***IF you have not already, you might want to read File #11 since this picks up where that left off.***
Usually when I wake-up the morning after sex, I can still feel some of Michael's cum inside of me. It is warm and makes me feel warm. It is a good feeling; one of the benefits of using the pill for birth control rather than a condom.
Usually, Valentine's Day is a special day for us. We both look forward to our romantic date, admittedly I more for the romance and he more for the sex.
But, as I dropped my feet over the side of the bed and slid them into my slippers and pulled on my robe, this was not the usual morning after sex nor was it the usual Valentine's Day. I was tortured by the twist of events that culminated in Michael's off the charts passion the night before.
As my slippers scraped the bedroom carpet, each step I took immediately reminded me that my pussy had been soaked just a few hours ago. His mouth. His cock. My juices. His cum. It was a messy pool of arousal that had been bubbling between my folds. Now it was in various stages of crusty smears between my thighs, semi-gelatin like glaze near my pussy, and a oozing flow seeping out of me.
As I turned on the shower, I stood there and shook my head. How could a well-intended self-pic sent to him have taken such a turn? And worse yet, what was I thinking when instead of putting a stop to things, I just kept adding fuel to the fire?
As I stood in the shower seeking more than just a cleansing of my body, my mind kept asking questions it could not answer. Was it me that turned him on so much last night or his mistaken belief it was somebody else? Was all that passion directed at me or someone else? Had he compared those self-pics of me, that he did not know was me, and run them through the rolodex of images in his mind of women he knew and had mentally undressed?
He had already left for work before I had risen. I felt his soft kiss on my cheek as he whispered "happy valentine's day", then headed out to work. I pretended to be worn out from the night before; it did not take much acting.
I stepped out of the shower and dried off. The towel in my hand squeaked as I rubbed a circle out on the fogged up bathroom mirror. As I pulled the comb through my hair, the small beachball-sized circle on the large plate glass mirror reflected back to me a partial view of what Michael had devoured. But was it ME that he enjoyed or was it someone else?
I pulled on my robe and went downstairs to the kitchen to get my morning cup of coffee. There on the table was a small, heart-shaped box of chocolate candies with a card resting against it. "Happy V-Day my HLF" the envelope read, a cryptic reference to his favorite, private pet-name for me, "hot little fuck". I didn't touch it. I just looked at it, conflicted.
That's when that little devil propped himself on my shoulder again, speaking words in my ear that only I could hear.
Kathleen, what's your problem?
My mind was trying to figure that out!
My naughty advisor continued.
Kathleen. What more could you possibly want? He fucked you good. He left you chocolates. And certainly more fun awaits you tonight!
I sat down to ponder my little devil's perspective. My hands curved around my cup of coffee as I sat at the table, staring at the unopened card and box of chocolates as if it were not mine to open. I muttered to myself, "What is wrong with you, Kathleen?" I had no answer. My little devil was silent as well.
I reached in my robe pocket and withdrew my phone. There was one person I thought I could count on to help me figure this out. She had already held my hand across forbidden boundaries in the past (File #13). She could certainly help me get a handle on this situation. I called her.
"Good morning, Jen."
"Hey girlfriend! Happy Valentine's Day."
"Happy Valentine's Day to you, too. Do you have a minute?"
"Kathleen, for you I have all the time in the world. What's up?"
I took a deep breath. "I have a situation here that I need your help with. It is complicated and I don't know what to do." I got no more than two or three minutes into a rambling preamble that quickly revealed to her that this was a touchy one. She listened until she had to interrupt.
"Would you like me to come over?"
"Oh Jen..." I hesitated with the words 'no thanks' dangling from my lips as my little devil whispered
say YES... you know you want to.
"Kathleen? Are you there?"
"Yeah, yeah... I'm here Jen. I don't want to be a bother. I just need to talk."
A short fifteen minutes later, Jen was at my door. I had not moved from the table, my thoughts dazed and confused. My mind was spinning over that box of chocolates and card like vultures narrowing in on their next meal.
I got up and went to the entry way, welcoming Jen in with a big hug that immediately let her know that I was upset more than she had picked up on the phone. "I am so glad you are here" I whimpered on her shoulder. "I am so confused."
"Well, first things first. I gotta have a cup of that coffee before we both get confused!" I smiled. Jen always had a way of getting me to see past my emotions in the moment by forcing a smile to my face. Still in just my robe and slippers, hair damp and plainly combed back, I retrieved a cup of coffee for her.
Jen wandered into the dining room to take a look at this ominous box of chocolates and card I had referenced. As I handed her the coffee cup she nodded at the table and playfully mused, "Such a menacing sight." Another smile.
I sat her down and unfolded the events of yesterday and last night. She listened intently. Jen seemed to never be judgmental about anything, and supportive in everything. She was a rare friend. I knew I did not need to worry about her reaction to my daring self-pic venture gone awry or Michael's unexpected interaction with it.
She patiently let me tell the whole story. When I led her to the final moment where I arrived at the box of chocolates and card, I ran out of gas and slumped back on the couch. I was ready for her help.
"Well Kathleen, the good news is that you have found another way to make it hot with Michael. Where did you come up with such an idea?!"
I shrugged my shoulders humbly, not all that concerned with credit at the moment, although my little devil did hiss in my ear,
Hey, it was MY idea!
Jen continued, "Of course the bad news is that you have a fire burning that needs to be contained and you are at a loss for how to do that." She smiled at me with a dramatic pause... "And I can help you with that. I actually think this could be fun for you."
My little devil whispered,
That's exactly what I said!
Jen pulled out her phone. "I have an idea. What is the addy and password for this secret email account you use?"
With blind trust in my friend's loyalty I gave it to her. She quickly navigated to my account on her phone. "Got it. Good. Now, let me see if I can ... " Her voiced tailed off as her finger swiped a few times over the screen of her phone. She tapped on the screen and smiled. "My my, girl, no wonder he got all horned up."
She was looking at my sent emails and the two pictures I had sent to Michael. "You are right. No face to give it away." She spread her fingers across the screen to zoom in on the pic. "And Michael is also right... VERY hot." She looked up and winked at me.
Her playful tease was therapeutic. It was a bit late and certainly not my target audience, but still nice anyway to receive that reaction to MY pic of MY body from someone who knew it was me.
That's when she got the sly smile on her face and an all-too-familiar naughty tone in her voice. She said, "Oh Kathleen, I have a great plan!" The little devil on my shoulder perked up and rubbed his wicked hands together,
I love it when she talks like that.
Without bothering to first clue me in on the plan, she jumped into action. She flipped through her aps and opened up the camera on her phone as she said to me, "Take off your robe."
My startled look was not in protestation, although I did hesitate.
Take it off!
my little devil echoed in my ear exactly as Jen repeated, "Kathleen, take off your robe."
I set my coffee cup down and pealed back my robe so that I was still sitting on it, albeit naked on the couch. Being exposed to Jen was not a new experience. It was this yet unexplained plan of hers that had me so nervous.
Before I recognized what she was doing, I heard the -click- of her phone taking my photo and instinctively pulled my robe back over my body. "What are you doing?!"
She laughed and said, "Relax! This is going to be soo good! Now, hold your coffee cup in your lap so it teases the camera by covering your pussy."