C sat all alone. He took a sip of his cappuccino thinking it was the best he ever tasted. He immediately wondered if its delicious taste was because of its link to their unique marriage and the very enjoyable evening he was having with his queen, Jean.
He muttered aloud, "For a cuckold, it doesn't get any better than this."
Each time he moved, no matter how slight, the cold, wet cum in his underwear came into contact with his skin reminding him of the pleasure Jean brought him with her toes. He had an admitted foot fetish which Jean took frequent advantage of. As badly as he ached to have his manhood inside her vagina, to feel the soft, wet warmth of her love canal, to thrust in and out of its smooth walls as he stared at Jean, to possess her, her toes massaging his penis to orgasm was a nice consolation prize.
He doubted other men experienced the pleasure of her toes on their cocks. He was certain it was something only he and she shared. Their shared perversions made being her cuckold not only attractive but tolerable. When she closed one door she opened another. He was never totally denied or unwanted. He took great comfort in knowing he and she did things to each other sexually that she didn't do with other men. He knew it wasn't because she would tell them no, but because they had no interest in doing them.
He took another sip and mused about how much better the experience was at 50 than as a young man of 19. That first time with Jose had been sexually powerful, but gut wrenching. He still remembered the cold coffee, wanting a fresh cup after he finished it, and getting none. The other waiters steered clear of his table while Jose escorted Jean through the kitchen and to the storage room where he took possession of her body, fucking her through several toe curling orgasms. Their coupling ended when he emptied his cream filled balls into her. She had been working on mastering her vaginal muscles and as he softened she worked those muscles squeezing from him every last drop of his manjuice.
He moved his leg and felt the cold, wet, sticky reminder of his climax. While the cappuccino was warm and flavorful some things he thought never changed. Being alone. Jean's toes bringing him to orgasm. Feeling inadequate. Ashamed of his passivity. Embarrassed he wanted other men to fuck her. Wanting to be the other man, but knowing he didn't measure up.
His climax courtesy of Jean's toes had been a ten, but it also served to remind him of what another man's cock was enjoying, the feel of Jean's pussy as he pushed in and pulled out. He imagined Jean's pelvis rolling up to meet Jose's thrust and rolling back down as he pulled out. From past experience he knew Jean was having a very good time, her pleasure intensified knowing C knew.
His penis began to twitch and grow as he thought of Jose and Jean having sex. He found himself revisiting that day 31 years ago.
They were in Jean's house. She was on the floor on her back and he was on top of her. She was wearing a peasant dress which was now bunched up at her waist. Her legs weren't wrapped around his waist, but her inner thighs were pressed against his hips. He was on top of her fully dressed. They were making out and rubbing their genitals against the other's when he heard Jean's mother.
He jumped off of her but was too late. Jean's mother said nothing. He expected her to be furious seeing her daughter and her boyfriend dry humping, but she was just the opposite. She smiled at their embarrassment. He looked at Jean who was beet red; whether it was from lust or being caught he didn't know. What he did know was his face felt just as ruddy.
Jean's mom spoke, "When you two lovebirds are through, would you run an errand for me?"
Jean and he answered in unison, "Yes."
Her mom left the room without telling them what she needed and she closed the door behind her. It was as though she was telling he and Jean to pick up where they left off.
They of course didn't. He said, "That was strange. I thought she would be furious."
Jean told him, "My mom knows how much I love you. I've been talking to her a lot about you and I. She knows how badly I want to marry you. She likes you a lot and thinks you're good for me. She wants us to wait, but says we're adults and can make our own decisions."
They kissed almost chastely before leaving the room. Jean's mom gave them some money and told them to have lunch before doing her errands.
Jean said she would drive. They got in her car. She drove them to the same Mexican restaurant where she had gotten him to confess his arousal at her being with other men. She assured him it was more common than he thought. He didn't really think of himself as someone with submissive, cuckold desires, but rather as someone who enjoyed sharing his girlfriend sexually. Jean knew his view of himself was a delusion, a coping mechanism. Theirs was not a hot wife/girlfriend relationship and it certainly wasn't an open one. He had even admitted to her his feelings of inadequacy based on his penis being unable to fulfill her via sexual intercourse and rationalized it as grounds for her to have sex with another man, Leo, she was dating. As her sexual relationship with Leo intensified so too did his submissive, cuckold desires. They bubbled to the surface and rather than driving Jean away they made her love him more.
He wasn't the only one in denial. Jean was even more tormented because what she was doing sexually and where she wanted to take their relationship went against what she had been raised to believe. Good girls waited. If they didn't wait they married the boy they did it with. Sex was only with someone you loved and only occurred in a committed marriage. Men were the boss. Boyfriends and husbands made the decisions.