I jumped back as if stung, telling myself she was wrong, I'd had to force myself to lube Carl's penis and was horrified at her cumming on my hand and I was embarrassed at being watched on the kitchen table.
But I hadn't, I wasn't and I wasn't.
I was getting caught up in things in the heat of the moment, my libido was doing things my conscience didn't like. Miss Conscience had a word with Mrs Imagination and filled my head with lots of scenarios that started "What if......" all of which seemed to end with me ending up abandoned and divorced after leaping into bed with one or more of the actors. Lady Guilt came visiting with her daughter, Shame.
"I, er I. Lunch. Gotta go." Hiding in the kitchen I put together three ham salad rolls, the mundanity of preparing food was a good distraction technique meaning I could think about something, anything apart from the feel of Carl's cock stiffening under my grip and the visceral thrill from driving it into Ginny's eager pussy. Damn, I was there again.
Desperately trying to fill my head with everyday thoughts I went off to find Chris and Jane.
Jane hadn't moved, apart from rolling onto her front, a shiny glow from the sun and factor twenty. I pushed the sandwich under her sun lounger where she could see and smell it and told her she was on duty for the afternoon scene, I got a grunt and a wave which I took to mean Yes. Chris was in the admin building, talking VPN firewalls to Darren, who actually seemed interested and understood what he meant.
"Hi Babe, how was your first working session on set?" Chris gave me a happy smile. I looked uncomfortably at Darren who took the hint and jumped up saying he had to get ready for his scene that afternoon and he'd catch us both later. My Libido popped out to ask who he was working with.
He paused, by the door and looked back at me, he seemed genuinely pleased I asked. "Carol and Sandy, three way by the jacuzzi. You coming over?"
I told him Jane was working the afternoon scene, but then the libido thought about that ripped body and said I might stop by. My conscience still felt quite squeamish about the whole set up and the thought of three of them writhing in the pool wasn't really making me feel any better.
Once he'd gone, I tried to confess everything in a big gush to Chris who held my hands in his and laughed; with me, not at me if he knows what's good for him.
He sat me down and wiping away a tear that was welling at the edge of my eye he told me not to worry. "Did you enjoy watching the scene?"
I admitted it had been great, and if he'd been there I'd probably have taken him aside to work out my arousal. He was probably on a promise tonight. Not probably.
He went on: "Did you actually do anything that made you break our wedding vows?"
I shook my head. "No, never. But what if.."
He cut me off, "Remember when you went on that Kimmy's hen night and you all played 'How many beermats can you stack on the fireman's willy?"
I sniffed and nodded. "I got Seven, but Bex cheated, she stuck it in her cleavage and loaded up twenty."
He stifled another laugh "Yes, I remember you told me, I seem to recall you were annoyed at what you thought was her cheating and totally oblivious to the fact that you'd been holding another man by the tadger. You went into quite some detail about how you'd felt it start to grow when it was your turn and that was why you outscored the others who didn't get him excited."
I gave a small laugh through my tears. "Yes, but I didn't think it would happen and it wasn't real, I didn't know his name or anything. It was just funny at the time."
He nodded, "OK, so do you remember what happened when you came home and told me?"
Ooh. Yes. I did. I tried to kiss him. "I called you to come and get me, you dropped Liz and Cassie at home, and I tried to give you a blowjob in the car, then you took me home and fucked my brains out on the stairs."
He pushed back slightly, "I didn't fuck your brains out on the stairs, we started on the stairs then I fucked your brains out in the bedroom. And the bathroom afterwards. The point I'm making is what you did that night and what you just did are similar, and don't threaten 'us' at all. So you had to hold someone else's dick? Are you going to run away with him?
I shook my head.
"And you massaged that girl's pussy so well she had an orgasm? Well done on a good job. Truth to tell I'd probably enjoy seeing it happen.
You agreed to help these people out, they seem very nice so far but if you're going to be squeamish about being here then we should tell them now and help find some more occupational health cover for them"
He continued, "I've been chatting with Darren, they all think you're great for helping them, it really is a big deal for them, they love that we are so close, when I told him we'd been married for fifteen years and hadn't been with anyone else for seventeen he was amazed, they think that having each other, is incredible. And so do I. You're the most important thing I have, so enjoy being here.
We'll have fun and remember it in years to come but it's not real and nor is anything we do here. You are. And you will always be mine and I'll always be yours."
And that's why I love him. I climbed onto his lap kissing him passionately and hard, my tongue darting into his mouth like a humming bird. I held onto his face with both hands and told him how much I loved him.
Miss Libido jumped into my head to let me know she was still there and was taking over for a bit. Miss Conscience told me she was good with everything if Chris was and shouted 'Taxi for Guilt and Shame'
I pulled his hands onto my tits and kissed him some more, my imagination went away remarking she didn't seem to be needed any more. As he squeezed and fondled me I was trying my best to get into his shorts, but it wasn't working so I stood up and pulled him to his feet, yanking them down as fast as I could and pulling my T shirt over my head in the same frenzied movement.