They just left.
I am so fucking angry, and empty, and hurt, and ready to kill them. I'm in shock. I feel like I'm frozen in a moment of knowing extreme hell is coming, but I have no ability to do anything. I just am waiting for hell to arrive and swallow me up.
She's the mother of our children. I want to hurt her now, but can't. This is so screwed up. I want to call my best bud, Jimmy, but I can't even do that. What could I say? My wife and her boss just made me a cuck, and there's nothing I can do. Nothing!
You see, I made a mistake after our second child was born. Susie had post partum depression. And for months she wouldn't do anything physical, no hugs, no kissing, no sex.. She was sad all the time. Life was really hard then with two very young girls.
So, Emily was this cute summer student who was working for me. She was always super flirty with me. On her last day before she finished the summer project we went out for drinks with our entire crew. I drove us to her place so she could change. I knew that wasn't the best idea, but honestly I figured at most I would get something more to masterbate to, I had a lot of scenarios I used to do that. One or two more wouldn't hurt right? I saw her nude image in a mirror while she changed, and she saw me. Nothing happened then. But later, well, that is where i put my foot in it.
The long story cut short was we wound up back at her place because i'd had a few drinks, and she was sober and drove. We fucked like rabbits that night. But then I had to go home. It was three in the morning. I should have showered. I should have ubered. I should have done a lot of things. And I shouldn't have fucked my summer student.
Susie was waiting for me. She saw me and knew. It nearly killed her. She kicked me out for the night. I felt like shit. I was a shit. I begged and pleaded. I told her I would do anything. I slept in the van in the driveway.
I was allowed to live. We stayed together. We slept in the same bed. We carried on like nothing happened, but she didn't trust me. And we didn't have any sex or contact for months. It was a tense five months. I think the first month we maybe said 5 words to each other unless it was talking about children, bills or family. Our friends commented on us, worried. Susie just said we are having a rough time adapting to family life. We will get through it. I followed her lead. Glad that she didn't throw me under the bus or park it right on top of me.
By the third month we were at least talking more. She was talking about the timelines to return to work. She seemed to be coming out of her post partum depression more as well. We still had no physical contact. It was like our bed had an invisible wall. No kisses good morning, or goodnight or goodbye. Not even a pat on the arm was allowed. I tried every so often and the reaction was like I spilled acid on her. And then a glare. A cold steely eyed glare. I would back away apologizing.
I think I apologized every day at least three times in the beginning. By month five, she had told me to stop, but at least once a week I would when I crossed some kind of line or boundary.
Then one night about a week after she returned to work she kissed me. First contact in over 5 months. I was floored. Her eyes sparkled a bit. But when I touched her hand later in the evening I got that cold look. Ice! At least I got a kiss.
A few nights later when we went to bed, she kissed me passionately. After nearly a year she was back. She even gave me a blow job with the most incredible skill and eroticism. Then after I came in her mouth she tried to swallow, but couldn't. But when she returned to bed she sucked me hard again. She climbed on top and slowly rode me to three or four orgasms before I released inside her again. We cuddled and I quietly thanked God she still loved me. I was in a bit of shock that this came about without discussion or any lead up or anything. But I was sure happy we were at least making progress.
After that night we resumed a more normal life together. We began talking more, about anything and everything. After the second week of normalcy I got another shock. When I told her that I thanked her for forgiving me she surprised me.
"No way in hell are you forgiven for what you did. I just found a way to still love you in spite of that"
I was kind of floored by that statement. And when I pressed her to explain all I ever got was "Two things honey, do you love me? And do you love the sex?"
My answer was obviously "yes."
"Good. I still love you and I like the sex too" and that would be the end of the conversation.the sex was better than before we had kids. She even tried a few new things which I was totally game with. That was two months ago.
Now, tonight things changed. I thought everything was going to be ok. But it wasn't. I was in the study, typical for a Friday evening for me. Finishing off stuff before the weekend. Susie had taken our two kids to her moms for the weekend. I was looking forward to some time alone. Then the doorbell rang. Susie yelled out that she'd get it. Then she called me to come to the living room.
I went into the room and saw her, dressed in a slinky dress that barely covered her pussy and the top had her tits about to be bursting out. Skin tight was a little looser a fit than this. And behind her was her boss Darren. Behind him was a big black man in a dark suit.
"What's going on?" I asked
I watched Darren walk up next to Susie and put an arm around her.
Susie started speaking, confidently she said " It's time for you to understand our relationship better"
Darren cut in on the statement from Susie. " Let me spell this out for you. You both have committed adultery. You admitted it freely. So does she. If you divorce, there is no cause or fault. It becomes irreconcilable differences. She gets half. The house, the vehicles, the cottage, your business, any savings and as typical for most divorces, she will retain custody. You will pay child support, and alimony. Divorce her and her bonuses get cut off as revenue you would make up the lost revenue to her. Trust me we can pay her in other ways quite legally but still keep you in line to pay support."
He paused to get a breath, or for effect "Add to that, I will take over being your children's dad. That means you will only be a minor part in their lives, if any part."
He had his arm over Susie's shoulders. He reached down and caressed her breast. She sighed and melted into him more.
" Stay and you will continue to have your life. She will make very good bonuses based on our work, and you keep your family. My only claim to her on this is that she is available when I request, and that she has always got free will to determine her own choices."
Again he paused. " This isn't meant to humiliate you or break up your marriage, it is simply to allow us to have our relationship." He looked at Susie and squeezed her breast. They kissed.
"We are leaving now. She will return on Sunday mid day so you can go collect your children. Any violence, threats, or if you leave, it will result in actions against you. It's not a threat, it is what will happen"
I so badly wanted to cave in the back of his head with a hammer, but his security was keeping a very close eye on me.
"Bye honey, see you Sunday" was all she said on her way out the door.
After they cleared the door the goon followed, keeping an eye on me.
I watched stunned as Darren made a scene of kissing Susie passionately and pulling her dress up so I could see her shaved pussy. Then they ducked in the car and drove away. She never shaved, said it was too painful when it grew in. And hurt like hell with razor burn. What the fuck.
And then they just left. Drove away. Left me in my misery. I realized I didn't even get over the shock to say a word. That's how bad my shock was. I had no idea my Susie had any thought of fooling around let alone doing this. I just got cucked, and I didn't have a way out.
I was fuming. How dare she rub my nose in this, her fucking her boss. For the whole weekend! Fuck me! What was I going to do?