There were now two distinct parts of my life, Annie, the guilt ridden wife and mother who had acted like a slut for her husband's pleasure and Annie the college student who was free to enjoy the life of a free and single woman. I understand now that because of my upbringing, my husband and children, I felt that I should have a certain lifestyle, with proper behavior and controlled emotions. When things turned out different from that, I reacted with shame and guilt and my self image fell even farther downward. Because my husband, Tom, didn't seem to value me, I responded by not valuing myself either. I did what Tom asked me to do because I felt I had no right to say no or to refuse to degrade myself. I was tied to him and totally dependent in our relationship. My life at school was a separate, secret life. I had removed all responsibility as a wife or mother. I felt no compulsion to "behave" in a certain way, so there was no guilt about what I did. I did what I chose to do, for myself! I quickly learned to step from one life to the other, keeping my thoughts and emotions separated accordingly.
Things at school were going great. I was doing well in class and had a great social life after class. At home, things were OK too. Tom had not pushed me about sleeping around for him. I suspected he might have a girlfriend, but he later told me he had no one else. We lived in a new subdivision and ours was the only house on our street for about six months. We had been there just short of a year and as neighbors built and moved in, we would stop by and offer a bottle of wine and neighborly greetings. Typical all-American family stuff. I played the role of housewife and shared coffee from time to time with the other women in the neighborhood. They knew I was back in school and I frequently had them baby sit when I was at school. Most were a little older than I was, but our kids were the same ages. Everything was fine.
A younger couple moved in right across the street. No kids, Mark was 22 and Donna was 20. Tom and I hit it off with them right away. Mark owned a retail store and Donna was a secretary at a bank. Mark was average build with dark hair and eyes. Donna was a slender redhead probably 5-7 or 5-8 like me. She had a small waist, but large breasts for her slender frame. Tom noticed that! After a few times of chatting briefly, they invited us to come over for dinner one evening. This was great as we could leave the kids at home and be just across the street. I went back a couple times to check on them and they did fine. The oldest was 9 so I couldn't leave them all alone yet.
I was 28, 5-8, about 120, brown hair green eyes, 36d-25-37. I looked quite young and dressed that way too. I could easily pass for early 20's. As a former cheerleader and homecoming queen, I was still "pretty". After the second or third trip across the street, I returned to Mark and Donna's and found the conversation had turned to sex. Mark had actually brought out some nude pictures of Donna, and Tom was looking at them. I didn't know what to do! Donna laughed a little and said Mark had this thing about her body. He loved to show her off. I listened as she described how she would let her breasts be seen in public by leaning over with no bra on.
She would go out with no panties and a short skirt and flash men in restaurants. Mark found it exciting and she did too! I knew Tom loved hearing this. I recalled the feelings I had when I made love with Herb in the park and knew people could see us. I remembered how turned on Tom had been when I had exposed myself to strangers in the hotel lounge just a few months ago. It had gotten me really hot too! So hot I let them all fuck me before the night was over!
Tom asked Donna if she had ever gone any farther than flashing. She looked at Mark who gave her an approving nod. She then told us about flashing her boss at work and then giving him a blow job in the copy room. She said that she now jacked him off or gave him a blow job almost weekly. Mark chimed in saying that this was a turn on for him and that when she told him about what she did, their love making was so much better. Tom was giving me that "I told you so" look. Mark said, " I don't know if I should tell you this, but a couple weeks ago, I watched Donna suck him off." Tom sat up as Mark continued. He had come to the office earlier and Donna had hidden him in the paper closet in the copy room. When her boss came in, Mark had watched the whole thing from the closet. Donna seemed a little nervous and said, " I hope this doesn't offend you guys. It's just harmless fun. We got married really young and never fooled around much, so this is our way of making up for that."
I don't know why, but I looked at Tom and saw the wheels turning. I decided to tell them about us! I told Donna to relax. We had also gotten married young and decided that our marriage could handle some experimentation. I told them about my affair with Herb, the neighbor from our last house. I didn't tell about the weekend at the hotel, only about Herb and I visiting each other. I let Tom tell the part about watching Herb and I through the window from the garage roof. We all laughed about that one and things were suddenly less tense for us all. Tom told them about one of his flings with another teacher and we all felt like we were on equal ground.
