As I whisper my final refusal – the word "no" – in your ear, you rub my shoulders and whisper back, "it's alright, love, it's alright. I love you so much and it's fine. I am happy to go as far as you want and absolutely no more. But if it's ok with you, I'm going to walk you to the elevator and then go home."
We've had dinner; old friends meeting after a couple years, as I am on a business trip to your city. Over the course of a meal I can no longer remember, and a shared bottle of wine, we both realize that the chemistry, the heat, it will always be there. We kissed in the car; your hands on my breasts, mine on your erection. But I whisper to you, "no...no...no" and you whisper back "ok...ok...ok..."
Now we are in my lobby. You walk me to the elevator and press the 'up' button. As the elevator dings, you lean in to kiss my cheek; I turn my head quickly so you are kissing my lips. I lean into you; press my breasts into your chest. I turn away and get into the waiting elevator without looking back.
Up in my room, I close the door behind me. I am dizzy with desire for you, and giddy with the relief that I did not break my marriage vows. I sit down slowly on the edge of the bed, shoes and coat still on; purse in my lap, as if I am waiting for a bus. I am certainly waiting. At length, I get up, kick off my shoes, and start to undress. I am in a daze, not consciously understanding what I am doing. As I move, I feel my body sway under my clothes. My nipples tighten; my pussy is soaked, heavy between my legs. As another author once wrote, I feel like I sat on a tomato. I refuse the urge to touch myself, curl into myself, and bring myself some relief. I like this feeling of want, of a need so desperate that it transcends time. I finally feel something again.
I wash my face and brush my teeth, and put on my black cotton pajamas. As I am getting ready to get into bed, I glance out my window at the street below. I see a shiny silver car that looks like yours, parked just below my window and my heart starts thudding in my chest. At that exact moment, I hear a knock on my door. It feels like an eternity before I get to the door, and at this point, my heart is racing like I ran a marathon. I open the door to find you standing there. Instead of your trademark goofy grin and wide-eyed excitement, you are serious – almost stern.
You put your huge, warm hand on my chest and push me backwards, slowly, into the room, shedding your jacket as you walk. I know you can feel my heart hammering in my chest. You push me all the way across the room, past the bed, until I feel the corner of the desk at my ass. With your hand still on my chest, you push me backwards, until I am leaning on the desk. Then you kiss me, so hard that our teeth clink together. Your left hand comes up and winds itself tightly into my hair; your right hand grasps my waist hard. I know there will be a bruise there tomorrow. Your mouth is still on mine, and then travels from my mouth across my face, to my earlobe, and then down the left side of my neck. Your right hand glides up my back; it tickles, and I arch my back, pushing my breasts into your chest.
I can dimly feel the hard ridge of a pen at my hip, but it doesn't matter. You pull me closer, kiss me harder, frantically; my lips hurt under the weight of your kiss. You pull my shirt up and crouch down, planting a kiss between my bare breasts. Your hands come down to my breasts; push them up on either side of your face. You squeeze them, kiss them, and lick at them. Your tongue lashes at the sweat under the curve of my left breast, and comes up my side until your nose is in my armpit. You smell my scent; breathe it deeply as if it is a drug, and lick at the moisture you find there. At this point, my knees start to buckle and you catch me. I can feel your hardness through your pants as you pull me close. As you look into my eyes, you smile slowly – your trademark goofy grin – and my surrender is in that grin.
You swing me around and sit me on the edge of the bed. You are standing, straddling my thighs as I sit on the bed. You kiss me again; hands at my breasts, and then you are pulling off my pajama top. I am in a frenzy to pull you close, feel your weight on me, and I try to pull off your shirt. But it is a button-down shirt, and I can't get it over your head, and I am trying to undo those tiny buttons, but my hands are shaking and I am about to cry with frustration. You push me back on the bed and take off your shirt yourself, slowly undoing each button, pushing the shirt back off your broad chest. You unbuckle your jeans and let them drop, as you slip off your shoes. Without the constraint of your pants, I can see your erection jutting proudly towards me; your white cotton boxers barely contain it. I had forgotten how thick and long you are. I will have trouble accommodating you.
Your little striptease has slowed the pace and we are able to relax a little, knowing that the inevitable has arrived. I scoot on the bed backwards; at the same time, you stretch out, until you are lying flat on top of me. I groan with your weight, with the feel of your chest on my bare breasts. You raise yourself up and look at me. "So beautiful, so amazing" you murmur.
You bend your head slowly to my left breast, and my nipples harden even more in anticipation. I think you are about to suck on my nipple, and then I feel the edge of your teeth. You bite my nipple, slowly increasing the pressure until I am gasping in pain, delirious with pleasure. You take my right nipple in your mouth and do the same. By this point I am writhing under you and squeezing my thighs together – the juices smearing onto my thighs. I feel my pajama bottoms stick to my wetness.
You kiss your way down my stomach, stopping at the indentation of my belly-button. Your mouth finds its way to my right hipbone. I am a curvy girl, but stretched out like I am, my hipbone juts out – you suck your mouth down over it, and bite at it. I had no idea my hipbone was such a sensitive thing!