When I was growing up, most of my girlfriends were being taught that they could do and be anything that they wanted. My education was drastically different, which made me sort of an odd ball in many respects. One principal difference is that I will proudly admit that I am a sex object, since nature has seen fit to endow me with those attributes that inspire lust in men. For my husband, I am also a sexual plaything. After all, it is my duty as a wife, and a woman, to give him the sexual fulfillment that he wants, needs, and deserves. From my perspective, that means that my entire body is available to him whenever he wants it.
In conjunction with what I have just related, I was taught to believe that there was no such thing as equality between the sexes. To me, men, from the earliest point in time, have always been the authoritarian figure, the ruler of all, especially women. They were meant to be the masters, with women as their supportive subordinates.
Now don't get the idea that I am some brainless slave, because I am not. Like most women, my intelligence is superior to that of the average male. Yet, I chose not to flaunt it. I believe that there is an inherent social structure, and I was not meant to be at the top of it.
This belief leads to the conclusion that I am nothing without a man, and I agree with that. My place is to be, symbolically, one step behind my husband, lending my support and advice when it is needed, but willing to abide by whatever decision he makes. Luckily I have a man that seeks my counsel, although he occasionally does not follow it.
An example of this is that my husband, Brad, is an avid gambler, despite my objections. Since he is the king of our castle, I have no right to prevent him from holding his bi-monthly poker games in our home. In a way, I do not mind these games, since they are usually for low stakes, and his friends are really nice guys.
The games normally start around 8:00 and last until midnight. While the game is in progress, I make sure that the boys are never out of beer, and that there are snacks for them to munch on. Sometimes, when I am serving, my husband, or one of his friends, will pat me on the butt, or make an offhanded compliment, generally of a sexual nature. Of course I do sort of instigate this by replying with some sexual comment of my own. Usually something about them not being man enough to handle me, or that they would not know what to do with me if they had me.
Somewhere between 10:00 and 11:00 I make my final round before heading off to bed. As I do, I give each of the guys a friendly kiss on the cheek. My last stop is my husband, where I allow him to try and shove his tongue down my throat while he fondles my unfettered breasts.
When I enter the bedroom I leave the door open, although Brad has gotten me in the habit of sleeping in the nude. I am aware that this is a dangerous thing to do, but I have learned that what transpires at the games is just good natured fun, and never will be acted upon. That is until that one fateful night.
It started just like all the other poker parties, with the usual guys. Only this time one of them had brought along a friend, Daryl, to join in. At first he seemed like a nice enough guy, except that I got the impression that he was trying to disrobe whenever I was not looking. Now this has become standard procedure for the guys, but the way he did it made me feel uncomfortable.
Even before the usual three beers, the sexual innuendoes, and light groping began. Daryl started it by placing his hand on my leg, just below the hem of my short skirt. Because I had grown accustom to things like this, I paid no attention to it.
"Are you wearing panties?" he asked.
"That's for me to know and you to find out," I replied in my usual glib way, only to feel his hand suddenly shoot upward. Before I could even react, his fingers were touching my unclad pussy.
"This bitch ain't wearing no panties," he exclaimed as I moved away from him.
"No shit Sherlock, she isn't wearing a bra either," Jerry intoned sarcastically.
This was the first time I had ever been called a bitch, and I was not sure if I liked it. Like I said before, I did not mind the sexual inferences and the occasional improper caress. To me, it was part of being a sex object, but being called a bitch was unwarranted.
Because of my beliefs, I could not reprimand Daryl myself, and looked to my husband to uphold my honor. When our eyes met, he knew what I expected him to do. But instead of saying anything, he looked away as if he was intimidated by the new guy.
Lacking any form of chastisement, Daryl was free to do what he wanted, and the rest of the night he was all hands. If I came anywhere near him, which was hard not to do, he was attempting to get his finger in my pussy. When he was not doing that, he was trying to expose my breasts. This he managed to do several times, before I finally buttoned up my blouse all the way to my neck. With my breast now inaccessible, by the knot that had previously held my blouse together, and the buttons, the only thing I had to worry about was my vulnerable pussy.
I know that I could have gone into the bedroom and put on some pants, but I did not want to give him the satisfaction. Besides, all the other guys, including my husband, were getting a kick out of watching me squirm around, trying to keep his finger from plunging into me. It was as if it had become some kind of sadistic game, with everyone waiting to see if I would surrender and allow him to reach his goal.
For me it was no game. My body belonged to my husband, and only he was entitled to determine its disposition. He had gained that right by the act of marriage, using that golden ring to transfer ownership from my father to him.
A little after 10:00 I went to bed, not bother to give everyone my customary kiss goodnight. As I headed towards the bedroom, I had the pleasure of knowing that I had thwarted Daryl's efforts to finger me. Not once was he able to get further than the delicate folds of my pussy lips.
After I had stripped off my clothes, I crawled into bed and pulled the covers over my naked body. I don't know how long I slept, but I was awaken by the tug of the covers being pulled from between my legs. When I opened my eyes, I discovered that I was completely exposed, except for one leg and a small portion of my lower body. Harold was standing by the side of the bed, trying to reveal what little there was that was still hidden.
"It's okay," he said, as I grabbed what covering I could and flung it over me, hugging them to my naked body. "I came to warn you."
"Warn me about what?"
Harold sat down beside me and began to relate what had happened after I left. He reminded me that Brad had been drinking more than usual, and that it only got worse after I went to bed. Because of all the beer that he had drunk, he began to play sloppily, losing almost ever hand. Eventually he ran out of money and wanted to bet IOU's, but Daryl wouldn't let him. They told Daryl that Brad was good for it, but he wouldn't listen.
"What has that got to do with me? My husband has done that before."