Size. It was always something that was on the table. We would chat. We would fantasise. There were stories of past conquests that focussed on size. There were websites and videos and pictures. And there were the casual glances in the gym, on the street...anywhere that a man aroused your curiosity. Size.
I was never sure if or when the freedom I had offered you might end up being embraced. You had always said that it wasn't really something you were looking for, and I was quite comfortable that you were happy. But equally, we both knew that simply because we were so comfortable and happy thinking and talking about it, that you might just decide that there was an opportunity to good to miss, with no real consequences for the act.
So when I got a message saying "I'm bringing someone home" I wasn't quite sure what it meant, even though the possibility was tantalisingly attractive. It was just another evening networking event, one like so many more when you would arrive home, tired, perhaps having had a glass or two of wine, and we'd just trundle off to bed.
So -- was this different? Had you bumped in to somebody I knew and it was a surprise re-introduction? Or had you found the optimum fantasy material, too good to chuck back in for somebody else to catch.
I heard the Uber pull up. I didn't want to look out the window, or pre-empt anything...if you wanted me to do something you would have sent me a message. Nonetheless, the window was open and I was listening for the signs. The click on the driveway indicated high heels -- only worn on special occasions. The dialogue was telling -- "are you sure?"..."it's fine, he won't have a problem"..."and it's just you and me?"..." oh yes darling, I'm having you all to myself".
The door opened, and two sets of footsteps ascended the stairs. I was somewhere between shock, relief and ecstasy. As you reached the top of the stairs I saw your new friend -- tall, younger, and definitely in excellent shape. "This is Derek" -- the words that opened a new door.
It was clear that I was to be present but entirely uninvolved. I couldn't quite tell whether it was because you could only do this if you could pretend I wasn't there, or that you wanted me to see you perform...or that you liked the power of sexual domination for this little moment in our lives.