"But why did you do it???" she screamed.
I looked down at the phone in my hand, on the screen was a picture. A very explicit picture of myself that was sent to another woman.
"I have no idea," I protested, "it just happened! I was searching on my phones web browser and somehow ended up in a chat room. She started talking sexy stuff and she asked for a picture so I obliged."
This was not the day I had envisioned. Coming home from a long day at work I was looking forward to spending some time with my Wife. At 35 yrs old working as an engineer I spend a lot of time on my feet, so returning home for some wine, Friday night tv and a roaring fire to put my feet up to sounded perfect.
Instead here I am facing the worst night of my life. A quick flash, a mistake, something I whole heartedly regret doing and I cant change it.
Yasmin, 45, was holding her head in her hands, silent. She finally looked at me disgust in her eyes. I realised I had fucked up, here I was looking into her eyes, my own emotions surfacing.
"I just don't understand Rick!" she says.
"It just happened, I got nothing back and nothing else happened. I've never spoken to her, only sent a few messages and it wasn't doing anything for me so it ended. I'm so sorry you had to find this. I love you so much, I wish I could turn back time I really do."
"I called her. I called her Rick, she told me everything. She said you had been messaging for weeks, talking on the phone, sending lots of pictures and sex talk. I know you lying."
"I promise you I'm not!!" I exclaimed confused, "I have no idea why she said those things."
I was honest. I have no idea why she would make up stories like that. Why, why would she do that??!!
"Why would she lie then Rick?"
"I don't know Yasmin, I really don't. Maybe she thought she was doing someone a favour. Maybe she had a call from a woman that thought her man was playing away and she felt sorry for you. Perhaps she thought that by telling you what you wanted to hear with exaggeration it would help make your mind up to leave me."
Yasmin was silent, thinking. After a few minutes of what seemed hours she got up and walked out of the room. Walked into the spare bedroom and shut and locked the door.
I sat there also in silence, crying, wondering what to do. Ashamed of my actions, should I leave? or should I stay?
I decided to stay. My eyes raw from my tears I changed and climbed into bed. Our bed. It took a long time but I finally went to sleep.
I woke in the morning to a note on her pillow next to me. I sat up and read;
"Rick, I have not slept, and I have mulled over your actions. I have gone into town shopping for the day. I will think of what to say when I return, and how to deal with you. I will think of a suitable punishment for what you have done, and then we will discuss how to proceed for the future. I am going to meet a friend of mine and go shopping. I will return at 7pm. There is a blindfold I have left out on my bedroom chair. I want you to strip to your boxers and put the blindfold on and be in place before I return."