It had been four days since I kissed Jane in her car and I had not heard a word from her. I wondered why I didn't get a message from her Saturday night, relating she had made it home okay. Or something on Sunday, so that I knew she was alright. I didn't want to blow up her phone like I was a love-sick teenager, but I was concerned about her psyche and whether she was; or wasn't good with the end of our night. I was curious. I wondered how it was sitting with her. Did it freak her out, or did it open more thoughts than expected? I decided I was not going to be a text stalker and let loose a barrage of texts. I figured when she's ready to talk she'll text or call me.
I must have summoned her telepathically, because lo and beyond, several hours later I got a text from Jane. In short, it read, Sorry I haven't reached out, I was busy Sunday with family stuff, and this week I have had caseloads of work. I have been in and out of court for days on end now. She followed up by writing a second message saying, I had a great time Saturday, thanks for the chat and your honesty, I appreciate it.
I was glad she texted, reaching out to me and I replied accordingly. I was happy she had a good time on Saturday, but I was disappointed she hadn't mentioned the kiss. Especially that long of a kiss. It wasn't like it was some quick good night thing because we were two drunk women, being silly. We had a pretty heated long, passionate kiss in that car. Maybe she was still digesting it. Maybe it wasn't her cup of tea and she wasn't going to do it again. Or maybe she just didn't want to put that in writing and say something incriminating. Although, I wouldn't know who it would be incriminating against. But You know women, we're all nuts.
I laid low and didn't text her or bother her, basically my thinking was if she was interested in more of anything with me, friendship, lover, sexual experiment, she would let me know. And we'd take it from there. I did think of her a lot. I fantasized about being with her, hoping one day she would just show up here or invite me over and we'd end up making love. But, so far, I wasn't even close to receiving that from her. The remainder of that week and from there on, we did text more frequently, so I was relieved at least I was still a figure in her life.
Weeks went by before I saw her again when we both had the chance to get together. We had lunch on Sunday afternoon just over three weeks out from that goodnight kiss. We met at an outdoor café and I was excited to see her. She hugged me but seemed uneasy as to what to do next. We sat outside and enjoyed having chicken salad sandwiches and Mimosa's. It was a pleasure seeing her and during our time together we talked about everything in life, except that kiss. Everything except her feelings, her thoughts, and ideas. I figured she had decided to not pursue any further sexual activity with me, or with a woman. So, I didn't push the issue. After lunch, we walked back over to the parking garage where we both had parked. She gave me a long hug and we said goodbye. She went her way and I went mine.
Just after getting into my car and pulling out of my parking space, to head down the ramps to the exit, I got a text from Jane. It read; Did you leave the parking garage yet?
I answered her, "No, I am still making my way down the ramps."
Can we meet for a minute, I want to talk to you, was her follow-up text.
I agreed and I circled trying to find her in the garage because she said she was parked in the purple section, 3 J. I drove around until I located the section and spotted her car parked. I pulled into a spot across the aisle, a few cars down. As I was getting my car in gear, I could see Jane walking behind my car towards me in my rear-view mirror. She stood at my passenger side door, talking to me through the window. I could tell she was more nervous than she had been at lunch and was uneasy about standing there talking to me. She nervously jabbered on apologizing she had been unable to talk to me more and furthering she was sorry she seemed distant after the night at the bar. Then she switched gears and was talking about the horrible waiter we had at lunch and how the Mimosa tasted flat.
I knew there was more to this chat than a; I'm sorry I haven't been around much and that bad waiter talk, so I asked her if everything was okay.
"No." She replied. "I have a lot going through my mind," she furthered.
"It's all about trust," I told her. "Isn't that what you say?" I questioned.
"Yes, it is," Jane replied.
"Well, get in and talk to me." Was my direction to her.
Jane opened the door, looking around like she was about to make a drug deal or something as if someone was watching us, and climbed into the front seat of my car.
"I can share things with you? Right?" She asked me.
I giggled, and spoke to Jane, "It's me. What's going on?"
Jane took a deep breath and finally spit out, "I don't know what's going on with me. I have been so out of sorts since we kissed." She furthered; "I hate to say this to you, because I was sitting with you, but the whole time we were eating lunch, I kept staring at the waitress's ass, who was helping the people behind us. I don't know what's wrong with me."
I interjected my thoughts to make her feel normal, justifying; "I saw her ass too, it was pretty sexy."
Jane and I both laughed loudly out of embarrassment to the point I snorted and we took a moment to let the stress of the situation go.
We sat quietly for a few moments and I wasn't mad she was checking out someone else's ass, I just knew there was more to this.
Jane spoke up again, "When I was coming here to meet you, I didn't know if I should kiss you or just hug you. I'm so lost."
Jane then blushingly spoke out, "I have been so... You know." Using her hands as an illustrator, to let me know she has been horny and masturbating. "I can't stop, it's been... like daily." She furthered.
"Well, that's normal," I replied. "Sometimes, we just get those moments."
"But it's not like me." She spoke loudly.
She then turned towards me, her eyes widened and she whispered deeply; "It's been all about women."
I started giggling, putting my hand over my mouth. And I could see the frustration in her eyes that my giggling did not help her situation. I had to apologize to her and I spoke, "I'm sorry, I am not laughing at you, I'm laughing at the situation, because I know exactly what you are going through."
"Is that normal, am I turning into a lesbian?" She boldly asked.
"No, Sweetie. You are just experiencing some new fantasies. It's okay. We all get 'em." I replied.