This story started as a light entertaining piece with a few quips thrown in for good measure. It morphed into a darker saga as I went along.
Many have said it was unfinished, I did intend for the reader to make up their own conclusion on the ending, did he, didn't he?
But this works out well for Marty, for once.
I really would urge you read part 1 and 2 before you read on.
From Part 02
(The last thing I saw was Marie crumpled on the kitchen floor wailing as I walked out of the house.
So here I am sitting in a lukewarm bath in a strange house, my arm is trembling with a blade in my hand contemplating my life past and possible future.
My world has crashed. I love my kids I do not want to leave them. I still love my wife but is it enough.
I don't want a divorce, but I don't want to go back. I cannot see any possible way out of this.
I have been in this bath crying like a baby for two hours now. Am I brave enough to take the cowards way out?)
Part 03.
I was trembling, tears flooded my eyes and the water had become so cold it was uncomfortable. I had been in the bath hours now and the blade was still on the side. It seemed the cowards way out took far more courage than I had anticipated.
The picture of my children, staring at me balanced on the taps fell into the water hitting my feet. I quickly retrieved it from the icy bath before too much damage befell it.
As I reached for a towel to dry the glass a stupid thought struck me. Here I am trying to save a picture of my children while trying to kill myself, if I would never see them again, what was the point in saving a photo?
I stepped from the icy cold water, shivering. I wrapped myself in a warm towel and sat on my bed staring at the picture of happier times.
The phone that was sat beside me burst into life, it was Paul,
"Hi Martin mate, how are you coping? Sorry but I will need you out of the flat by Tuesday of next week ok. My boss has leased it, I will send in cleaners on Monday. Sorry I can't let you stay there longer but I promise, I will look for something, ok."
"Fuck!"
"I am sorry, but you knew it was only for a few days."
I could hear it in my weary voice, it was starting to crack on me. I had to finish the call quick before I became too emotional.
"I know, its, its, ok Paul. Thanks for helping out the way you have, I appreciate it really. I cannot go home right now though, I do need somewhere."
"I'll help if I can mate, ok."
I clicked the phone off and sat in silence, I sighed thinking what the fuck do I do now?
I scrolled through my phone to see happy times and pictures of my children with Marie, what on earth had gone wrong. Why had she looked elsewhere, I was a good man. I was not rich, but I provided what I could, and I loved her beyond words. As stupid as it sounds, even after what she has done to me and our family, I still do.
The pictures and the chat with Paul had bought me to my senses a little and I made a cup of tea, putting some bread in the toaster. I finished my toast, but I could feel a headache coming on. I went to the bathroom medicine cabinet, the cold bathwater looked so uninviting, and the blade was still sitting there waiting to be used. How stupid I had been to even think of doing it.
I pulled the plug and let out the water. I thought about what to do next, I was lost and felt completely drained.
I dossed about, cleaned up the flat a little until I decided to ring Jenny.
"Jen, its Martin. Can we meet?"
"Hi Martin, yes, where, when?"
"Say, in two hours? Mc Donald's in town. Suit you?"
"Yes, see you soon."
I was sitting in a booth as she entered, I stood and waved her over. I had pre ordered her a latte and it was sitting waiting for her.
"Do you want food Jen?"
"No, I'm fine thanks." She said, "What are you going to do, have you decided?"
I shrugged my shoulders,
"I have no idea at the minute, I hate what they have done to us. Call me pathetic but I still love her, and I can't lose my kids, I love my kids. Are you still going for divorce?"
"You bet your fucking life I am. How can you still love someone that has screwed you like she has? She has fucked him at every opportunity for over a year! Martin, come on love, get real!"
We drank our coffees exchanging notes about the last year. It transpired that Jen had found that they had been seeing each other while we were both at work. Usually in my house as the girls were at nursery school while I was at work doing long hours.
They met on Thursday evenings at the Gym, she then came home to me. Most Thursdays she would make love to me when she came home, was it from guilt, or was it a kinky perversion?
"Shit!" the thought struck me as Jen told me,
"Was she still full of him? Fuck! Fuck! I had gone down on her sometimes after her bingo nights!"
"Oh, shit Martin, I am sorry. Honesty you cannot still have feelings for her, can you?"
I sat there feeling sick, she had fed me lies for over a year, she had fed me false love for over a year. Now it looks like she had fed me semen from her lover for over a year too. I sat and rocked with my head in my hands, Jen reached over the table taking my hands in hers.
"Jen, put me in touch with your lawyer."
We left it at that for now and went our separate ways, I went back to my lonely flat. The emotions now were mainly anger, over the upset to my life that Marie had caused. My feelings of helplessness and distress were overcome by sheer disgust and hate towards her.
"Ping!" A text message from Jen, she gave the details of her solicitors and an invitation to go there tomorrow with her if I wanted to. I texted back yes; I would pick her up at 10am in the morning.
The solicitor was a help, but she gave me bad news. I would get 50% of the savings "If" I was lucky. I would have to pay for lawyers, the upkeep of the house, pay the mortgage, bills, etc. Basically, everything that I had been paying for all of our marriage.
I would need to find a place to live and pay for my own upkeep on top of this, I could hardly afford to pay for our lives while I lived there!
"What the fuck did I do to deserve this!"
I couldn't afford to divorce her.
Somehow Marie had gotten wind of me seeing a solicitor, I was bombarded with phone and text messages begging to talk. I ignored them, I really didn't want anything to do with her at that moment. I needed to figure a way out of the mess she had created for me.
The weekend came and went, Paul rang Sunday night asking if I could move out first thing Monday. I didn't want to, but I felt obligated to. I had to go to my parents, it was my last option.
My dad was sympathetic to my situation, but mum couldn't understand why I couldn't see my way to just talk with Marie. Mum saw her and the kids two or three times a week, after all they were her grandchildren. The problem was, Marie was giving mum what she wanted mum to know. This was causing me problems with my mum. she would not let things rest.
In the end I had to tell them the whole sordid truth of it, that she had carried on an affair for over a year. She had conned me into a holiday paid for by her lover. In their stupid minds they thought we would all get together on a sexy week away and their affair could come out into the open. It backfired big time.