It started a while back with some innocent sex toys. He purchased my first vibrator for me while he was away for work and we'd occasionally use it over video chat. I think he was addicted from the start.
Over time it would always turn into something different, something more than the last. I was okay with it, but I've had my suspicions that he enjoyed watching me more than he liked being with me.
We ended up with a somewhat large collection of vibrators, dildos, plugs, beads, lubes and lotions. The toys kept getting bigger and bigger, and as fascinating as the idea would seem, I didn't really enjoy the bigger ones and would always refuse to use them, they never worked at getting me off, but he seemed to always gravitate towards those anyway. I guess we do always want what we can't have.
The usage of toys slowed down a bit because I feel like it was just going too far, we'd occasionally use the vibrator during sex, and this was his reward for doing something extra around the house.
He's usually the one who wants to do all the kinky stuff, and I'm always okay with trying new things, but ordinary sex is just the best for me.
Eventually my husband was the one who asked for it. He mentioned and hinted at it over and over and we just kept ending up with the same solution, but we were typically both having wine, so I never took it to heart.
We'd talk about it and it usually ended up with a brief session of great sex, which was almost always beneficial to the both of us. I must admit the thought of it was kinky and exciting if I'm honest with myself.
He'd admit to me that he wanted to watch someone else fuck me, or watch me fuck the big dildo (I've yet to do in front of him). We had an 8 inch dildo that he obsessed over watching me with, but it was stiff and unrealistic and never did the trick like a good old fashioned dick or vibrator would.
He'd say that he just wanted to watch me be pleasured in ways that he couldn't. Of course I'd play along and like I said it would lead to some interesting sex, but I never took any of it seriously. I mean this is coming from the same guy that wants to have a make out session after he explodes himself in my mouth (the idea to me was kinda hot), but then changes his mind once it actually happens, and he gets a blowjob, but I don't get the part I was most excited about.
That happened about twice, once I realized he'd never actually follow through I climbed on him after he blew most of his load in my mouth (there's always a lot I can't hold it all) and made out with him, releasing his own fluids into his mouth. While it was finally somewhat satisfying to me, it wasn't what he'd expected although he has been somewhat curious again since then. I suspect it's just so he can cum in my mouth again.
He's got somewhat of a thick cock so it's quite a bit of work that I'm willing to do every now and again as long as I feel like he's earned it, but not often at all, and once he's finished he no longer desires the makout session that I would rather enjoy.
So, this... Like that, I assumed was just something he fantasized about without realizing the consequences of the complete follow through.
Once this was done there'd be no going back to the way it was before, and it was something he acknowledged in a serious conversation that we had a while back. We had ultimately decided that it was still on the fence, mostly because I was not willing to go through with it.
I'm a bit on the thicker side and my husband assures me that I hold it well. I'm a mixed girl although you wouldn't know it (you'd probably assume I'm Hispanic although I'm actually black and white).
I've been this curvy mostly my whole life, and I've never had trouble catching men's eyes, and every now and then the occasional woman's.
I often feel like it's because I'm out of shape, but then again every now and again I see some guys obviously looking at me the other way. My husband tells me its because Ive got a very exotic look about me and it's hard not to stare, but I feel a bit insecure when they look my direction, I can't help it.
My husband is only my third lover, and as much as I'd like some random guy to come please me I could never get over the anxiety of it.
Chris would tell me to talk dirty to him during sex and tell him how I met someone and had a random sexual encounter, this always led to great sex, but we would always keep it as a fantasy and occasionally the dirty talk secretly excited me about actually doing it for real.
We're at dinner one night and he's pretty buzzed and tells me he's desperate for this to happen. I tell him that I don't want to, and he asks me why not.
Of course I tell him that it's a fun fantasy but it's probably better left as that.