I never seen this coming. I mean, I had the simple kind of life, one without hang-ups or complications. I was miserable at my factory job, working the tedious day shift day in and day out, and then I hear about the bad news. I'm losing my job and have two kids and a wife with no way of knowing what was in store regarding my future. Yeah, I know, many have the same ordeal. Mine gets a bit more difficult due to arising circumstances I hadn't properly prepared for.
I had an opportunity to return to college. Granted it was a community college, but I was given a new lease on life, it felt, although in my 30's I hadn't imagined what spending time in class with girls much younger than me would yield. I have always been with one woman. My wife. I knew that I was very attracted to women, and simply found a way to combat those feelings through the usual methods. I found myself growing more tired of my life. My wife. The kids. The nagging disturbance that I had accumulated over the years due to mistakes of my own doing. But, I buried my lust. I found ways to ward off my feelings for the pretty young things I might notice at a mall or on a street corner while accompanying my wife to wherever she needed to go. She'd ask me why we were not having sex. Why I wasn't trying to initiate any form of erotic pleasure. She isn't very experimental and doesn't desire to perform oral sex, which I tolerated, though, truth be told, I pondered in fantasies what it'd be like to have something much younger taking advances and instigating a tryst of some sort. It was just a fantasy, and I hadn't literally committed to anything against my wife, so all was well.
As I started attending school, I had one goal, to study as hard as I could and make the grade so I could better myself and my family.