Continued from Greg and Kelly Ch 3: Janice
Kelly climbed into bed and lay down looking at me. I can always read her face like a book, something was wrong. "You ok babe?" I reached out and stroked her bare hip. Kelly normally sleeps in panties and one of my old t-shirts. Tonight was no different.
Her eyes meet mine and she said "I want to talk about this whole Hotwife thing. I know you're excited and we have been having a lot of fun with the fantasy. But I want to talk to you about both of our expectations with this before we have a misunderstanding and someone gets their feelings hurt."
I lay down and faced her. "That sounds reasonable. What's on your mind?" I had admitted my darkest fantasy to my beautiful wife of fifteen years. I loved reading about men who watch their wives have sex with other men while they were present. I don't know how I fell into this fetish, but I know I always think about it. It doesn't help that I think Kelly is super sexy. For some reason, I would love to to see my wife have sex as I watched and then reclaimed her as my own after. Just thinking about it was getting me hard.
Kelly put her hand on the one that was touching her hip. "Greg, is this just a fantasy? Or, do you really want this to happen? I've been playing along and having fun, but I'm starting to think you really want this. And, I don't know that I really do. Honestly, I don't trust that you want this. My gut says that if we did this, it's going to explode our marriage."
Kelly had cut right to the point. In all honesty, I felt much the same. But then I also knew that I wouldn't stop thinking of her sleeping with another guy. I didn't want to destroy what had been the best thing that ever happened to me. But I also know that I'm addicted to this fantasy.
"Yes, these things had occurred to me as well. I'm not crazy. I love what we have together. Honestly, you've been playing your part do well that I thought you were totally into it." I was confused and conflicted. How can I be disappointed and relieved at the same time?
She squeezed my hand. "I want to explore fantasies with you. You were brave enough to express it to me, and I want to make you happy. But, I need to know what you want to be real and what you want to be pretendl. You know, I got married to you so I wouldn't have to go through the whole dating awkwardness anymore. How do you think it would feel to find out that I can't get a date as a married woman? How sad would that be? They're so many reasons not to do this and not many to do it. You know?"
I chuckled at that. "Babe, you would have no problem finding someone to go out with you! Just saying... You're a total hottie!"
Kelly rolled her eyes. "You think I am, but I've had to kids. I'm almost forty. My care free college sex days are over. Please be honest. I need to understand what your feelings are. Describe to me what this all means to you. Please."