I was browsing through an older section of my music collection the other day and came across a gem of a song that I hadn't paid any mind to recently and listening to it, I was reminded of some of the old whitewashed farmhouses I knew of growing up in the woods of Maine. They are nestled among endless field stone walls and overgrown paths through thickets of tall white pine and sugar maples, birches and old white oaks. Every house has a multitude of stories, some comic and others tragic; most of them secrets known only to the inhabitants long since departed from the stage.
Tom Waits wrote the song and put it on an earlier LP back when vinyl was king and before 'fresh dough' pizza fooled us into thinking we'd never experienced real pizza before. Dover Pizza used to buy their shells frozen in tall stacks and thawed them for quick baking when hungry teenagers popped in for a cheese or pepperoni pie; we didn't know they weren't golden. Hell, they tasted great.
This story has the usual disclaimers; if you are looking to pull pud, burn your favorite bitch or scream 'cuck shit', well this one isn't for you. None of the characters are based on actual people or events. The couple of people who I absolutely don't give a rats ass about comment wise know who they are.
Once it held laughter
Once it held dreams
Did they throw it away
Did they know what it means
Did someone's heart break
Or did someone do somebody wrong?
...Without love...
It ain't nothin but a house
A house where nobody lives
- T. Waits
Reality is a life long event.
The silent puff of snow kicked up with each lift of the leather webbing as the old man crossed the drift only to meet another before him. The storm out of the Gulf of Maine started yesterday afternoon with a dead calm; muffled sounds falling flat to the ground in anticipation of the fury beholden to the thick clouds above. He should have known with all his years of experience trekking through these woods that it was a big one yet still he launched himself into what had become a weekly jaunt; a journey back to a time caught forever in the walls and joists of that old woods camp way back in from the back forty.
The weather worn cedar siding of the camp blended in with the wintery grey of the sap grove it set in with the swirling snow beating white pastel abstract portraits against the windows and eaves. A heavy boot kicked the snow off the door step and with the snowshoes mounted, crisscrossed in the deep bank of snow, John Dawes opened the camp and trudged inside before pushing the door shut tight against the forces trying their best to enter the safety inside the heavy timbers.
Thirty minutes later a crackling fire and a pot of robust coffee stoked the room to life as the storm continued to rage outside. Warmed over beans and what was leftover of a can of brown bread were the fare for supper. It had been this way for over fifty years now. The roof had been repaired and a new stove pipe a couple times but other than that the camp had well stood the ravages. Now, with the soft light of a couple kerosene lanterns, the old man waited for nightfall and a restful sleep in the bunk over next to the stove.
John Dawes clipped the end of the cigar and lit it off the stove before settling back into the rocking chair and watching the embers click and pop in the fire before him. It was 1936 when he and his two brothers built the camp. Of course it was yesterday or so it seemed; all those years ebbing past to find him sitting there in solitude. It might have been loneliness but if so he was at least content.
Fifty plus years of memories were replayed here often and always with the same result; each time he went back to the beginning...
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The farmhouse had been built in 1917 on 78 acres of woods and pasture on the north side of Howell's Bend Road. It was pretty much like every other farmhouse in the neighborhood. Along the five miles of dirt road there were a dozen families scratching out a subsistence living by the time John and Sylvia Dawes purchased the place for $650 in 1934.
The old mill upriver from town provided a meager existence to supplement the money brought into the household through the sale of pulpwood; twenty five cents an hour in the spinning room for maybe 20 hours work if he was lucky. Sylvia sold eggs and butter in town once a week and when the road crews started laying gravel John would shovel dirt for a day and collect his pay at the end of the shift.
It was the height of the Great Depression and as the old newspaper man had said, 'times were tough, tougher for some than others'. A man could work himself to death and his wife or widow might find herself on her back for some pug of a man just to feed her children. In John's case, he was a stout, rugged man and hard work made him stronger.
Sylvia was another matter. The couple had married in 1932 and lived in an upstairs flat in town with a stipend from her parents. It was always intended that Sylvia would attend Teacher's College down in Orono when she graduated from the Academy but Hoover's economic malaise brought that notion to a stuttering end. Instead she found herself as a subsistence wife down on the farm. Sure she was in love and her parents knew it but there was still a lingering taste of middle life in her constitution and the finery of her parent's comfortable world was a bit beyond reach.
A couple evenings after moving down onto the farm on Howell's Bend, the house down for the night and John, freshly scrubbed from the evening's chores, approached his bride and slipped the nightclothes off his muscled torso. Sylvia, as with most of their encounters lay there open for him. The missionaries from the Baptist church would have boasted in the prowess of their doctrinaire endeavors.
Their love-making was gentle, measured as necessary for the decorum of the day.
"Honey, you didn't use the tin." She whispered above her arousal.
"I know. I'll pull out."
John tapped her deep and built to a crescendo before pulling out and emptying onto her mons. Beads of sweat collected in the valley of her bosom as they lay there contented with their pleasures.
Birth control along Howell's Bend consisted predominantly of the husband pulling out or slipping a sheepskin out of the small tin and over his Johnson. There were no pills to take in 1934 and several of the housewives there and in town were wary of putting one in the oven in the midst of the Malaise...
With the arrival of each fall every household on the road busied themselves with finishing the garden harvest and loading silage into the barn for feeding livestock. Seasoned firewood logs needed splitting and loading into the woodshed and a breeder working through the Maine Grange would make his rounds with a couple of his prize bulls to make sure the milkers were set with calves for spring...
He was an interesting fellow; college educated out of Orono and for a rather young fellow, had an endless supply of stories from his travels up and down the back roads throughout the county. By most accounts Wendell Acker fancied himself a ladies man while many of the farmers in the neighborhood referred to him as Wendie out of earshot since he struck most as being a bit on the effeminate side of things.
Everybody in the neighborhood might have poked fun at him in jest but to a man they all wanted his services. He had three of the best prize bulls in the state; two Guernsey and a Holstein.
"Good to see you, Wendell. I've got all three of them close to their time. We can put him in the rail pen on the other side of the barn tie-up." John pointed to the old grey weatherworn tall barn behind the garden past the main house.
"He's about ready to get it done there, John. You'll be the first on the road this year." Wendell grinned widely as he pointed to the brutish specimen behind him in the short trailer. The enormous animal licked his broad tongue across his face while eying his captors.
"I've got a room ready for you upstairs. Sylvia changed everything out and I think she's even carved out a blue hubbard for baking since you liked it so much last year... just pulled it from the garden this morning."
Sylvia had been fresh on Wendell's mind when he pulled off the road onto the two track drive to the Dawes place. She struck him as out of place in this farmer's world and seemed more of the kind of young girls he spent much of his college career wooing to their naked backs once they were free of the clutches of Father and Mother.
She was of medium height, maybe 5'5", 120 lbs. if she was wet. Sylvia usually dressed modestly, every button fastened up with only the fullness of her firm breasts outlined by the gingham dress so much the rage among these simple farm wives. With raven hair and chocolate eyes the only other distraction was the firmness and shape of a hidden bottom behind the flow of that same dress.
She was finer than that farmer Melvin Clay's wife a half mile in the other direction but then Mrs. Clay had a predilection for the dirty, especially when Melvin was off cutting wood on two day jaunts. The previous month Wendell had pulled in the yard just a few minutes after Melvin had disappeared out of view through the woods off the north pasture.