You know, I just don't get it. When I had my "little" talk with Dave, I was sure I had used those five magic words that Angela had given me to open up this conversation. You know, "Honey, we have to talk." Angela told me it was sure fire, and would get me what I wanted now more than anything I could think of.
Angela was my subordinate and my best friend at work. We are legal assistants. I have two other ladies working under my supervision. We are about the same age and really hit it off from day one. We are more like sisters than even co-workers or friends.
Lately Angie has been filling my ears with how nice it is to be free to date since her divorce and taste strange men as much as she pleased. She's been talking up her latest heart throb, Todd Andrews. She was just out of her head for his penis and loved his big hanging balls. And he was really cute and smart too. This Todd seem a real heart breaker.
But I digress. I'm Diane Steine. I am married to David Steine and we have an amazing marriage. We've been at this nearly 10 years and still going strong. Childless yes, but we are none the less as happy as we can be with our lives. We share an intimacy that only a few couples we know have. We get together for some pretty wild sex usually two to four times each week. If we don't fuck that often we both feel deprived and miss one another.
David and I met in one of our core curriculum classes at college during our freshman year. It was love at first sight and we just couldn't be without one another ever since. We were soul mates and we each knew it. I was at that time also deeply religious, and to be fair, made it clear to Dave that he would marry a virgin. I guess that was a risky tactic at the time, it was the 80s then, but I really felt it strongly.
David was an engineering major and I was studying business with a minor in Renaissance Literature. We were inseparable and I remained a virgin up until our engagement party in our Senior year. I just couldn't help myself then, I loved that man so much. It was just amazing and launched our sex life together. I have never, ever had a thought of touching another man, much less date one or have sex with him. On our wedding night he truly became my man and would always be my man, we became one.
That's also a part of why when my BFF Angela starting telling me about this Todd guy down in the Legal Library. I began to feel somehow left out not having had those wild times in college that everyone else seemed to have had. I never had the youthful adventures most people seem to share.
Angela was really hot on this guy. She had dated him a couple of times, I only knew of him from other colleagues. All the women seemed to swoon over him, including the married ones. For some reason I was totally intrigued right from the start. I guess part of my interest in him was that he had been a colleges jock. Everyone thought he was on the way to the NFL. He was a big guy compared to my 5' 2" and even David's 5' 10"; and it was rumored he was carrying a 9 or 10 inch package and that he really knew how to use the thing.
The first time I met Todd I was hooked. I knew I had to have him. All my curiosity about how another man would or could make love to me swept over me like the storm surge of a hurricane. Every word Angela had said about his sexual prowess played on my mind. Sex was a sure bet as far as I was concerned. I just had to have a lover, another man than my husband. This is the man I wanted between my legs. I began to flirt unashamedly with him every time he came to my department.
Finally, I made my move. On Thursday that week, as I walked past his desk, I slid a memo envelop onto his desk top as I passed by. Since non-fraternization was company policy, I was afraid to be more daring. It simply stated "Friday, Downtown Hilton, I'll be in the bar. 7pm, OK? Memo me back." He would know who it was from. Then I waited and waited, over half an hour went by. My hands and knees were shaking like leaves in a tornado. I couldn't concentrate on anything and moved to the break room even though it was mid-afternoon. While I was gone, someway, somehow mysteriously, the very same memo envelope reappeared on my desk. The memo held just two letters, OK", no names, written on the same note paper I had written on.
I spent the balance of my day walking on air, that is after making my reservation at the hotel. On the way home, I rehearsed my conversation with David and share with him that I had decided to widen my sexual horizons, explore my sensuality. I desperately wanted his loving permission, but was determined to carry this out with or without his blessing. I, of course, started with those infamous five words, "Honey, we have to talk." First I had him sit at our kitchen table so we could face each other. I started by telling him that I loved him with my whole heart, he was my soul mate and would always be my first love, just as he was my first lover. I was careful to make sure he knew that no matter what, I would love him above all else in this world. I reminded him that we are soulmates and would always love each other more than life itself. As slowly and calmly as I could I told Dave that I just needed to have sex with another man, I told him he could see that I was sincere and loved him more than anything else.
I told him that I was not in love with Todd. This was just to be sex with him so that I could get over the notion that there was something missing in my life. I needed to experience this...one time... just one time.