This all took place twenty years ago during my first marriage. The events are true.It takes a little while to get into the story, but I think it's worth it.
Before I got married, I would often try to get my fiancee to tell me of her experiences with other men. It usually took weeks of questions to get any information, and her stories would almost always start out fairly innocent, then over time she would reveal more and more until I got the truth. I could always tell when she was holding back, and could never really figure out why since I was not the jealous type and was obviously aroused by her previous adventures.
After we got married, she went to work in an inner city hospital, where she was the only white person. She became close friends with a number of black women on her unit, and I met them on numerous occasions at parties. Joan would tell stories about what was going on in their lives, and I found out that most of them had numerous affairs, switching from guy to guy fairly frequently, even though all of them were married. I think being around those women changed Joan's outlook on what marriage was.
One of my recurring fantasies was to have Joan have sex with other men. It was something that turned me on, and I would bring the subject up now and then while we were in bed. She never showed any willingness to make it happen.
After we had been married for three years, we had a child and she took a year off work to stay home and take care of our daughter. When she went back, I noticed a change, subtle but something I picked up on. At one point, she was assigned an intern from one of the local colleges, and she mentioned that he was "kind of cute". Innocent stuff, really, but I wondered if there was something more to it.
One morning, as I was taking a shower before work, she asked me if I thought it was weird to think about kissing somebody other than your husband. Of course, I immediately told her that I thought it was natural to have feelings of attraction for other people, that getting married didn't mean you could just turn your feelings off. I pressed her a little bit, and sure enough, she was talking about this intern. Seems she had been having some fantasies about him. When I asked, she said they never went farther in her mind than maybe going into an empty room at the hospital and making out. I kept asking for more, but finally realized that she was either telling the truth, or was unwilling to tell me anything more.
A few months later, I tried a little experiment. I had a magazine I ordered through the mail that was full of naked men. Naked black men. I left it out on the night table and when she went to bed, I asked her to tell me what she thought of the pictures. Usually, she had refused to look at any of the men's magazines I had lying around (this was before the days of Internet porn) but this time she started leafing through the pages, looking at each picture carefully. I started rubbing her leg, working my fingers into her panties and finding her wet and responsive. She willingly opened her legs and allowed me to rub her clit, all the while turning the pages.
"Like what you see?" I asked.
"It's interesting."
"Do any of the black guys at work hit on you?"
She paused for just a moment, then said, "Yeah, there is this security guard that talks to me everyday."
"What does he say?" I continued to rub her pussy, and Joan started to hump herself against my hand a little bit. "He always tells me I'm looking good and that we should get together sometime."
"Does he know you're married?"
"He doesn't care about that."
I knew from her stories that most of her friends at work were married, and still found time to fool around on the side, so this didn't surprise me that much.
"Have you ever thought about having sex with a black guy?" I asked, reaching under her top to pinch her nipples. They were already hard, and Joan moaned softly. She didn't say anything, but she put the magazine down for a second and closed her eyes. "Have you?" I asked again.
"I have been curious," she admitted in a soft voice, looking to see my reaction.
I continued to stroke her and said, "Well, if you really want to, go ahead."
"Are you serious?" she asked, eyes wide.
The thought of my petite 5'2" wife with some black guy was pretty arousing. "Sure," I said. "Just one condition. I have to know everything about what is going on. Where you're going, when you're coming home, everything."
She rolled on her side and looked at me. "You're the most understanding guy," she said.
I guess I expected something to happen right away, but weeks went by with nothing changed. I asked from time to time and Joan said the guy was still talking to her every day, but that was it. Then one week she said that a bunch of people from work were going to go roller-skating every Wednesday after work. She was 28 at the time and had never mentioned an interest in roller skating, so I wondered if that was what she was really doing. This went on for about three weeks, and she was home by nine each night so I didn't think anything of it.
One night she came home and I was watching TV. As I said, I could always tell when she was being secretive and as soon as she put her coat away, I blurted out, "So, were you with somebody tonight?"
"No, why do you say that?" she asked.
"Tell me the truth, Joan," I said. "Were you with another guy tonight?"
She denied it again and we went up to bed. We started fooling around, and I started fucking her doggy style. I remember that my cock felt like it wasn't touching the sides of her vagina and I said, "What have you been doing?"
I can still see the look on her face as she glanced around at me. Her eyes were wide for just a second, then she saw that I was just asking a question, and she said, "Nothing." I know it sounds naive, but I really didn't put two and two together. Stupid, in retrospect, but I really didn't suspect anything was going on.
The fantasy of her being with another guy was one I brought up in bed on a fairly regular basis, and she finally did say she thought she would like it. I was very excited, and I can remember thinking that any day now I would be hearing her story. Another two weeks went by and there was nothing, making me wonder if I was just imagining the whole thing.
Then one night she came home from work and was changing her clothes. We were going to go out to dinner, and I was lounging on the bed as we talked about our day.
"What would you do if a friend of yours at work just stopped talking to you?" she asked.
"I don't know. I guess I would ask them why. Why do you ask?"
"I was just wondering is all."