My name is Lisa. Stupid way to start out a story, isn't it? Oh well, this is hard for me. So bear with me. I come from a typical family, I have a typical job, I have had typical boyfriends, and whatever other uses of the word typical there are, they apply to me. Your average girl.
I'm 5'7, one hundred-low-thirty-something-pounds, and, because I know most of you are men, my 'rack' as you would call it is a modest 34B. They are small, but I have gotten over my teenage embarrassment and now I worry about other things, mostly. I have strawberry blond hair with brighter highlights, and it's a little past my shoulders. I have large brown eyes, and with the right lipstick, full and luscious red lips. Without the lipstick is another story. I think I'm getting off track here.
I rent a small one bedroom condo from a friend of the family, I live alone, and I'm not currently seeing anyone. I got a degree from community college and then dropped out of a state university. I work in an office environment doing customer satisfaction surveys. Sounds stupid, but it pays well, and I like the people I work with.
Ok, I promise I'll stop going on about myself soon. I'll go on about Donna for a minute.
She is hard to explain. We knew each other in High School, became friends in college, and now see each other once a month or so. We're good friends, without being best friends. I had a shortage of female friends at one point, and I grew very close to her, but then things got weird, and we drifted apart. I'll tell you why in a minute, but recently we have been seeing more of each other. It's a complicated relationship, which I can't properly explain, because of a series of three situations.
First situation. In college, we went to a party together. We got dared to French kiss for a few minutes. We did. No big deal right? I had to convince myself of that afterwards. I am almost positive I am not a lesbian, I don't find girls attractive in the way I find guys attractive, but on some level, I enjoyed the taboo aspect of bisexuality, if only through kissing.
Second situation. It was several months later, we got drunk at my apartment. We laughed and acted stupid, drunk girls falling all over each other, nothing THAT abnormal. We didn't kiss, we talked a lot about sex, but it was all heterosexual experiences and fantasies. She told me she had been in a threesome before, and I told her about my more standard sexual experiences. We had a good time, no big deal. She fell asleep when we started watching a movie, and I put a blanket on her. I went to bed, but left the door open, in case she woke up and needed something in the night.
I woke up with her arm around me. My head hurt and I had to pee, so I got up quickly and hurried into the bathroom. As I got up, I adjusted my panties, and realized my shirt was open. Now, I truly don't know what happened, but the shirt I sleep in is silk buttoned night shirt, and I always sleep with at least three or four of the buttons fastened. So my shirt was undone, and Donna had crawled in bed with me at some point. My head hurt and I just crawled back into bed, and went back to sleep. When I woke up a few hours later, Donna was up and about. I didn't say anything about my shirt, but after she left, I thought a lot about it.
I didn't just think about it, I began to obsess about it. I tried to remember anything, but it was completely blank from the time I went to bed and woke up, I didn't remember her crawling in the bed, nothing. I called her a couple of days later, with a rehearsed joke about the situation. It was like "you must have been so drunk that when you climbed into the bed you started fondling anything that was warm" NOT those exact words, because what I said didn't sound stupid, but I don't remember exactly what I said, it was something along those lines. She replied "you probably wish I did!" and then I said yes, but I was joking, I swear under all that is holy I only meant it as a joke.
Third Situation. It was two weeks after that incident, I had convinced myself that it was all in my head, she hadn't touched me when I was asleep, she was still a good friend and everything was all right. She called me wanting to go to a movie. I said sure, we got coffee before hand, and then went into the theatre. In the middle of the movie, I felt her hand move and touch mine, so I looked over at her. She leaned in and kissed me, and I was too shocked to do anything. I kind of kissed her back, and her hand went down to my leg and I jumped back. I got up and whispered that I had forgotten I had a family obligation the next day and I walked out. We didn't talk for three weeks.
So that's how our relationship turned weird. That was the background. What I wanted to write about was the night we spent together recently. You see, I couldn't get this fantasy of her touching me when I was asleep out of my head. I have sexual fantasies, everyone does, but this was something new and scary. Before I knew it, after three weeks I broke down, called her, asked if she wanted to spend the night and get drunk again. I said work was going bad, and I just needed a night away. She agreed somewhat reluctantly.
She was going to come over at around nine. At seven I went to the supermarket and bought supplies, beer, wine, and some mixing supplies. When I got home, I took a long shower, shaving all the proper parts. I made sure to trim certain regions below the waist, so that I could feel sexy should anything happen. I got dressed in casual attire. Tight jeans, modest t-shirt. I tied my hair back in a ponytail, and straightened up my whole apartment. I was sitting around watching television when she called.
I walked down to the gate to let her in. She was dressed similar to me, jeans and a halter top, covered by a cute jacket. We hugged, and I led the way back to my apartment. I hung her coat up we went to the kitchen to peruse the selections. We decided on red wine, and I poured two glasses, and took the bottle back with us to the couch. After a few minutes of comfortable silence she dove right into the heart of the matter.
"Lisa, I know this is weird, and we should talk about it," she said casually, "I keep getting mixed signals from you." I wanted to deny it, and I knew my face was red.
"Oh, well, I don't know. I'm not really sure about it," I said nervously.
"Do you like girls at all?" Donna asked with a small smile.
"I think that's what I'm not sure about," I said, not looking at her.
"Okay, as long as I wasn't totally wrong," she said with that same smile. She then giggled, "You look so scared, relax! I'm not going to jump you or anything." I laughed dutifully with her, although I was still scared.
The conversation went neutral for a while. We drank the bottle of red wine. I'm kind of rushing these parts, because we had another fun night, it only got interesting for you guys later, after another bottle of red wine. So after several hours of talking, watching television, and just spending time together, we decided to watch a movie. We put in Sixteen Candles, because it just doesn't get old.
I got up and got the second bottle of red wine, and brought it back to the couch. Donna got up and retrieved a blanket from my bedroom. I sat down on the couch, red wine in hand and watched Donna sit back down. She sat up on the far side of the couch, spread the blanket over her legs, and then opened one side of it.
"Come on, bring the wine over and I'll let you share the blanket," she said.
I just grinned and crawled over. Almost as a joke, I leaned heavily against her. I was planning on moving, but she just tossed the blanket over me, and I handed her the bottle of wine. She had the corkscrew, opened it, and took a drink straight from the bottle. She handed it back, and not wanting to be rude, I put the bottle to my lips as well.
"This way is fun, I just hope you don't mind my cooties," I said jokingly and handed the bottle back.
In response, she took the bottle and licked the top of it. I stared at her in shock. She handed it back and raised her eyebrows at me.
I wasn't sure what she wanted me to do, or if she was just waiting for a reaction. I just took a drink, smiled, and handed it back to her.