Am I going to ruin the best thing in my life right now? Possibly. But the genie is out of the bottle after she discovered my secret Raddit account, and there's never going to be another opportunity like this.
Lana and I have been together for about a year. We don't have plans to get married or anything like that, but our relationship is solid. The conversations are great, we have common hobbies and I feel like she's out of my league as far as hotness is concerned, but she's into all my bad jokes and stories.
Like many relationships nowadays, we met online. I work in software but love photography. It's a great excuse to go outdoors, see the country and the girls find it interesting as well. While scrolling through Raddit boards, I found a post from a supposed modal looking for amateur photographers to take cosplay shots.
While portraits are generally not my thing, it was local, and the post seemed genuine. Naturally, I checked the profile to make sure I wasn't walking into some kind of trap. And what I found was this charming young thing in pink and purple wigs, wearing some of the skimpiest outfits this side of a strip club. The shots were all selfies, and while the phone camera didn't provide the best quality, I could see the potential.
My hands shaking slightly with excitement, I posted a reply. "My name's Mark[25] and I'm an amateur photographer. I don't know much about anime, but I loved your One Piece cosplay. I live about 10 miles from you and I know a couple of great nearby locations."
Half an hour later, I was starting to hate myself. "What the hell was that message? There's no way she's going to see a guy who lives 10 miles away, you sound like a stalker." But to my surprise, she did answer a couple of hours later at 11.30 PM, which was a good sign.
We set up a meeting spot the next day. Lana worked at one of those overpriced cafes downtown, and her shift had just ended. Her thin frame was beautifully wrapped in C-cup breasts and a bubble butt. Her tight black pants made a small gap between her thighs, which made her look even thinner, and I honestly believed she'd been an amateur ballerina, which I later found out to be true.
The mysterious girl had that early 20s glow: shiny natural dark blonde hair, deep blue eyes, and clear skin. It didn't look like she was wearing much makeup, only some mascara and lip gloss over her lips, which formed a childish faux-innocent smile.
As shaky as I was, her nerves were even worse, which gave me the confidence boost I needed. Later, I learned that she was not only hiding her attraction but also struggling with her Eastern European accent.
We talked over coffee and ended up doing three photoshoots over the next couple of weeks. Lana had the costumes lined up, all fantasy characters, clad in leather armor or revealing sci-fi jumpsuits. It was the hottest thing I'd ever done, but it also give us an opportunity to know each other.
Turns out Lana was short for Svetlana. She and her cousin emigrated out of Eastern Europe due to the fear of war and persecution. She was knowledgeable and smart, but without financial resources or family backing, life was pretty difficult. Her cousin had been a stripper for two years, but my little pixie was trying to make it as a model/actress while supporting herself through your average low-pay jobs. Making cosplay content for social media now seemed to her as the big-ticket to fame and fortune.
Over the next couple of months, we got closer and closer. One night after a spicy latex cosplay shoot at her apartment, Lana busted out a big bottle. "Let's celebrate," she said. "This is our 10th shoot together, and this wine is from my home country, I've been saving it for a special occasion."
And you can probably guess what happens. We drank the whole thing in minutes, it obviously affected me more than her. We started making out and I began unzipping her black latex costume. One hand on the boobs that I'd been obsessing over for so long and I was now in heaven. As her breathing got harder and she began biting my shoulder I knew something magical was about to happen.
She moved elegantly on top, grinding herself into a frenzy. Fearing I wouldn't last long with such a sight in front of me, I pushed her down and flipped her over. A good 15 minutes later and I was spent. The slight pain in my side was a reminder of how much I'd drank, and a hangover was likely to follow the next morning.
Our relationship progressed normally after that. We went camping and hiking together, visited a couple of exotic locations when tickets were on sale, all the time weaving in our new shared passion for cosplay. As her online popularity grew, I began to take on new responsibilities as a sort of community manager from behind the scenes.
Everything changed one night in May. I arrived late from work, and as she greeted me at the door I knew something was wrong. "Mark, what the heck is this?" Lana asked, muttering a few curse words that I couldn't understand while holding up our tablet. And on the screen was a Raddit account user name "BBC4Lana".
I fucked up. Usually, I'm more careful with my porn surfing, but my phone was dead one night and I wanted to post a fake cuckold story I'd been editing for a week. Call it a dark secret. This strange fetish of mine had been simmering beneath the surface for many cars, long before meeting Lana.
It might have something to do with low self-esteem or past trauma, but the thought of seeing my girlfriend in the arms of another man was deeply arousing. And it only got worse after meeting her, my exotic cosplay blue-eyed goddess from another land. Nobody knew until now, but not only did Lana find my hidden account, she also had time to read all my posts.
Some of them were fake text exchanges between her and some fantasy black lovers. I'd been careful to blur out her face, but the fact that I used her photos online without permission meant I was in big trouble. "What if somebody recognizes me, cosplay is over. Do you understand?"
I was in the figurative doghouse for three days. She wouldn't answer my texts from work, would only answer simple questions, and went to bed early. On the fourth day, I was pleased to be greeted as I arrived, not by an angry Lana, but one with a faux smile. Was she going to break up with me? Wait, is that stake I smell?
Turns out that after a couple of days of googling, my pixie cosplay goddess had learned that my fetish was actually pretty common. And while it scared her at first, watching BBC interracial "research" porn proved incredibly arousing. To my shock, Lana said she knew a black guy from work that could make my fantasy happen.
I was obviously reluctant to let my perfect girlfriend with another man, and she could obviously see that. "Omar is a nice guy. He delivers coffee and supplies for us, and while he's flirted with me a couple of times, it's always been in a polite way," Lana argued. "We can set rules and boundaries. If there's anything you're not comfortable with me doing, we'll just stop. That's what I read online about your little hobby, mister."
What has she been reading about me? I don't like the way she's taking control of the situation but this whole thing is my fault and I don't think I can back out of it now.
Over the next couple of days, we discussed some details. Omar would come to our apartment where we felt safest. He'd be wearing a condom, and kissing was absolutely off-limits. After the talks, Lana always had this joyful little smile, patronizing, like she'd seen baby photos of me... or something.
That Saturday, Omar arrived at our apartment and greeted us like a long-lost friend. The was slightly broader than me, but not much taller, cleanly dressed in slacks and a polo. "Hey. I've brought this bottle of wine; I hope Pinot is okay," he said. "And you must be Mark. No wonder she's been turning down my date proposals. But it all worked out in the end I suppose."
Suddenly, the realization of what we were doing hit all of us. I breathing heavily thinking about calling the whole thing off when Lana intervened and told Omar to stop joking and help crack open the bottle and so he followed her to the kitchen while I nervously shifted onto the living room sofa. It was a small apartment with an open plan design, but I was still nervous that he'd cop a feel under the counter, as silly as this sounds.