resumed my work and began to browse through the financial records of the branch. I was about to be promoted to the position of the regional manager - a position I always longed for. But now, even with the promotion at hand, I was unhappy.
The phone call broke my train of thoughts. It was from Bella.
"Cathy is here. Are you coming or not?"
"I am at work. I will leave in twenty minutes," I replied.
"Fuck you! I want you here in fifteen minutes," she commanded and hung up.
I sighed.
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I made my way down to the parking lot and got in my car. I drove to Bella's house. The entire time, I had Kate and Derry on my mind. As I approached the house, I tried to clear my mind of these disturbing thoughts. I made my way to the door and rang the doorbell.
"Get in, Noel. It's open!" Bella shouted from inside.
As I entered in I saw Bella sitting on the couch. I looked around to locate Cathy. Bella noticed the confusion on my face.
"Nah. She hasn't arrived."
"Why did you..."
"Yea. I wanted to speak to you about something," she spoke cutting me short. "Don't just stand there. Get your ass on this couch."
I made my way to the couch and sat beside her. There was a strange excitement in my heart. I felt a sense of warm air within my chest. What is this feeling? Am I falling in love with Bella?
"I want to tell you something before that lady gets here," she spoke, looking intently at my face. The warm feeling inside my body increased.
"See, Noel. There is a reason why Kate finds Derry attractive. Derry is a rough guy and he gets what he wants. I think Kate likes his dirty talk. Secondly, Derry has a dominating personality. He has an ego. That is why your wife loves that cocky bastard. I bet you are always gentle with Kate during sex. Well, that is exactly what is missing in you."
It took a while to comprehend what Bella said. I was even more confused. I was under the impression that women like passionate love. Being aggressive during sex and dominating a woman was something I never thought of.
"But Bels, won't I offend Kate if I behave aggressively?" I asked feeling totally confused
"Oh... how do I explain this? See, you are a gentleman. As a woman, I find it attractive. But you also need to have aggressive behaviour. In bed, you definitely need to be aggressive."
"Okay? I think I know what you mean. When I first saw Kate giving a blowjob to Derry, I remembered that bastard talking dirty to my wife," I answered.